Dealing with azoospermia?

[deafgal01]

I think so. He had to cut it in half every time he got the med.

 

[tulip11]

I think so. He had to cut it in half every time he got the med.

yes we got 50 mg as well and we cut it in half too.

 

[arzoo]

Awh gem, I'm so, so sorry to hear your results. Hope the best for you.

 

[arzoo]

I was just stopping by to say hello. Nothing much has changed at our end. We had decided to not share our condition with anyone other than our siblings. I had told my sister a few months ago. DH finally spoke to his sister and as you can imagine I felt my wounds were raw again. Trying hard to deal with it. At times I feel people are very insensitive and since an option might be ok for them they thing it should be for others as well.
My sis in law has fertility issues of her own and going through IVF, after multiple failures she is now considering surrogacy or donor egg. It was an easy decision for her. But using DS isnt for me and I feel somehow she is not able to understand why it isnt. Sigh!

I dint have a good weekend, everywhere I went there were mothers playing with babies or friends who were talking about starting family or asking me what our plans were. I am tired of lying that we are thinking about it. I dont want to tell anyone we are trying cause then they will know soon that we have tried and failed.

We have our next appointment with Ramsey on 19th, nervous about it. Almost dont want the days to pass.

 

[deafgal01]

Arz- I hope the appt brings you good things to consider. this journey sucks and it is frustrating when your sis has fertility issues too but cannot understand where you are coming from.

 

[Rainbow123]

Sorry that you're feeling so rubbish Arzoo. It never seems to get any easier, does it? I do feel that for me, the rubbish times are getting slightly shorter, and the good times are getting slightly longer, but the bad times never get any easier do they? It's great to be able to come on here and have a vent. Fingers crossed for you with Dr Ramsey. He is an expert in this so you are in the best hands. I completely get what you mean about wanting the appointment to come quickly but at the same time feeling so nervous that you don't want it to come. Will all be worth it in the long run.
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[Mikihob]

I know how you are feeling about not wanting appointment to come. Our phone consult with the doctor in Seattle is tomorrow morning at 10am! I have been eagerly awaiting this appt so that we can know what our next step is, but now that it's here....I am SUPER nervous. I kinda don't want it to be here because I am so afraid of bad news. ARGH!

 

[Rainbow123]

Good luck with your telephone appointment tomorrow Mikihob! My DH and I were literally shaking before we went in to see the doctor at our last appointment! Let us know how you get on! XXXXX

 

[alliejc77]

Hi Ladies, could I join you please? I'm really looking for a place to "fit in" and I guess here is it. Bit of background - started ttc with my now ex partner way back in 2005. Found out he had azoospermia. We ended up splitting up before we ever reached the point of treatment. Fast forward to last year and I'm in a new relationship, about to get married and hubby has his SA test results - yep you've guessed it azoospermia. We couldn't believe it. I'm currently losing weight so we can go down the DIUI route but now I've ran into problems because my periods stopped and I'm currently having tests to see what's going on. I'm hoping it's nothing too serious because it's hard enough to deal with this as it is let alone any more obstacles to overcome. Anyway sorry to ramble and I suppose I should say, I'm Allie and I'm 36. Thanks for reading.

 

[deafgal01]

Welcome to our boat, Allie. Sorry that you found out your husband has azoospermia but you found a good place for support! I hope further tests reveal no additional issues for you!

 

[bubumaci]

Hi Allie :wave: ... I am sorry to hear that you got hit by the Azoo train twice!! But as DG says, this is a super-supportive group! I hope they find out soon why your cycles have gone haywire!!

 

[rdleela]

Wow, Allie, what are the odds? That's crazy! Welcome to the group, I wish you the very best!

 

[Stinas]

Welcome Allie!!!
Sorry you got hit twice...what are the odds! You came to the perfect place! Everyone here is great!

 

[Izabela]

I know how you are feeling about not wanting appointment to come. Our phone consult with the doctor in Seattle is tomorrow morning at 10am! I have been eagerly awaiting this appt so that we can know what our next step is, but now that it's here....I am SUPER nervous. I kinda don't want it to be here because I am so afraid of bad news. ARGH!

God luck with the telephone conversation!

 

[Izabela]

I was just stopping by to say hello. Nothing much has changed at our end. We had decided to not share our condition with anyone other than our siblings. I had told my sister a few months ago. DH finally spoke to his sister and as you can imagine I felt my wounds were raw again. Trying hard to deal with it. At times I feel people are very insensitive and since an option might be ok for them they thing it should be for others as well.
My sis in law has fertility issues of her own and going through IVF, after multiple failures she is now considering surrogacy or donor egg. It was an easy decision for her. But using DS isnt for me and I feel somehow she is not able to understand why it isnt. Sigh!

I dint have a good weekend, everywhere I went there were mothers playing with babies or friends who were talking about starting family or asking me what our plans were. I am tired of lying that we are thinking about it. I dont want to tell anyone we are trying cause then they will know soon that we have tried and failed.

We have our next appointment with Ramsey on 19th, nervous about it. Almost dont want the days to pass.

So sorry you feeling low. What you doing next should be your decision and DH. Good luck with finding sperm and being successful and hope you never have to consider alternative options.

 

[alliejc77]

Thanks for the welcome girls, feels like I've finally found somewhere that I can feel at home. What are the odds indeed?! Honestly, while we were waiting for the results, everyone kept telling us it can't possibly happen again. What did they know eh?

Sorry if I don't reply to other messages, just reading lots and will hopefully get to know you all better and be able to join in more as time goes on.

Thanks for having me.

 

[Rainbow123]

Welcome Allie! That's flipping rough, sorry you've had such an awful time of it. This forum really is a god send for ladies like us, glad you found it too! Good luck with your tests and keep us posted! XXXXX

 

[Mikihob]

Welcome Allie! Sorry you are dealing with azoo too, but you found the right place. These ladies have helped me a lot. We are all here for you!

UPDATE:
DH and I had our phone consult with the doctor this morning. Basically he thinks that because DH took such high doses of testosterone for so long, the short round of HCG wasn't enough to bring back his sperm. He wants us to start HCG again and pair it with FSH for six months to see if it will help. FSH is also an injectible, poor DH. SA will be done at 3 months and at 6 months, if nothing changes by then, we will move into the testicular biopsy. We have another phone consult in 3 months time.

I am glad that the meds will help DH's hormones and make him feel better but I am terribly sad that we have to wait another six months. I really hope that the meds work so he doesn't have to have the biopsy.

Is it selfish of me to be sad about this news?? Sorry my post became a novel, I just started typing and letting it all out.

 

[deafgal01]

Miki- It's not selfish at all to be sad about the 6 months wait. Let yourself feel sad about it. These are very normal feelings to be having with this journey.

 

[Rainbow123]

I agree with Deafgal, you are too right going to be feeling rubbish! In our appointment in July, my DH came out really happy because they'd said they would try and get rid of the pain he was feeling in his testicles, I came out crying because he wanted to repeat FSH level and do the y-chromosone test and see us in 8 weeks. There are so many hold ups when on this crappy path. It would be so much more bearable if there was a quick route. I hope that your DH's new meds work this time, but at least if they don't then you'll know you did everything you could so that he doesn't have to have the biopsy, which from the sound of it he doesn't want to do? My advice is to plan in lots of fun time together and enjoy yourselves. Alcohol is also good. Tequila is a godsend! Thinking of you XXXXX