Hi girls,
Thank you for all your messages, after the scan we went for lunch, then done some shopping and just took Woody for a long walk to digest our feelings.
Danny was puking this morning he was so nervous, he said he was at least 10 times more nervous today than he was on our Wedding Day!! I was not nervous at all, weird but I wasn't, I thought what will be will be, it was out of our hands!! So we got in the scan room and she started scanning and turned the screen straight to me, there was twin 1 looking perfect, the most amazing thing I have ever seen in my life, I burst out crying and Danny ran over from the seat (she made him sit behind a curtain) thinking it was bad! He stood there and looked at the screen and at our beautiful baby, tears rolled down his cheeks, you could see his/her little heart beating away, I have never felt such happiness and if I could bottle the feeling and sell it I would be a millionaire!
She then carried on scanning to check twin 2, this went on for some time, she then turned to us and said I'm sorry twin 2 has gone, I felt like someone had punched me in the stomach, to feel such highs and such lows at the same time was unbearable.
She then went back to twin 1 and measured him/her etc, she said he must be a boy as he was being lazy and she thought he was sleeping so she made me cough to try wake him up so she could get some pics, she turned on the machine so we could hear it's little heart, WOW I started to cry again and said "our baby has a heart", soooo amazing! She said he/she was measuring perfectly, looked very healthy, there was no bleeding in my uterus so nothing to concern her at all. She hugged me after and said she felt so happy to finally give us good news!
We are upset of course that it's no longer twins, she explained it's proberly a case of VTS, BUT we have to focus on our 1 healthy baby, something we never ever thought we would have! So please don't say sorry for your loss I cannot bear to hear those words ever again, if I hadn't had a scan at 6 weeks we would have never known it was twins!
OMG GIRLS I'M HAVING A BABY, OUR FOREVER BABY AT LONG LAST!!!!