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[AmberDaisyDoo]

Today has been a nightmare.

The bleeding after my scan was one "gush" a gush is too strong a word, oe wipe of bright red fresh and another to clean up. Backache and brown spotting. This morning emotionally exhausted and wondering how the hell I can go on for weeks like this I rung the hospital and went in.

After counselling and going through risks and other stuff that took 3.5 hours (won't go into detail as I don't want to upset newly pregnant people, people with strong personal beliefs) We decided I would have surgery. I signed all the forms and was about to attend the other hospital to settle in ready for the morning. My doctor rung the consultant to just get the nod.

I was called back into the room and asked to explain clearly what I'd been told. So I did, "gestational sac has shrunk, hormones have stayed the same (under 15% drop means stay the same apparently) come back when I start to lose the pregnancy and come back in two further weeks for a follow up to see if everything has all cleared up/gone."

She looked at me shocked and said this.
"Scan finds a healthy early pregnancy sac in the womb, good fundal location, regular shaped gestational sac 1mm larger than 2 days ago, no bleeding re scan in two weeks" What the actual F.

Now, don't get me wrong, my dates do not add up and my hormones aren't doing what they should and I've had two bits of bleeding now. I don't have hope.

But to be told in no uncertain terms I was having a miscarriage, consenting for surgery to then finding out there's no medical need to have that. I'm shocked. I'm in shock. We have a holiday for two weeks on weds so I'm just going to go away enjoy my children and try to forget it all, obviously I'm not going to drink wine or cocktails because well I just can't when I don't know know. Nurse said that little bleed could be from my cervix being irritated from the scan -much like how some women will have a little bleed after sex-.

We think she didn't read my notes properly and thought it had shrunk but after we left realised her mistake and wrote down something completely different.

I just, Urgh. what?! Hubby and I are so exhausted we can't even express how feel feel at this shock yet again. We grieved all day yesterday prepared for surgery today and then were told, wait and see.

 

[Disneymom1129]

Today has been a nightmare.

The bleeding after my scan was one "gush" a gush is too strong a word, oe wipe of bright red fresh and another to clean up. Backache and brown spotting. This morning emotionally exhausted and wondering how the hell I can go on for weeks like this I rung the hospital and went in.

After counselling and going through risks and other stuff that took 3.5 hours (won't go into detail as I don't want to upset newly pregnant people, people with strong personal beliefs) We decided I would have surgery. I signed all the forms and was about to attend the other hospital to settle in ready for the morning. My doctor rung the consultant to just get the nod.

I was called back into the room and asked to explain clearly what I'd been told. So I did, "gestational sac has shrunk, hormones have stayed the same (under 15% drop means stay the same apparently) come back when I start to lose the pregnancy and come back in two further weeks for a follow up to see if everything has all cleared up/gone."

She looked at me shocked and said this.
"Scan finds a healthy early pregnancy in the womb, good fundal location, regular shaped gestational sac 1mm larger than 2 days ago, no bleeding re scan in two weeks" What the actual F.

No don't get me wrong, my dates do not add up and my hormones aren't doing what they should and I've had two bits of bleeding now. I don't have hope.

But to be told in no uncertain terms I was having a miscarriage, consenting for surgery to then finding out there's no medical need to have that. I'm shocked. I'm in shock. We have a holiday for two weeks on weds so I'm just going to go away enjoy my children and try to forget it all, obviously I'm not going to drink wine or cocktails because well I just can't when I don't know know. Nurse said that little bleed could be from my cervix being irritated from the scan -much like how some women will have a little bleed after sex-.

I just, Urgh. what?! Hubby and I are so exhausted we can't even express how feel feel at this shock yet again. We grieved all day yesterday prepared for surgery today and then were told, wait and see.

Wow, that just seems like a ton of lack of coordination on the hospital's part. I am so sorry you have to go through this. I would be shocked too. I hope this nightmare will all be over for you soon

 

[Pato]

Wah?????? Are they serious? They got any idea how traumatizing this is for you? I mean..wth???

