I've been trying not to stress about the shot, and I was doing okay. But, then my aunt called and thought she should give me advice on how to do the shot and then got a little snippy saying "Fine, do it how you want. You know best!"... but it sounded like she was saying "Fine! Don't listen to me! WHATEVER!"
THEN! I'm pumped full of fucking hormones and my husband is all gimped up to where he can't drive... We were out having a nice day though, had a delicious lunch and then planned to go to the movie. While on the way to the movie, I made some joke about his driving (because he's a terrible driver... never pays attention... runs lights because he's not paying attention... runs up on cars terribly because he's NOT PAYING ANY EFFING ATTENTION, etc). I said it in a jokey voice though and smiled and nudged him. He scowled... I said, "What? Not funny?" Remember: I'M DRIVING *MY* CAR WITH HIM AS A PASSENGER IN IT! He goes on to say that *I* am the terrible driver and terrify them when I drive. So, I tell him he's more than welcome to get the fuck out of my car and limp his ass home. He doesn't want to though... for some reason. So, now... I have NO desire to look at him, talk to him, be in the same room with him, enjoy a weekend with him... Let alone the amount that DESPERATELY don't want him to come near me with a needle now.
Not to mention, I was reading the IUI thread in LTTTC & AC and there was someone saying how they had 4 mature follies and just knew it would work and it didn't. So, now I feel like I'm being way too optimistic. It makes me want to give up.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GGHnYD2y-44&ob=av2e
Looks like I haven't improved much from this morning.