Hi chicks.
Cesca, Congrats on the BFP! I know how scared you must be right now. I hope that bean snuggles right in.
Lucy, happy birthday babe. Hope it was a good one.
Vicky, buy the damn dress....damn it.
Love the geography lessons and Megg, thanks for including me! I just spent 4 hours in the car and it was just a little weekend trip we took within California. We drove from San Francisco to Lake Tahoe. It was a beautiful weekend. My family lives in Massachusetts which is 3000 miles away! It takes me 5 hours in a plane to get there! To drive the length of California would take about 15 hours! So a little 4 hour drive feels like nothing.
AFM, AF kicked in exactly 5 weeks after my mc. She is hitting me with cramps today and I basically hate her and love her at the same time. It is an awful reminder that I'm not pregnant, but I'm also reminded that I'm moving on. I scheduled my HSG for August 30 and can't wait to be done with it.
The weekend was bittersweet. I spent it with 2 of Tim's cousins, both who are mom's of gorgeous baby boys. The babies were hilarious and I adore them. But when they snuggled with their mothers, I felt like the odd woman out. Also, it would have been my 12 week mark had I still been pregnant. To top it off, this week is my due date for my second pregnancy. So, I had moments where I just couldn't deal with all of my emotions. I had some moments of crying. This whole process sucks. I hate where I am in my life right now. I go from feeling hopeful to hopeless in a matter of seconds. I've gained 6 pounds since my pregnancy and have been drunk more than I care to admit. I'm getting back on the healthy kick this week. I know that will help with my mood.
My doctor wants me waiting 2 cycles to start trying, but that is the policy of the hospital she works at. I'm not waiting. We're going to start trying this month. So, I'm back as long as my HSG is normal. I'll be around a little more. My goal is to have us all with babies by the end of next year. How does that sound?
xoxo