{CLOSED GROUP} Journey to BFP and Beyond!

[jlw617]

Yay Fleur!
so when will you start testing then? Thanks for the input about the CM! I am praying that this is my month...The other day I was in Marshalls and saw the cutes baby boy outfits on clearance, I couldn't resist buying them, they are for cooler weather so If we conceive anytime in the next 4 months or so, he should be able to wear it, that is if I have a boy LOL! if not oh well, theres always a gazillion ladies in my church that's pregnant haha.

Terissa-Have you been doing the opks?

WHERE is Kylee?!!! I haven't heard from her, did I just miss her?

I hope everyone has a great day! Ive been doing some spring cleaning and selling some old stuff I dont use/wear any more!

 

[Fleur828815]

Aww cute baby outfits! Hope you'll get to use them on your baby. I've got a HUGE box of baby/children's clothes (boys and girls), I just couldn't resist buying them before but stopped when I started TTC for fear of jinxing myself (silly since I still lost the baby).

I'm not going to let myself think about testing this month, unless AF isn't here by CD 33 at least. When I got pregnant I managed to hold out till CD 33 or 34 although I "knew" almost a week before that, I just felt different and had a few symptoms.

 

[coucou11]

Fleur - WOW! Great job on the BD, you guys have a lot of energy I wouldn't be surprised at all if you cuaght the egg this time - I hope so!!

Jamie can't wait for you to test! I love the idea of cute baby boy outfits... hopefully soon!

I don't really have any symptoms so far - some slight twinging / cramping, and I noticed today my cervix is really high.

 

[tcinks]

Hey ladies, nice to see some chatter in here again :wave:

So glad to see the progress we've all had from a few months ago. Things are looking much more hopeful!

I'm cd 14 or 15...dtd Sunday and this morning. Hoping to again tonight or tomorrow. Fleur, you're like a machine. I'm not sure I could go that many straight days. I have a good feeling about this cycle though, really hoping and praying we get our bfp. Ready to have something to look forward to again.

 

[kdmalk]

Jamie- hope that is a good sign!

Terrissa- yeah. I fell off that wagon pretty quickly. Lol. I am trying to be better about eating now that I know I am pregnant, but being tired and cooking don't seem to mix. I am the same about not keeping sweets in the house! Although.... We do have a few things right now that I keep forgetting about. That's a new talent for me. Lol.

Leigh- I said I wouldn't test 10000 times and I just kept doing it. I give up. You should give up too. It's secretly really fun to test. Just don't give yourself a uti like I did holding all the time to do evening tests. Lol.

Kate- hope yoy have a good appointment and get some stuff cleared up!

AFM, I am terrified to step foot in the gym for fear I will hurt the baby, which I know is really unlikely. I am being overly cautious this time. That being said, I don't actually know that I am doing so well. Physically, my boobs are sore and I have had a fair amount of random cramping and twinges (particularly on the left), and I am honestly just terrified. I did spot super minimally (basically just had some brownish cm) maybe at 11dpo (after bfp), but it went away within a few hours. It started with feeling like maybe possibly the tp was a bit tinted after I wiped. In conjunction with some light cramping/aching this evening, I am having another moment where I feel like the tp is brown, so worried the spotting is going to start again (or worse). I took a test yesterday at 16dpo to compare to 14dpo and that was a mistake. It was basically the same color. No more tests left, and I refuse to buy more, so who knows what is going on... And my boobs have days where they are hardly sore and then days where it hurts to walk. Today is a hardly sore day, so I am of course convinced something is wrong. Especially with the aching. My first appointment is Feb. 5, so I guess I will just wonder until then. Unless I lose the baby before then. I keep telling myself that I am not carrying this stress and that this is just passing thoughts and not actually affecting me.... But I learned today that that is a huge lie. I kept noticing that my shoulders were suddenly relaxing and aching... I must have been clenching because I am stressing out. I can't stop being concerned. I don't know what to do. And at just over 4 weeks, there is nothing my doctor can do to reassure me at this point. I am planning to lay in bed and occupy myself with Netflix all night to try and relax. I am unfortunately in a bit of a downward spiral right now with regards to my optimism about this pregnancy. And if I end up with two bad outcomes in a row... it will get worse because I will just sit around and wonder if there is something wrong with me that is preventing me from carrying a baby to term.

My dog goes to the vet tomorrow for surgery (she just has this growth on her back that has to be taken off. Had one in the same spot a few years ago that was a non-issue, so hopefully this is a similar situation. I will lose it if there is something wrong.) so I am working from home. All I want to do is concentrate on my dog (or work) or something (ANYTHING!) other than this pregnancy. DH is at work until late tonight, so it is just me and my thoughts (and this ache in my side, which is probably an ectopic pregnancy with my luck). Help!

