{CLOSED GROUP} Journey to BFP and Beyond!

[jlw617]

Jamie that's great news! So happy for you, and glad that you found a midwife that you like. You should check her schedule as you get closer to your due date and try and time it

Kate thinking of you today! I hope everything goes well!!

Lol I'll relay that to the baby

 

[NDH]

I hope it went well today Kate. I was trying to write a message yesterday but my tablet wasn't cooperating, but you were in my thoughts.

T - is it your high risk Dr you dont like? I would not use her in future, its important to have a relationship based on trust with your provider and it sounds like you would have a hard time trusting her again. I think a proactive cerclage in future is a very good idea though - I know a few women who owe their rainbows to one.

Jamie glad the MW you saw was so lovely - I hope you manage to get her at the birth. Its hard not knowing who you will get.

 

[coucou11]

Kate - how are you? Hope everything went well, thinking of you.

Nat - good to hear from you, how's the new place? You guys feeling settled in? How's the pregnancy going? Sounds like everything is good so far, which is great news!

Terrissa how are you feeling these days?

Zay, hope everything is well - I can't remember if we heard about your scan?

Hope everyone else is doing well!

Nothing new here, went for a blood draw this am to check my progesterone and estradiol (and Vitamin D for some reason). Tonight I will start the suppositories (decided I was going to use them this cycle). I think I am either 2 or 3 dpo. Will test on Monday August 10. I feel really good about this cycle, which is a sure sign that I am not pregnant.

 

[zaycain]

Hi all,

Sorry I've been MIA. I have been keeping up with you I just haven't been responding.

I had my 8 week scan a few weeks ago and I'm patiently waiting for my 12 week scan on August 12th. Going. so. slowly.

I feel great physically. I forget that I'm even pregnant. I'm just exhausted and a bit depressed. Work has been tough. Been crying a lot. Ugh.

Starting to sink in that we are going to just have to be really frugal. A lot of our friends and family are very well to do, so it's hard not to compare.

I find myself saying.. 'if we have this baby'.. I just get nervous about being too attached you know?

Anyway.. nothing really new with this pregnancy. So happy that I have had no morning sickness!



Cou - Interesting about your husband. Too bad he has to do it again. Not knowing is killer.

 

[KTJ006]

Hi ladies. Thanks for the well wishes. I'm alive!

I talk to my doctor on Monday, so I'll get the full report then, but I'll brief you on what he discussed with my hubby.

I do not have endometriosis. HUGE relief as it had me worried. The pain I've been having is related to big, swollen veins that have wrapped both my ovaries. Doing anything to them would damage my ovaries, so he does not recommend anything now. I have no clue if this is related to my heavy cycles, spotting, or if it will interfere with getting pregnant or staying pregnant. I have a huge list of questions to ask him on Monday.

They also did a chromotubation (dye test) and a hysteroscopy to be sure my tubes were open and my uterus was good post D&C/miscarriage. All checked out well, thank God.

Hubby goes for an SA this week as now they're thinking his sperm might not be where it should. If it does check out ok, then I really don't know what the next steps are.

I'm still very sore everywhere and it hurts to walk, but it's definitely much better today than the past 2 days. I'm very glad I had the procedure done, because at least now I know what's causing the pain. It definitely has confirmed that we want another baby. Will update more next week after I talk to the doctor.

I hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend!

 

[NDH]

Wow Katie glad it isn't endo but swollen veins wrapping your ovaries doesn't sound like a wonderful alternative. I hope your Dr is able to come up with an action plan for you.

Leigh we're doing great. Virtually settled in inside and busy working on the yard. We're getting two chickens on Wednesday and on Saturday we're picking up 2 ducklkngs and heading to a poultry sale and hopefully coming home with a couple more chickens. The girls are absolutely loving being outside so much. Haven't collected any pallets yet though to build my raised garden beds, and will still have to find out how much the compost to fill them is going to cost (I need 4-5 cubic meters or 64cubic feet and that's starting out small eek)

