Disco Derail! - TTCAL/PAL Discussion and Support!

[MinnieMone]

Happy birthday Hearty, hope you have a lovely day.

Lucy - thinking about you at your scan today...

Meggs - so sorry to hear AF hasn't shown, it's fooking sods law and you must be wanting to tear your hair out... with a bit of luck they'll be able to give you a day or two either way. what the frick can bring on a period...maybe a bit of nookie? sequeena's herb recs sound good, what about a massage? not being much help. sorry.x

AFM, my period was due today, and I did a superdrug test and it has come up relatively dark so I'm a little more positive. I went to my GP today and he has asked me to get bloods done... is it worth having them done or do you think it's just going to stress me out even more? also my specialist has given me progesterone (cyclogest) which i have to use every day - but he's only given me a few weeks worth (on private prescription), so I asked my GP (NHS) if he could provide them free and he said no because he didn't know why i would have been prescribed it. I said I thought it was to try and keep it implanted, but then said but your the frikking doc why don't you know!!! then promptly burst into tears.... and i'm supposed to be keeping the stress at bay.... ahhhhhh f&ckin doctors.

it's another beautiful day here in london, so i think i'm going to go for a jog round the park, anything to stop me thinking about having a cig (which i know would make me relax instantly!!! that's warped thinking if ever i heard it!)

 

[vickyd]

Minnie i had bloods drawn and the low values made me almost completely loose the plot...Sassy had them and her numbers are a source of reassurance.... I think unless doc asks for them avoid the stress they may cause.

I dont think a ciggie reducing stress is warped thinking!!!!! Quite the opposite!!!

 

[Megg33k]

Lucy you are in my thoughts today. You may be getting your scan as I type this. I hope we hear good news but whatever the result we are here for you.

Thanks for the birthday wishes beauties. I'm off to work unfortunately. But Tim organized a dinner with friends at one of my favorite restaurants. We are finally getting our summer weather here and it is going to be HOT today. I love hot weather and we rarely get it here. Yay!

Nato I had a dream about you last night. We were hanging out in your new flat with your baby boy. There was a music festival outside your house. Sarah Palin was your mom but you were embarrased by it. You had a family tree on your wall (at that point in the dream Sarah Palin was no longer your mom. Your mother was British). On your family tree was me! Somehow we were related on your father's side. Weird. Your baby was adorable by the way.

Megg what's the news on the ho bag?

Allie I'm thinking about you and support any decision you make.

Raz I wouldn't worry about your chart. It still looks ok to me. One dip isn't something to worry about.

Hi ti everyone else!

No news... Still waiting!

Happy birthday Hearty, hope you have a lovely day.

Lucy - thinking about you at your scan today...

Meggs - so sorry to hear AF hasn't shown, it's fooking sods law and you must be wanting to tear your hair out... with a bit of luck they'll be able to give you a day or two either way. what the frick can bring on a period...maybe a bit of nookie? sequeena's herb recs sound good, what about a massage? not being much help. sorry.x

AFM, my period was due today, and I did a superdrug test and it has come up relatively dark so I'm a little more positive. I went to my GP today and he has asked me to get bloods done... is it worth having them done or do you think it's just going to stress me out even more? also my specialist has given me progesterone (cyclogest) which i have to use every day - but he's only given me a few weeks worth (on private prescription), so I asked my GP (NHS) if he could provide them free and he said no because he didn't know why i would have been prescribed it. I said I thought it was to try and keep it implanted, but then said but your the frikking doc why don't you know!!! then promptly burst into tears.... and i'm supposed to be keeping the stress at bay.... ahhhhhh f&ckin doctors.

it's another beautiful day here in london, so i think i'm going to go for a jog round the park, anything to stop me thinking about having a cig (which i know would make me relax instantly!!! that's warped thinking if ever i heard it!)

I'm doing all I can! I'm glad you're feeling a bit more positive today!

 

[LucyJ]

Well girls it is bad I can hardly see through the tears The external scan showed a sac measuring about 5 and half weeks but she couldnt detect a heartbeat so offered me an internal scan or I could wait a week decided to have the internal done couldnt bear another week waiting so scan done and no heartbeat my little one never made it passed 5 and half weeks

We are devstated I cant think straight its just so unfair and cruel and why can't I keep my babies safe why cant I give steve the baby he deserves. I feel so angry and sad all at the same time

We've got an appointment to see my dr tomorrow as dont know what happens next.

 

[Razcox]

Oh no lucy i am so so sorry for you both xxx Dont know what else to say as you're right it isnt fair xxxxx

Hopefully the doctor will have some answers for you both xxx

 

[Megg33k]

Well girls it is bad I can hardly see through the tears The external scan showed a sac measuring about 5 and half weeks but she couldnt detect a heartbeat so offered me an internal scan or I could wait a week decided to have the internal done couldnt bear another week waiting so scan done and no heartbeat my little one never made it passed 5 and half weeks

We are devstated I cant think straight its just so unfair and cruel and why can't I keep my babies safe why cant I give steve the baby he deserves. I feel so angry and sad all at the same time

We've got an appointment to see my dr tomorrow as dont know what happens next.

Oh, shit! I didn't expect that at all! I'm so sorry! I wish I knew what to say! I just... I don't know! FUCK!

