hmm. Sounds like your friend doesnt have a clue what you are going through - she might know, or hear what you are saying, but its able to feel or empathise with your situation. Sounds like she's not really connecting on a few levels. I guess everyone has an off day and if its not normal for her, then lets hope it is an off day.
Girls I am really scared. I am just convinced something is wrong with the baby. I have nothing to suggest something is wrong but I just feel like something has happened. I don't know why, call it paranoia or gut instinct.
I am off to bed in a minute to try and get some sleep and hopefully feel better in the morning. I don't know what to do, I feel like I'm losing my mind
Wow meggles she seems a little like a "me me me" friend i have a couple of those it frustrates the shit outta me. And your right she didnt need to make that comment about the IVF at the end of the day our friends should know we've gone through every scenario in the world in our own minds, i mean a baby is only what we all desire more than anything on earth god damn it!!!! gggrrrr got me a little riled up that did. I just wish for once our close friends and family could try & be positive for us & give an honest smile instead of one of those weird grins like eerrmmmm yeah im sure it will be fine (secretly lying) i seriously hate that.
I have all faith in this cycle of IVF baby doll i believe its where the path has lead you too & i pray u & kevin get ur miracle at the end of it sweet cheeks xxxxxxx
I emailed her first to check she could do one as it said on her website to do that as she may be very busy, so sent her an email I think I may of said that I had suffered a mc. She said she could so I went ahead and ordered one you pay through paypal so need an account then she emailed me and asked me for a photo and any questions I had. I know its a bit of fun but if it were to come true then that would be lovely and I can wait till march I think especially if I get my forever baby that and she said I would find out in march so then that could be getting pregnant in feb and thats not that far away is it? What I did like and made me feel good was the bit she said about my babies being save and spirits watching over us.
Could you pm me her details please as I cant find her thanks xxxx
Gorgeous pics Nato!!!! So cute!!! And lovely to see you back. I hope you get your results sooner rather than later!
I cant believe it....the flat hubby and I didnt get last week....they called and have now offered it. SO! in the next 2 weeks we are going to be running a pub and trying to move out of one home into another which means we will be spending a couple of nights a week apart, but god it is SO worth it!!! I'm glad I am hitting the 2WW and I wont need to molest my husband on days we wont be together. In 4 weeks...if I have not got my bfp we will have moved and everything will be sorted. I will just about be with him for ov in december and I would potentially find out when we are on holiday! OMG how has all this happened in just one week. All I need now is the month to be my BFP and I think I might collapse with excitement! Jobs, new home and ventures, money (not trying to be superficial...its just been tough) and potentially a bfp. And BREATHE!!! I shoulda put this in my journal...in fact I might but am just so excited LOL. Sorry for the me me me post.
Megg it's always been a step I'm ready to take & will take if need be IVF is something that should be seen as miracle baby making and without it there would be a hell of alot less happy people in this world. I thinks it's amazing the whole process & regardless of how it's done it's your baby & ud walk to the end of the earth to have him/her
anyway meggles were always here for you with real smiles on our faces none of this fake smug grin shit!! Lov ya Hun xxxx
hey guys...
Sass so happy to hear bubs is doing great!!! Its your turn Cazz tomorrow!
Hearty you look smashing in that dress, love the style and the shoes are ace!
Cesca, fuck having "a feeling" something is wrong...I have those every other day, hell im having them all day. Its fear and nothing else.
Today i fell ill. At work everyone was commenting on how pale i was and i was kinda confused as to why everyone was wearing t-shirts and i was chilly in my sweater...Anyhoo popped a lab thermometer and i had a fever of 38.2 degrees....So ive been running this fever ever since, it isnt going down with paracetamol and now my head is killing me as well... I really hate being sick, especially when i cant stuff myself with pills.
CJ, thanks for the image!!! Thats what my angels look like!
Nato, thanks for coming back to us. Love the pics of your nieces. Looks like you had a good time, if not painful, with them.
By the way, your quote: "Husband has his pot for the sperm test. He seems to think its too small." made me laugh!! Tim thought the same thing!!! We have ourselves some narcissists!
Megg, that is very strange. Maybe your friend feels uncomfortable because she cant relate. I find some people just dont have the words for uncomfortable topics. Maybe she is feeling guilt that she has a baby now and you are struggling like she did. Who knows what is going on in her brain. Im sorry it was so awkward. People act in strange ways around these things Im afraid. BTW, Im all about IVF. Conception is conception.
Luce that is a lovely reading. Now I want one too!
Cesca, just as you wrote your post, I got an email from a friend who is 6 weeks pregnant and is feeling the exact same way. I dont think we ever lose this feeling until we are holding our babies. But remember that worrying doesnt serve us. Worrying wont fix things. It does nothing to help us along. If you can, try to relish in this pregnancy and tell the worry to take a hike.
CJ, yay for you and your flat. So much change! Lets not forget what happened to Amy in the face of a new job and a new place to live. She caught the egg!!! Hope you did too!!!
Hi Vicky, so good to hear from you. I was just about to write, where the hell is Vicky?? Sorry you feel like such crap. God, why cant this be easier???
You are right, don't ask if you don't want an honest answer. I decided to stick to that policy at my friend's wedding. If someone asked me how I was, I wasn't going to sugar coat it. I told them that I've been having a really hard time lately and life has been incredibly difficult. I told them I had suffered some miscarriages and am now trying to pick myself up. If they squirmed, they squirmed. I really didn't care.
But for your friend to be so weird a year later is something different. All you want is someone who can support you and understand you. When you think you have that and then she acts all strange like she did today, it just makes you question her motives. That is the last thing you need right now. Listen, try not to let her actions affect you too much. She could have been having an off day like Nato suggested. Or, maybe her body was inhabited by aliens. Either way, you did nothing wrong.
Hi girls,
I forgot to wish Cazza good luck on her scan tomorrow! I've been thinking about it, too. So, GOOD LUCK tomorrow, girlie, though I know everrything will be great. I can't wait for a scan piccie!!!!
Megg, I'm sorry about your awkward lunch date. I've been there! Though, usually it's just the first few minutes and then you get back into your 'groove.' Her behavior sounds really confusing. As hearty pointed out, you did nothing wrong. And as Cazz pointed out, we have nothing but genuine smiles and a proper optimism for you and IVF. I also agree that is a baby is a baby and if you give birth to the baby, or even if someone else gives birth to the baby, it's still "natural."
Nato, hehe at the bouncy castle. Love it. I want to come play at your house!
Luce, what a sweet conception reading. I definitely agree with her that your angel babies are safe and watching over...I believe that with all of our angels.
CJ, wow, that's great news! They say when it rains it pours so I think it would be quite fitting if a BFP followed up all of this good news. I won a free dinner on a radio contest yesterday and that's the luckiest I've been a while, so maybe my good fortune will bring me a BFP too. FX for us both!
Hearty, I love your attitude towards people when they asked how you were. I also thought you gave Amy some really lovely advice earlier!
Cesca, , I also remember when Vicky was always feeling something was wrong and everything has always been fine. I think Nato has it spot on saying our 'instinct' after a loss can often fail us as our judgement is clouded. Thinking of you, and hope you get some reassurance soon.
Amy, and same as I said to Cesca...your judgement will be clouded by past experience. Thinking of you both.
Vicky, sorry you're not feeling well. That's crap. I hope you feel much better soon.
Oh, and Megg, I know you'll know the answer to this...is it okay to take Xanax in the 2ww? I may have asked before but I cannot remember. I'm feeling really stressed and took one but now I'm worried about it.