Pregnancy wise trusting everything is OK. I'm seeing a Chinese acupuncturist fortnightly and taking awful tasting herbs as a tea when I can stomach them but I've realized they're making my nausea way worse so I'll see if she can encapsulate them for me or something so they won't be so awful. Opting out of all testing at this stage and just trusting everything is doing as it should, and focusing on my health and good nutrition in addition to progesterone cream and baby aspirin and my other supplements. I haven't had even the tiniest bit of spotting which is massively reassuring as bleeding has always been the first sign for me that all was not well. I'm a few days off when I started bleeding/spotting with my first loss, and though I didn't know for 3 more weeks that it was a bad thing and not another sch, it did start around the same time developmemt stopped so getting past that point will be a big milestone for me.
We've not told anyone yet but my parents "know" they just haven't had it confirmed by us. Aside from the fact my mom always knows, Sara keeps telling them there's a baby in my tummy that will come out after nanas birthday (moms birthday is in early March, and we never told her when the baby is coming so that has to be a good sign right lol) but they're good about not asking and we're not ready to confirm it with them yet so for now its just a "kids say funny things" joke . In the same breath she also says grandad can wash the car cause he's a big grownup with a penis so maybe they dkmt take her all that seriously after all
There was something else I was going to say but I've forgotten.

I hope all is well with everyone else.

to you T, its been just over a month since Selah was born how are you coping? I never commented but I was appalled and angered by the comments those women made this is why I think we NEED to talk about miscarriage (as we are able). As common as it may be there are so many gross misconceptions and by talking about it until its no longer a taboo subject I hope people will become educated enough at least to know not to say such insensitive things.

 

[jlw617]

Katie-I'm glad it's not endometriosis, I've never heard of something like that before, maybe could you look into seeing a homeopath or naturopath to see if there's something more natural you can try to treat the issue with? I'm glad you have not given up yet...I hope I'm not offending anyone but there are so many instances in the Bible where God granted people the desires of their hearts because of their persistence, more specifically their persistence in prayer. I will be praying for you.

Natalie-wow, you have so much going on! I'm glad to hear that things have been looking up so far for this pregnancy! That's so funny that your daughter keeps saying that when do you all think you'll announce it?

Zay-it's funny how the thought of a baby can put things into perspective, haha! My biggest concerns are sleep and my boobs hurting from breastfeeding I will say the 1st trimester crawled by but this second trimester has been flying by! I have 2 weeks until I'm in the 3rd tri!

Hope everyone is doing ok! I have a lady in our church who is also a friend of mine and she does invitations/stationary as a business, her business is called beloved paper and she's been featured in tons of bridal magazines, anyhow she did my baby shower invites for free and they are gorgeous!!!! I'll have to post a pic later on.

 

[tcinks]

Natalie, that little girl of yours Children can be so perceptive. When do you plan to announce?

Jamie, that's really exciting. Looking forward to the pic

My husband and I talked last night about how we feel, and we are both really okay. I mean yes we have our moments, but overall doing very well. And then I feel bad for not feeling more upset. And I haven't looked at Selahs pictures in a while, which I used to like every day. It's not like I'm trying to forget her but I just don't want to be sad all the time, you know? And we are really just looking forward to trying again, that's really one thing that's keeping me going.

 

[Fleur828815]

Hi everyone, I’m back from my Europe tour. Been thinking of you all but haven’t been able to catch up.

First of all, Terrisa, I was shocked to read your news… I am so so sorry and upset for you. I’m in awe of how strong you’ve been in spite of everything, even thinking of donating your milk and volunteering in bereavement groups. I hope that good things lie ahead for you. Sorry, I know whatever I’m saying sounds trite but there are no words, my heart breaks for you. Please don’t feel like a failure, you did everything you could do for Selah (beautiful name). I can’t believe the hurtful comments you got from those women at the wedding, don’t they know when to shut up instead of spouting nonsense How are you and DH coping? How’s your training for the pregnancy centre going? I’m glad that your doctor has a plan in place for your next pregnancy. I’d also be asking for a second opinion from another high risk doctor!

Katie, glad to hear you sounding so positive after the lap. Yay on not having endo, I know it’s been weighing on your mind, and that everything else looks good for you except the veins wrapped around your ovaries…never heard of that. Hope the pain eases off quickly now. Keep us updated after you see the doctor on Monday.

Natalie, congrats on your pregnancy! Got everything crossed that everything will go well this time. Sounds like you’ve been pretty busy with the new house and the chickens! The girls must be having so much fun, that’s great.

Kylee, congrats on being team blue, you must be so happy! Good job on the blanket, it’s cute Are you still feeling sick? How horrible it must be..hope you’re managing to eat a bit more.