 

[msarkozi]

awe Lucy, I am so sorry hun!!! We are here for you!! Can your doctor run some tests to find out why the little one didn't make it? I'm so sorry for you

 

[Allie84]

Thank you so much, Megg.

Even by the new standards you posted--3.0 is normal, and at 3.1 I'm not far off. I'm being petulant about this, I know, but I DREAD medication, and I feel fine, I don't have thyroid related symptoms-except long cycles. I'm just refusing to believe I have a thyroid issue. I don't want to take meds as I know they mess with your heart and stuff. Blah.

Happy Birthday, Hearty!

 

[Megg33k]

No, that makes sense! I just know that most people do best at a level between 1 and 2. So, its not abnormal, but it could just be better. I was on natural stuff to balance mine a bit better as it was in range but not optimal. I took selenium, zinc, super b complex, and maybe 1 other?

 

[MinnieMone]

Lucy I am so so sorry for your loss.

You are in shock now sweetie and your head will be crazy with emotions. Try and be kind to yourself, take lots of time and get lots of love from everyone, you will find the strength sweetheart to carry on, but just live in the moment, that is the only constructive advice I can give, I would always say to myself ' I can get through the next minute, I will feel this pain and let it wash through me and breathe onto the next minute
I'm sending you the warmest hug x

 

[heart tree]

Lucy Massive hugs my sweets. I can't begin to express how sorry I am to hear this news. I wish you knew why this was happening again. There is no sense in all of this. You are going to feel so many emotions right now. Let them flow. There is absolutely nothing that will take away this pain, grief, anger, hopelessness and fear but time. There is nothing fair about this. You will get through this though it might not feel like it right now. Do what you need to do for yourself. Know that we are here for you. Love love love you sweet woman.

 

[yogi77]

Lucy I'm so sorry sweetie, I have tears in my eyes, this just isn't fair. Please be strong and know that we are here for you.

 

[MinnieMone]

Lucy I am so so sorry for your loss. You will be feeling so many crazy emotions right now and the only helpful advice I can give is to try and live in the minute. I know it was the only way I managed to cope with the grief was to try and get thru' that minute and to keep breathing

My heart goes out to you darling. X

 

[pregoinnorge]

Lucy, I am so sorry I wish I knew what to say, but I am so incredibly sad at the moment. I hope you get the treatment you deserve. massive, massive hugs your way.....

 

[yogi77]

Happy Birthday Hearty! Enjoy your dinner out tonight, sounds great!

Megg, I really really hope the ho bag shows up for you today...I'm waiting on it too, wish she would just hurry up and get here already!!!

Minnie congrats on darker lines today, you shouldn't be worrying everything sounds good for you!

Allie good girl for choosing not to stress about your results

Hello to everyone! :wave:

 

[CJSG1977]

Lucy I am going to say this REALLY loud for you... FUCK FUCK FUCKING FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!! WHat a load of fucking shit!!! I am so sorry darling. Its the worst feeling in the world feeling like you cant keep your little one safe, but this is not your fault darlin! I hope you get some answers.

I myself, am convinced that I have a clotted follicle and thats why ov isnt happening. I am in crippling pain today in my ovary so I am positive I am not going to be able to try now for at least 6 weeks I have done another OPK and its darker than ever so my body is obviously trying to win a battle its going to lose. Even sex is hurting now...like really bad in my ovary. I am seeing the FS 2 weeks today, just hope I ovulate or I am going to her with a whole heap of problems. And I cant deal with that right now.

Happy Birthday Amanda!!!! Hope you have a lovely evening.

 

[NatoPMT]

I started reading where i left off last night, and saw Lucy's signature, part of me doesnt want to read cos i know what's happened. Im so SO sorry Lucy. My heart is breaking for you. xxxx

 

[Dazed]

So sorry Lucy

 

[CJSG1977]

Oh and I absolutely have to say something about thyroid issues.... it is NOT to be taken lighlty. It causes the luteal phase to shorten and many pregnancies will end in spontaneous abortion due to the menstrual cycle starting before you would even get a positive pregnancy test. It also can cause issues with other hormones being balanced. My thyroid got so bad at one point that my cycle just stopped and I had an almost 7 week cycle...if I hadnt of had my thyroxine increased I may not have come on.

Also, when I was diagnosed I was borderline. Which they determined was normal. I put 5 stone on. I slept 18 hours a day (including naps), my hair became brittle and snapped off, very accident prones problems with speech and vision, brusing easily, cold extremeties and problems with circulation. I willmake it clear when I say that taking the medication does not cause problems with the heart. Someone with overactive thyroid may have problems but that is in worst case scenario. Underactive may have palpatations but I get them rarely. The problems not taking meds are worse! You need a second opinion, determine what measures they are using and establish if you are borderline. You will not ever implant if your thyroid is bordeline...or the chances are very minimal.

I hope this info helps.

 

[NatoPMT]

Luce, I've fb'd you and dont have much more to add to that, except to say again if you need to know what to say tomorrow, or over the coming weeks to your dr, please ask us to help you work out what you need to do next.

Right now its about goodbyes, and your current grief should take priority. Make sure you get out what's inside - if you need to type / rant / or just be, we will be here with you

Please look after yourself, if you cant eat properly, try and get some fruit, espec bananas as thats easiest to digest when you are in a terrible state - also bananas have a natural sedative in them. Some B vits will help you cope with the stress too.

x