 

[kdmalk]

T- just saw your bd report! Yay!

 

[NDH]

Thanks for checking up on me Terrissa. I dont know why I've been reading but not posting (sorry for not responding to everyone, I do think of you all though). I guess I'm just in a funk. I haven't even posted on my own journal in a week and I've never gone that long when ive had internet access...
I'm not in a bad place or anything. In fact this week I've been able to watch birth videos again without even any lingering sadness (I'm a birth junkie lol). But today is 8 weeks since my loss, and last week on my daughter's birthday is the day I had planned to announce the pregnancy. I'm approaching what would have been the halfway point. And then my sister is having her baby any day now, who h is hard even though I'm excited. Its her first and she was a lucky one who conceived first month trying and I'm jealous that I went through years of infertility and have had losses. But mostly I'm so excited for her.

 

[tcinks]

Kylee, thanks for updating us! I wish you weren't so stressed...it's like you said, there's nothing you can do to change the outcome...so you should just enjoy being pregnant! I know, easier said than done. I think any woman will worry and stress after experiencing a loss. I just really hope you get some reassurance and hope, so this will be the exciting time for you and your husband that it should be Praying for you and little Taz!

Oh glad you're doing well Natalie! Birth videos...how fun. Ha. I watched so many when I was pregnant and planning a water birth. Don't think I'll try it now...but you never know. And that must be hard...you're happy for your sister but also jealous and hurting. Feeling kind of the same.

Afm...pretty good day! Waiting for dh to come home, we're planning to have a little mid week date night. I'm being so obsessive over ttc this cycle, and REALLY getting my hopes up about being pregnant quickly. It'll be such a let down if I'm not, I'm trying to distract myself. I've been looking for a part time job, and/or maybe taking a few classes. Anything to help pass the time.

 

[NDH]

Aww Kylee I wish you were able to relax and enjoy your pregnancy. Today you are pregnant

Terrissa good luck looking for a job. I hope you find one thats a good fit. I'm not specificaly drawn to water birth over dry birth, but water births are my daughter's favorites lol. She gets upset if the mom doesnt get in a pool haha silly child.

 

[NDH]

AF got me. I wasn't hopeful for this cycle in the first place due to sporadic BDing and no noticiable ovulation signs. Hopefully this will be the month I make a rainbow though.

 

[Fleur828815]

Trust me ladies, all this BDing would NOT happen if I wasn’t so desperate to conceive. When I did fall pregnant, BDing almost everyday from CD 10 to 20 worked for me, so I was willing to give it another try but some days it was hard. I’ve told DH I’m done till next month’s attempt !

Leigh, how do you check your cervix? I admit I don’t have the faintest idea what the “standard” position is! When are you planning to test?

Terrissa, good to hear you sounding more positive. I’m glad your DH is on board as well, so let’s keep our fingers crossed for this month! How was your date night? Good luck with finding a distraction till your BFP.

Natalie, sorry AF came, hope you’ll have better luck for a February BFP. We all know the feeling of being happy for others but still envious I also love watching birth videos but I have to say some of them put me off completely!

Kylee, I can well imagine how stressed and anxious you must be feeling. I’m not even pregnant yet but I was telling DH that another BFP won’t mean a successful pregnancy till I’m holding a healthy baby in my arms. I will never get back the innocence and excitement I had before the miscarriage. However, you ARE pregnant, and as someone else said, why not take each day as it comes and enjoy your pregnancy? This is a different pregnancy, although I understand how hard it is to feel optimistic. My OB/gyn told me symptoms don’t mean anything, they can come and go, especially in the beginning. Cramping and spotting are also quite common. As far as the gym is concerned, my doctor and my coach both told me that it’s fine to continue working out at the same level as before pregnancy, as long as you avoid overheating and doing too strenuous exercices (biking must also be avoided apparently). Can you just use the treadmill on a low speed, or do some gentle swimming? Hope your dog’s surgery goes well, and that you find a way to relax a little.

 

[jlw617]

Kylee-I'm sorry you're so stressed! I'm pretty sure that unless I'm throwing up or extremely nauseous, I will probably be the same way. Just hang in there and try to think good thoughts, I'm praying God wil give you peace while you wait-don't let your stress overcome the intitial feeling of joy in finding out you were pregnant again!

Terissa- I've been wanting to get a job for a bit now but I've bern out of the workforce for so long now that I dont think anyone would hire me plus an even bigger obstacle is I don't think I'd feel comfortable leaving my almost 5 year old with anyone lol so I guess I probably won't be getting a part time job until all the kids are in school haha

Natalie-I'm sorry AF showed up but I'm glad you're not too down about it, I have an underlying feeling AF is coming for me too but I'm praying for a bfp

Ok here's another symptom question for you ladies, my boobs don't hurt in the slightest...I know every pregnancy is different, I should know since I've had 4! But did any of you get a bfp without sore breasts?

