Ok, I just saw this:
https://www.harrypottershop.com/pro...D=1629608203&gclid=CP_dku2wlbsCFZFxQgodTVEA0w
If we were able to get together for imaginary drinks, I would totally wear this shirt!
Deafgal, how are YOU? How are you holding up in the TWW?
Olive, I am so sorry that you are here, too! But I agree with Deafgal, this forum has been a great source of comfort for me. I've only been posting a month or two, and I've never joined a forum before- but it is a great place to vent and let your feelings out amongst people who understand.
I feel like I could have written your post myself- we are also about to start our first IUI with DS (sometime this week- I am watching for my LH surge). We also decided not to do mTESE, due to % and $. And, I am also still concerned with our choice to use DS! What are your concerns? The big one for me was deciding between this and adoption. What actually settled it for me was realizing that my husband was already feeling guilty for "causing" this struggle, and he wanted me to be able to experience pregnancy and not deprive me of that.
I also struggle with not having anyone in real life who understands. I have told 2 very close friends, and that actually has been really helpful, even if they don't understand exactly. First of all, when I told them we were thinking about donor sperm, they didn't react like, "WWHHHAAT?"- and it made me realize, oh yeah, this is a normal thing- people do this ALL THE TIME. I was also nervous about telling my mom- I was raised Catholic, and have many family members through adoption. She was totally supportive, though, and said that they would have done the same thing if they had run into problems (my dad had been very sick early in their marriage). So I feel like it's brought us closer together, in a way.
I'm sorry for the long, rambling post! But like Olive, I'm also getting a bit nervous about my first IUI! I feel like I did when we first started TTC and I was all excited and nervous! Fast forward 16 months and the bloom is off the rose. So I'm sure I will be less nervous about our 7th IUI, ha ha.
OK, last thing. I hate with a passion the TWW. Deafgal, what are you doing to take your mind off things? My problem is that I play roller derby- it is pretty much the ONLY thing that makes me relax- the combo of endorphins & adrenaline! But I don't think I will take the chance of playing during the TWW. Yoga is OK but tends to bore me to to tears. Rrrgh, my constant struggle with the TWW!
Tulip, just saw your post. Good luck tomorrow!