Dealing with azoospermia?

[Sar187]

raelynn-That is great news! Good luck with your appointment Friday! I would call and ask about the genetic screening or leave that form for your appointment on Friday. If it is genetic screening to help determine azoo causes it would be worth it, however it may just be screening for your knowledge and in that case its probably not worth spending the money on.

Tiger-I am feeling fine so far other than tired, I was mildly queasy most of the day Sunday but thats it so far. Looking forward to getting another look at our baby on Monday .

 

[silverbell]

Great news, raelynn The sooner the better in this horrible waiting game.

Thanks for all the comments and thoughts from those yesterday.


Well, we're back home now safe and sound. DH OK so far - just a lot of 'pressure' feelings but no real pain as such. Hope it continues like that, bless him.

 

[CanadianMaple]

I'm glad he's not hurting. I wondering how they feel after it all. How long until results?

AF found me today. Somehow it made everything feel more real. I was charting for years and had no idea when to even expect AF for the first time in a long time. So not charting and getting AF makes me feel so detached from TTC, it makes me even question if I can go through with fertility treatments.

 

[raelynn]

I know how you feel! AF arrived for me yesterday and it was a total surprise for me as well since my cycles are so irregular. When I was charting I knew exactly where I was. This time, I was just bitter knowing that it doesn't even matter right now.

 

[MissAma]

Deb - sorry you're not 100% but maybe it's for the best, l got Dara on an IVF cycle l proclaimed the NMA -negative mental attitude- cycle as a reaction to all the forced positivity and since l was sure it was doomed.

SB - glad it's out of the way! Don't feel guilty why? If anything they should be mindful of how lucky they are we go through it all to carry their babies despite this ... Azoo set-back. What a bummer about no results till then. Why? I just left a message with our clinic to confirm we'll get results the same day as in all the other SSRs l couldn't bear waiting past Tuesday you are very brave l would have had a go at them.

So we are booked to sleep the night prior in a fancy hotel in the city this is at and Tuesday is the big day. Bricking it...

 

[Deb111]

I'm glad he's not hurting. I wondering how they feel after it all. How long until results?

AF found me today. Somehow it made everything feel more real. I was charting for years and had no idea when to even expect AF for the first time in a long time. So not charting and getting AF makes me feel so detached from TTC, it makes me even question if I can go through with fertility treatments.

It's horrible isn't it - just another reminder / kick in the teeth, but you WILL find the strength to go ahead with the fertility treatments hun,
because you know what the alternative is.

Don't underestimate the effect that this kind of diagnosis has on you mentally, physically and emotionally. It makes things feel impossible, but we've all been there and every time we get a knock back, we take a bit of time to wallow (and yes, we are allowed to! ), get our heads round it and somehow find the strength to move onwards and upwards and you will too xx

 

[deafgal01]

Miss Ama- good luck on Tuesday!

 

[Deb111]

Thanks MissAma

Ooohh good luck for Tuesday - will be keeping everything crossed for you xx

 

[MoBaby]

I just want to say that me and my DH have just done our ICSI with fresh sperm This should be encouraging for you girls. DH was diagnosed with Azospermia but sometimes has a few in the ejaculate so we could not see him getting a biopsy (he had 2 surgeries as a child which is why we are here in the 1st place). Our first IVF w/ICSI was a BFN in Nov- He had NO fresh sperm that day and a few frozen (he had a sample with 500,000 and some were swimming). We had 14 embies and none frozen then.

We just received our fertilization report today for this cycle and we have 9 embies growning strong. All from his fresh sample! We will find out soon what day to return for ET. I want to encourage you girls on here that even though the dr says there are no sperm, it can happen. Our RE clinic told us to expect to have to freeze the eggies this time because he went on 2 occasions to leave a sample and they found no more than 10 sperm per sample. They froze it. The third time he had a few more and they froze that even though they did not think any of the samples would be viable. When we went yesterday, they called later on to tell us they did not have to use anything frozen!! So sometimes I think the drs get caught up on the medical side. Miracles can happen. We are praying for a BFP this time and I think the embies will be better because of the fresh sperm This has to be it for us and we are praying! Good luck to all the other girls! Azo is NOT the end. It does NOT mean it wont happen!

Deb: so excited your FET is soon!!! FX and praying for your BFP this time!

 

[Sar187]

Missama-Good luck Tuesday! Will be thinking of you!

Mo-Good luck with this cycle! Praying for your BFP!

 

[raelynn]

Mo - That is great news. Thanks for giving us hope!

 

[Deb111]

Fabulous news Mo - keeping everything crossed for you xx

 

[raelynn]

Well, we had our 1st appointment today. The RE said hubbys type of Azoospermia is most likely non-obstructive since he's had no infections and his PH level indicates it is not a congenital defect. So we're set to get our pre-screening for IVF and to determine the likelihood of sperm retrieval then off to the urologist. Our RE wants to do a fresh transfer rather than frozen so we'll most likely be using a donor back up so we don't waste an IVF cycle.

The good news is that the next IVF cycle at our fertility center is in May so that isn't that long at all. RE also said he's very positive about our chances given our age and the results of all my prior testing. Hopefully we're now on our way!

 

[deafgal01]

Rae- that's great news!

 

[Deb111]

Great news Raelynn xx

 

[SunUp]

So, I know this group started a long time ago, but I hope I can join! DH was just diagnosed and we go to the RE this week for our first consultation!

 

[Deb111]

Of course you can join SunUp - you're very welcome.

How are you both coping with the news? Do keep us posted on how you get on this week xx

 

[deafgal01]

Please do Sun... Some of us are new to it too so you're not alone.

I'm still waiting for confirmation. DH goes in for a second SA on the 19th so I should know more after that point but I have my consultation appt on the 17th so will find out what they can do to help.

 

[CanadianMaple]

Wow Raelynn, that was quick results! I'm so hopeful for you, May will be here before you know it!

SunUp- Welcome, while I'm always sad to hear that others are facing what we are, you're in good hands here. This group has been good for me. How are you holding up?

deafgal01- I hope you get your answers soon. The unknown is so hard.

I was just talking to DH about it all, and suddenly, out of nowhere, I felt my voice crack and I started crying. I felt so bad, I had been doing well, and I didn't want him to feel bad. We see our fertility clinic doctor(s) on Jan 25...11 days. I'm so scared of more bad news. I don't know if I can handle it. I'm starting to read about donor sperm and DH is nowhere ready to talk about it being a possibility. We're on the same page, but also really far apart. We're getting along well, this hasn't caused any issue in that sense. We're just newlyweds too, I was thinking about how unfair is it that our first year married has started off this way. I can only hope it makes us stronger.

 

[deafgal01]

Canadian- I only know that we'll need some help in getting pregnant- that much I do know. My results all came back normal so it looks like the sperm factor is the only thing we're trying to figure out. You're right- the unknown is hard, but sometimes it's just easier to wait and see what happens than imagining all the things possible that could be wrong.

11 days isn't that far off... Hope the fs can help you and your hubby get a baby. It's not fair that you had to start off your first year with this kind of news. I'm glad I didn't have to face this in my first year of marriage (I've been married almost 5 years now). I hope this does make your marriage with your hubby stronger- having had to deal with this and go thru it together. Like you, I'm not really talking about things with my hubby yet (he's the type that likes to wait until we cross that bridge to discuss) but doing some research into stuff before hand.

That reminds me. I need to get together some questions for my appointment on the 17th. I haven't written any down yet and I really ought to do that.