 

[Fleur828815]

Ok here's another symptom question for you ladies, my boobs don't hurt in the slightest...I know every pregnancy is different, I should know since I've had 4! But did any of you get a bfp without sore breasts?

Cross posted! I've only been pregnant once and my breasts were sore, but that wasn't really a pregnancy symptom because in any case they used to be sore from a few days after ovulation till AF. The soreness only increased some time after my BFP. Some women don't have sore breasts at all in the beginning so I hope you're not out.

 

[jlw617]

Kylee-I'm sorry you're so stressed! I'm pretty sure that unless I'm throwing up or extremely nauseous, I will probably be the same way. Just hang in there and try to think good thoughts, I'm praying God wil give you peace while you wait-don't let your stress overcome the intitial feeling of joy in finding out you were pregnant again!

Terissa- I've been wanting to get a job for a bit now but I've bern out of the workforce for so long now that I dont think anyone would hire me plus an even bigger obstacle is I don't think I'd feel comfortable leaving my almost 5 year old with anyone lol so I guess I probably won't be getting a part time job until all the kids are in school haha

Natalie-I'm sorry AF showed up but I'm glad you're not too down about it, I have an underlying feeling AF is coming for me too but I'm praying for a bfp

Ok here's another symptom question for you ladies, my boobs don't hurt in the slightest...I know every pregnancy is different, I should know since I've had 4! But did any of you get a bfp without sore breasts?

 

[kdmalk]

Hugs, Natalie! Hope you catch the egg this cycle!!!!

Jamie- Your statement on praying for peace almost brought me to tears. I feel ridiculous because I have just been praying so hard for a healthy baby that I simply forgot to just ask for peace and understanding in the meantime. :doh: That is exactly what I needed right now!

AFM- When I woke up I wiped a bit of deep red after my morning... uh.. tinkle. lol. Wiped again and got a little more. Took a shower and peed again afterward and only brown. Have peed a few times since then today and only getting brown. I did immediately call the doctor when they opened today and they brought me in for blood. She did also call in my progesterone. I'll pick it up this afternoon. She said she will call tomorrow with my blood results. Hope they are within normal range. I am going to attempt to relax until I hear back.

Why can't this just be easy?!!!!! I'll update tomorrow. Hope everyone is doing well today! Lots of sticky to everyone!

 

[NDH]

Jamie I've never once had sore boobs during pregnancy. Not even a little bit. But its never been a PMS symptoms for me either.

AF is really weird. Yesterday was just a little bit of spotting when I wiped. A little bit made it through to my panties when it first started, and a bit more by bedtime, 10 hours later. I wasnt cramping at all but I knew it was almost certainly AF not IB by then. This morning as soon as I got up I checked my pad and thick blood was still coming out of me (we said theres no such thing as tmi right? Lol) and on my pad it looked almost black and tar like! By the time I went tonthe bathroom and changed it it had sunk into the pad a bit and looked more red but it was freaky!

 

[jlw617]

Kylee-im sorry you are having bleeding. I hope it's nothing but just remember, you may not ever have understanding, The Bible says His ways are not our ways, but He does promise to comfort us if we lay our burdens at His feet, you may still have unanswered questions, but He gives us a peace that truly passes all understanding.

Natalie-thanks for the input, I unfortunately do have breast pain before my AF but what's throwing me off is I can't remember if with my last bfp if I had breast pain or not especially because before I got my last bfp I had started using the progesterone and I feel like it really balanced me out hormone wise and even now I'm about 5-6 days before AF is due and they aren't sore in the slightest where normally a week prior they're sore so hmmmm? I really shouldn't be obsessing so much huh? You're period sounds like mine normally, sometimes atleast for me, the bleeding can be do heavy it can look black!

 

[jlw617]

To clarify, I definitely had major breast soreness with last bfp and my boobs went up a cup size! But I can't remember if it was before I found out or after...

 

[tcinks]

I had breast tenderness with my bfp too! I couldn't remember at the time whether or not I usually got that around AF or not. It definitely seemed different. I haven't felt any breast tenderness or anything since the miscarriage, not even with AF since then. So I'll be definitely looking for that in this tww

Well I got enrolled for classes today! Just 3 more to finish my associates, and perhaps a year more to finish my bachelors. Really looking forward to that. I've been in and out of school changing my major so much, ready to have something to show for it

 

[NDH]

Yay Terrissa! What are you taking?