Zaycain, it took me AGES to start getting attached to the baby, so you’re not alone. I was so scared of things going wrong that I just lived in denial for a long time, especially since like you I didn’t even feel pregnant. Sorry to hear work has been difficult. Do they know about your pregnancy? It’s hard not to but don’t compare yourselves to other people, a baby’s needs are quite basic to start with, they don’t care about fancy things!

Jamie, I’ve always wanted to see what DH’s sperm looks like, might get a microscope some day. Glad that your appointment with the midwife went well and that you like her! Hope she’s the one who’s there when you give birth. When is your baby shower?

Leigh, I’m sorry you still don’t have definite answers after all those tests, it’s so frustrating. It’s so hard to know what to do for the best when you have conflicting advice! A friend’s DH had a very bad SA (there were NO viable sperm) but after some antibiotics etc, they were back to normal. So one bad SA doesn’t necessarily mean anything. Good luck for this cycle, and enjoy your holiday in Chicago!

AFM, my business trip went well, and I stayed a few weeks after that to see our friends and family. It went by so quickly! Had an appointment with my ob/gyn when I came back, baby is doing well. I’m still feeling OK mostly but starting to get backaches now. DH is away for work for a month, just over 2 weeks left till he comes back.

 

[Fleur828815]

Terrissa, you posted while I was writing. Don't feel bad for not feeling more upset, no one could accuse you of trying to forget your wonderful little girl or Ronen. I totally understand looking forward to trying again, otherwise how else could you go on? You need to have hope for the future while holding your babies close in your heart

 

[jlw617]

Terissa-there is no limits on grieving, don't let anyone make you feel that way and certainly don't beat yourself up for it and hold yourself to standards that just don't exist. Maybe you have more peace because you got to hold your sweet Selah, maybe it's because you have Gods hand on you, no matter what the reason, if there even is one (there doesn't have to be) you are looking forward to what the future holds and that takes strength, it doesn't mean you have forgotten your other babies. You will never forget them, it just means you have come to the realization that the past is the past and though it holds something so dear to you, you're ready to see what is to come.

Fleur-so good to hear from you! How was your trip? I'd love to go back to Europe some day! If anything for the wonderful bakeries that seem to be on every corner how far along are you now? You must be getting pretty close right?! I know I could check the other thread but I'll be lazy and just ask my baby shower is the end of this month!

 

[KTJ006]

Terrissa - don't stress on how you feel. You are allowed to feel however you want and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. You will always remember your children in your own special way, and that's just perfect. I think it's great you and DH have something to look forward to in TTC again.

Welcome back, Fleur! I missed you! Glad to see you chugging along pregnancy wise, and I'm glad your adventures went well! How fun it must be to do all that traveling.

You guys. I am so down. I'm not sure if I'd call it depressed or what. I logged onto Facebook today after a few days, and what do I see? The very first post was an old high school friend announcing their third. I literally just started crying my eyes out...my poor DD didn't know what was wrong. I deactivated Facebook as I just can't take it anymore. I have no intentions of going back on for a while.

I heard from my doc. Gosh do I love him to death. He is so wonderful. I have ovarian vein syndrome. Some call it pelvic congestion. It's basically a bunch of big veins. In my case they're around my ovaries. They aren't hindering the performance of them. They're caused by pregnancy (which explains why I was in pain after the miscarriage). Some people never get them. Some people get them and they go away. Some people get them and they stay...which is my case. He says it's rare and he doesn't see a lot of these cases (of course not...just my luck). There's not much they can do with it on someone who is TTC. But he assured me it has no effect on TTC or pregnancy. I'd like to believe that but I just don't know. It just seems weird that we can't get pregnant when we had no issue before. DH goes for an SA on Wednesday. He also got his testosterone checked today at his physical. We'll see. I'm just feeling so down that I'm crying at anything.

We are off to the beach later this week, so I likely won't be around much coming up. I think it will be good. Just need to clear my head and not focus on this stuff so much. It's just so hard.

Hope you ladies are doing well

 

[tcinks]

Katie. It must be a little comforting to know what you have, although still frustrating to not know much about it since there are so few cases. I can't remember...are you trying right now? Where are you in your cycle?

Going to the beach sounds like so much fun! Hope you have a good time and are able to relax.

I wish af would hurry up!!! I'm feeling good and so ready to start trying! It's been almost 5 weeks and I thought it'd show by now. Last time, even with all the bleeding, I feel like I still ovulated and had pretty regular cycles. I know I know, every time is different, I am just ready! Part of me thinks maybe I'm pregnant already...very very unlikely but still possible. I had a weird pregnancy dream the other night...and actually last night too. And the only two times I've had pregnancy dreams are when I was pregnant (or like a week before). But like I said...not very likely. I've been wanting to test, to make sure all the hcg is gone.

