I was going to mention Lily Allen. I felt ill when i read what happened.
Thanks you lovely lot for being so supportive. The weekend has just been awful. I think ive finally had to stop kidding myself its going to happen easily, and need to work out my strategy. Ive left it too long. Last time i conceived in 3 months, and i just thought, in spite of the loss, that id get there again that quickly. I keep reading things that are just terrifying me, I'm scared, given my partying history and my age, i might've just missed the human baby boat now forever. Then part of me refuses to give up and just assumes i'll be ok. I had af type cramps on Saturday night, and last night i almost took nurofen thinking af was arriving. It didnt arrive and I'm just irritating myself now, pretending that it was late implantation.
whatever.
Cazz, LOVING your scan pic. Congrats to you again
Allie, how are you feeling now? Your thoughts about fargo reminded me of how i felt on moving to London, it took me years, but i remember that feeling, watching everyone else in the pub / restaurant have a life around you while you sit there watching. I think, espec with your long cycles, its completely inevitable that there is going to be some stress around ov time. Its almost like its begging to be sabotaged. It's interesting what Vic said about trying t save yourself the pain of another disappointment.
Sugar, your chart is looking good, thats gonna show ov for Saturday maybe? Thanks for your kind words and the offer of chocolate. Where;s my chocolate.
Yogi, hope you are managing with all those children and you havent yet been taped to the ceiling or somert
Luce, i still have a snotty face. Might be snotty for a while yet. Are you keeping an eye on that whats normal and whats not website i posted for you? Im sure you are just healing, but if it gets questionable, you need to be aware of that point
haha at the Harry from One Direction love from cazza and Lucy.
Razzer, happy 3+ to yoooooou. I had a roast yesterday and i made so much, im having another one, right now. Who needs bfp's when you can eat.
CJ, you should get a phone that measures hcg. Not that James Bond would need to pee on his phone like. Defo phone for your results, if they wont give them over the phone, ask if you need another app to discuss them, maybe?
Erk at the fighting, and the lack of support about you working in that circumstance - outrageous, im outraged.
Norge, lots of sorries to you. Im sorry to hear about DH's grandma, and sorry for the uti and the smep fail too. Thats so sweet you wanted to give her a g-grandchild, we do need some good news after all the crappy. Hope you did enough this month and can provide said good news
megg, i say best ever xmas. thats my prediction.
Vic, when can you update us tomorrow? I will look out for you in the afternoon from my vantage point in the looney bin. Hope it goes well, Ill be thinking of you. I actually cant imagine a scan being anything other than totally terrifying, so i hear ya!!
Thanks hearty, are there small things that can be tweaked? I have a list of things to ask at my GP app on Wednesday, am going to ask for a lap and dye, fsh and a referral. Yeay at ov, bring on the meds!!
sassy, hope tomorrow is all good - will be thinking of you too
Mone, i second what hearty said, whatever you need, a rant, a swear or just to read, we are all here for you, for what it's worth.
and I will have many very angry moments at the world for being so cruel today!!!!
I will visit you 
I have been super queasy the past couple days and my bbs have been really achy... maybe o is near?
