Hi girls, just popping in quickly. I have been a mess. I cried all night last night (except when Project Runway came on. Tim Gunn always makes me laugh).
My mother seems to think that we're back to the "unknown" arena. There is very little concrete research on this condition that it is sheer speculation at this point. She emailed a good friend of hers who is a physician and he said the same thing. He said they mainly get their results from anecdotal evidence from what they see in their practices. No real science has been applied. That was somewhat of a comfort. I can't seem to find anyone on B&B with this condition who is pregnant though. That dismays me.
I made an appointment with a very reputable fertility center for a second opinion. They are very research based and excellent at what they do. I go in on October 14, 2 days after my 36th birthday. It isn't covered by insurance but $325 will be worth it if I can get some more insight. And, I won't have ovulated by then, so if we do decide to try next cycle, I won't miss it. Sigh.
I don't have a lot of desire to be on the site right now. Maybe that will change in a few days. Don't worry about me, but don't be surprised if you don't see me around a lot, ok?
Oh yeah, and I emailed my friend who is having the baby shower and told her I wouldn't be attending. I just can't expose myself to pregnant women in the state I'm in.
I saw that Amos lost her baby. I can't fucking believe it. Yesterday was shit.
Love you all.