 

[jlw617]

Katie-I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so down but just remember things do change with age, I know my dh had a vasectomy and so that played a role but many couples who have it reversed go on to get pregnant right away, I thought for sure I'd be one of those with how fast we got pregnant before (always the same cycle ttc) but of course that's not what happened and I strongly feel that part of it was my age...so don't give up yet! Have fun at the beach

Terissa-I'm so hoping af will come soon for you!

So I know Kylee already saw this message but I had the worst hospital experience of my life today, I'm just going to copy and paste most of it from my other forum because it's a novel!

I just needed to vent about my horrible experience with a very rude nurse at the hospital today...I was having quite a bit of pain and discomfort with some definite contractions since yesterday at 5 pm, finally at 4am this morning I called my midwife who told me to go in and be seen. When I got there I was immediately annoyed because I have seen this nurse in action before when i had to take my friend to the ER about a year ago when she was in early labor with her baby and she was her nurse she was horrid and mean. Anyhow my midwife ordered a fetal fibronectin to see if I was at risk for preterm labor, and some other tests, I asked if I could wait on the fetal fibronectin until after they had monitored me for a little bit and I spoke with dh, she seemed annoyed but whatever. After speaking with dh I felt fine to have the test done so I told her and she came with a giant qtip which is supposed to be used to check for a substance on the cervix, well dh and I both strongly feel that she intentionally hurt me or was just extremely incompetent-she stuck it up my urethra (which I didn't know at the time) I was writhing and wincing and moaning in pain, she asked me 3 times "if it really hurt that bad" in what should have been a very quick procedure. The pain was awful but nothing compared to the pain that I've had throughout the day...anyhow the swab of course had blood all over it which like I said at the time I had no idea that she had put it in the wrong place so now I'm freaking out because I think I'm bleeding from somewhere else when I've had absolutely no bleeding this entire pregnancy. 10 min later I had to pee and the pain was equal to if not worse than my worst labor pains, I had to hold back the tears. Well the pain has only gotten worse when I pee now, it's not a uti, because I had no symptoms whatsoever prior to this test as well as no blood and now I have the worst pain and blood and I cry every time I go to the bathroom and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it because the tissue just has to heal. My dh was so mad, he made me report her and he has used every ounce of will power to not go down and yell at someone. Also to top it all off I have to get the test repeated because it came back positive but I know and they know it's a false positive because the nurse made me bleed which can give a false positive.

 

[jlw617]

Oh and I forgot to add, after all this I found out that a good friend of mine had the exact same thing happen to her at that hospital (probably the same nurse too)

 

[tcinks]

Oh Jamie how awful! So sorry for your terrible experience. I don't understand why some people work in health care. I hope you talk to her supervisor or something!!

 

[NDH]

Welcome back Fleur!

Katie I'm glad you have a diagnosis and your Dr doesn't think it will interfere with getting or staying pregnant, but I'm sorry that there isn't a treatment available right now

Jamie what a horrible experience! I'm so sorry you had an incompetent nurse. And whats with these medical professionals who can't seem to tell a vagjna from a rectum or urethra lately!? Yikes!


Not pregnancy related but I had a shocking day yesterday. My car caught on fire! I was driving to my acupuncture appointment and halfway there I lost power for half a second but it came back before the car even slowed down at all which was really weird. Then as I was turning into the house she rents her office oiut of the car stalled. I turned it off and restarted it and pulled it into the driveway and it stalled again and wouldn't restart. So I called dh and said help im stalled in a driveway blocking a parked car and a garage door can you call Norma or something while I have my appointment. Got out of the car and my acupuncturist was waiting in the doorway and pointed out some smoke, so I assumed the radiator overheated (I've had it happen on our old car and been stranded at the roadside twice, though that car we knew had a small radiator leak and this one had just had an inspection and $1000 of work done 6 weeks prior and was in great condition). So I popped the hood to let it cool faster, and my acupuncturist raised the hood an inch and we saw the battery in flames! I called 000 and texted dh that the car was in fire but autocorrect garbled it. Acupuncturist started throwing water on it which I wasn't sure was a good idea as it seemed electrical but it didn't make it worse, and a school kid stopped and said he'd go get his dad. A random person came with a mini fire extinguisher which wasn't big enough to be much help, or maybe it kept it from getting too bad before the fire department got there I don't know. I completely lost it and I was screaming and I praying and every loud pop as the tyres and windscreen melted and cracked terrified me that the car was going to explode, though my rational brain knew the chances of that are extremely rare. I was some cared the whole house it was stuck just in front of was going to catch fire. And the fireman said that if it had been a single storey instead of a double it would have. Omg.
We didnt have fire insurance because it was below the value threshold we personally believe is worth it in terms of insurance premiums and deductibles and what you'd get back in the event of a claim (ie we only would have gotten back $1000 after the deductible and then had increased premiums in future) and I doing regret it, but considering we only got the car 3-4 months ago and had work done in it and are now needing another new car right when we were finally starting to slowly get ahead but still have no savings from the move is a bit painful ATM.

