I feel like when I haven't been able to log on for a day, I miss all the commotion that's been going on in this tread! I'm actually have BnB open on my iPad so I can scroll along as I type this on my laptop!
Today, I felt I did really well on my whole thinking positive initiative. I've been reading that Spirit Babies book I mentioned a while back, and went out and finally bought TCOYF! Both books are fascinating, but the Spirit Babies one is really helping my frame of mind and helping me to understand why a BFP hasn't happened yet, I guess on a spiritual level.
Lauren- You are right. Technology is amazing! As far as I know, I will go in for monitoring every few days so they can track what is going on with the injections. I did my injection by myself no problem this morning, I was so proud. OH stood by me and cheered me on. I must have held my breath because he was doing deep breathing exercises at me, reminding me to breath. He did this while he was in a towel and had shaving cream all over his face, so the whole picture of him in post-shower shaving mode, and me jabbing a large needle into my stomach must have been quite comical.
I do not mind you asking a lot of questions about the recent developments in my fertility process. In fact, I find it really helps me out a lot, because you ask things I would never think to act. Like the toxoplasmosis. I wouldn't have asked for the test if we hadn't been chatting about it here. And if the IUI is cancelled because of too many eggs, I have the choice to cancel or go into IVF. Of course, everything has to be just right for IVF, so I am sure there is the chance it could get cancelled all together. I'm just going to do the injections and proceed as if we will do the IUI, if something else comes up... or we don't go forward with it, then it wasn't meant to be this month.
I asked my doctor, if we do get a BFP will it be safe for me to travel to Hawaii. He then asked me if I was asking him this because I want to know if I can have Mai Tais on the beach! He occasionally cracks the odd joke and I find it makes the whole experience a lot less intense.
OH caught up with someone associated with his company, who asked if he had children. Once again, he ended up opening up about the whole IUI process to another man. And once agian, this particular man in this case also conceived (with his wife obviously)through several IUI attemps. The wife is a nutritionist, and she ended up making some significant changes to her diet when the fourth IUI attempt finally worked. This guy passed on his wife's email to OH, who passed it on to me and he said I could email her about diet advice when TTC. I have read so many conflicting views on fertility diets. I have cut back on sugar, dramatically cut back on caffeine, but I need a bagel in the morning! So I will be interested to hear what this woman has to say and of course, I'll post it here on the board.
Country- I totally felt like a rockstar after the first needle injection, and the second one today, too. It really is empowering and for a second I felt like it was actually kind of...fun. My acupuncturist and good friend called me today. She got my email about my second failed IUI and I was in a complete state of devastation when I wrote it, so I am sure it came off as sounding dramatic. She wants to do more treatments with me this month, so she booked me in for this Saturday morning. And we have a tentative appointment for the weekend after, assuming the next procedure will take place (IUI or IVF!) It's hard to pinpoint what day it will fall, as it will happen on the day my body decides to O. The name of the clinic I go to is Create IVF in Toronto. Some of the reviews complain that they treat you like a number, but honestly there is no wait list and they have a very organized way of moving a lot of women through the clinic each day. The place is often packed and it is a reminder that there are so many people who struggle like we do. A lot of people come from out of town to visit the Create clinic... if that ever happens in your case, you and I are going for a decaffienated beverage together!
I will be really interested to hear how it goes if you get reffered to the place in Ottawa.
Lxb- I got your PM and have been meaning to email you. I've totally been thrown off by the whole turn of events with the injectibles and the prospect of doing IVF. I could really use a distraction and am ready to do some trip planning. I realized today we leave for Kauai in less than a month!!! It's amazing how something you plan months in advance creeps up on you so quickly. I wonder if pregnancy is like that, or if those nine months drag on? I appreciate your offer to give me some Kauai advice!! By the way, my SIL took a professional baking course as a distraction from TTC. She makes the most incredibly cookies and I swear she could sell them. She makes themed cookies for birthday parties like Angry Birds, Spiderman, etc., and they are works of art and taste amazing. I should post a pic of some of the amazing baking she does. So another pro of TTC, we all have a shot at learning a new skill as we take up hobbies to distract us!
Haribo- I have been probed by the transvaginal internal ultrasound stick (as I call it) about 57 times within the last two months. It's fine, it feels like nothing. They always put a condom over it with lubricant for sanitary reasons, and the first time I though... You have got to be kidding me! They are only up there for a minute at most to take pics of your ovaries. At every fertility visit, I do a blood test and the internal ultrasound. It's become pretty routine, so don't worry. The ultrasound is the easiest part! AND you must have an empty bladder, so at least you don't have to do the kind of ultrasound that requires a full bladder.
Sleepy- I thought my cycle and shifted way off from everyone elses in here because of the fertility treatments. I'm on CD4 today, so I guess I am pretty close to both you and Lauren after all. It's kind of nice being relatively on the same cycle, so we can AF together and TWW together!
Pino, Treasured, Preg??? How are you guys all doing today. Sorry everyone, this is turning into a REALLY long post!!! OH is off playing hockey tonight and I'm using the time alone to do some serious BnBing!!
I also feel like I know everyone in person. Isn't it amazing how close we have all become through writing back and forth? I always refer to you all as my "Internet Pen Pals" to OH. I can't remember if I mentioned this before, but my SIL joined a group when she started to TTC in 2005 (didn't get her BFP until 2008). She said out of everyone she became friends with almost EVERYONE got their BFP. Some took longer than others, and one of her TTC friends ended up adopting a little boy. They are all still friends to this day and stay in touch through Facebook, etc. That way they can share pictures of their kids as they grow up!
I have a picture in my mind of how everyone looks. Now I'm starting to wonder how everyone pictures the other ladies in here?! I'm amused at the thought of how you must picture me!!! Lauren, I picture you being blonde, Country I picture you typing with a cowboy hat on and Sleepy, I initially thought you were from Seattle, Washington not Washington, DC, so I always picture you typing from a really rainy place. Ridiculous, I know. Well if anyone wants to break the ice and do Facebook, I'm only a PM away to swap info!!!
). BUT, I left my sticks at home 
serem?! 
My temperature raised a bit today (around my coverline), squeezing the crab out of my boob.. and felt a little sore (I'm pretty sure it was because of all the squeezing 
). I'm expecting a + on OPK later today? 
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