The car was melted to the road and a junkyard came to get it today so mat least we didn't have to lay to get it towed... And thank God I didn't have the kids with me I wouldn't have been able to keep calm around them and they would have been so traumatized. We did tell the girls our new silver car had an accident and we won't see it again and will have to get a different one and Sara is excited cause she wants a dark blue one we did drive past it on the way to moms and Sara recognized it (I hoped she wouldn't) and asked if it was getting fixed and I said no it couldmnt be fixed it was dead. And she has been taking great pleasure in telling everyone her car is dead and she's getting a new blue one

And you can tell I live in a "small" town (45000 pop so not really small but not bjg either) because it made the front page of the local paper as well as the regional news apparently.

 

[tcinks]

Natalie oh my goodness that sounds so scary! Just wow. I have an older car that has lots of issues and I always worry about it catching fire or exploding. Yikes yikes yikes. I am glad you're okay though, and like you said , but thankful the children weren't there when it happened.

 

[kdmalk]

Kate, yay for a diagnosis, but not yay for the fact that nothing can be done. I know that must be very frustrating!!! I would be researching like crazy. I tend to be a little obsessive about things though. I hope you are able to relax and find some peace at the beach. Maybe a time to de-stress is exactly what you guys need to make things click and get that bfp. Will be thinking of you. Try to have fun!!!

Fleur, happy to see you are back from your jet-setting. I've always wanted to be "someone who travels" but I never seem to make it out of North America. Lol. Maybe one day. Happy you are doing well! I can't remember... Have you guys decided on a name for baby?

Terrissa, it can be so hard to wait for AF. Our bodies do things at their own pace and I hate having to remind my brain why it needs to slow down. I was feeling that way after my mmc. I was so impatient! I hope AF shows her ugly face soon so that you can get down to business. How is the volunteer stuff coming along?

Natalie, that sounds so scary. I would have a few words with whoever just inspected your car and did $1000 in service. Are you sure they didn't like hook something up wrong after the work or something? I would have some choice things to say if my car caught fire shortly after having work done. That being said, I am happy to hear you are alright. I would have been terrified.

Jamie.... I hated reading about your experience at the hospital. When are they redoing the test? Are you feeling any better? Keep us updated on everything.

Leigh and Zay- hi!!! I can't remember what you last said because it was a few pages back! Hope you guys are both doing well!

In funny news, hubby got this fancy new batman game for ps4 and continues to walk around saying, "I am batman." I texted him from bed the other day to bring me something and his response was, "but I am batman." Lol. He does enjoy bouts of binge video gaming now and then, so I don't mind it. I have started crocheting a blanket for Everett while dh "is batman" in the evenings. This is also a new craft for me, but seems to be going well. I'll post some progress pics when it is more than 2 inches long, which is where we currently sit. Lol.

Still sick. I left work today because I felt like I was going to barf and I was just too tired to fight it. I didn't end up throwing up, but I did come home and take 2 naps totaling 4.5 hours. Now I won't be able to sleep tonight. Lol.

 

[tcinks]

Kylee I can't believe you're already 18 weeks!! Are you really showing?

I'm only halfway through the training for the pregnancy clinic, have my next meeting Friday morning. We just had our 3rd out of 10 classes for foster care training. We will have a home visit in the next week or two. A little nervous, I feel like my housekeeping is going to be scrutinized. :/ I know that's not what the visit is for, though.

I still don't know if at the end of the 10 weeks we will get a child in our home right away. Kind of depends if I'm pregnant or not. I'd hate to get a child and then if I had some complications and needed to be on bedrest, to have to make them find a new home. So much to pray and think about.