Try to relax on your holiday and see how it goes honey. Still praying for you

 

[AmberDaisyDoo]

Thank you both. I know my dates and know that my pregnancy isn't what it should be I know that this pregnancy isn't happening. But, yeah shock, total lack of communication on their part and pure head stress. Thank you for your continued support all of you. I'm going with plan A and just letting what will be, be. I was just hoping for closure. xxxx

 

[FLArmyWife]

Hope everyone is having a nice Fathers Day! We went and saw "Inside Out" which was a lot sadder than I was anticipating! Prego hormones had tears down my face and everything. It's a darn kids movie for goodness sake lol. I also got a 3+ on the digital this morning, so I'm officially done peeing on sticks.

We saw it Friday. I managed to not cry though I had to stiffle it back. Such a cute movie though. Me, Dh, my mom, and my 2 sisters have decided to go as the emotions to MNSSHP this year!
congrats on the 3+

Just heading out the door to work.....
Pink - keep thinking positive thoughts, I am sure that this pregnancy will be ok It might just be less heightened symptoms becuase you have been pregnant before,
Pato - there really are no words. I can not even imagine!!

Took another test this morning, and still just a faint line . 15dpo. Argh

I hope your test gets darker. have you tried opening the photo in paint and resizing it? that's how I edit everything (though it can take extra time than if I owned photoshop or adobe illustrator)

She suddenly started having fevers and then one morning she was talking to me, she was a very articulate child at two, asking about a color in spanish, and I looked at her and her eyes were crossed. I took her to her pediatrician thinking she needs glasses, and he sent me straight to the children's ward at the hospital for an emergency CT scan for suspected brain tumor. It was confirmed and they did a biopsy and it was stage 3 cancer. She passed away 4 months later, she had just turned 3.

You are a very strong woman, and your SO a very strong man, to handle it with such grace. I am SO sorry this happened to you put I suppose one way to look at it is she's up there, with your future LO, telling him/her all about what wonderful parents you are. And she will forever be that child's guardian angel

Hi ladies, been mia this week as had friend's from out of state in, so been incredibly busy!!!!
Things are going pretty good, I don't feel pregnant except extreme exhaustion and certain ells sending me in to nausea, but otherwise I feel pretty normal, definitely not like my pregnancy with my dd.. I do worry sometimes if baby is ok, I pulled the doppler out last night and been staring at it, contimplating using it, but I think ive decided to use it next Tuesday before I go in for my next ultrasound , that way if I don't find it I won't be panicked for long before seeing what's going on on ultrasound .... I still worry because baby was measuring 3 days behind , although had a strong heartbeat , but that's what happened with our missed miscarriage and I wasn't very sick with that one either , kind of like this one, that's why I'm worried about this baby...

Also with my dd I had stretching and cramping pretty constantly through the first tri and not much with my mmc, I'm not having much again this time, so that's kind of stressful too... honestly this past week I haven't had much time to remember I'm pregnany I've been so busy , but now it's quiet and I have time to worry ... o well only a week and two more days to find out!!!!

Pink- I know it's hard but try not to stress. Any unneeded stress is unhealthy for the bean. I hope everything is ok. Just remember, all pregnancies differ, perhaps this little bean isn't giving you so many problems because you've already gone through a full pregnancy and it knows what to do

Today has been a nightmare.

The bleeding after my scan was one "gush" a gush is too strong a word, oe wipe of bright red fresh and another to clean up. Backache and brown spotting. This morning emotionally exhausted and wondering how the hell I can go on for weeks like this I rung the hospital and went in.

After counselling and going through risks and other stuff that took 3.5 hours (won't go into detail as I don't want to upset newly pregnant people, people with strong personal beliefs) We decided I would have surgery. I signed all the forms and was about to attend the other hospital to settle in ready for the morning. My doctor rung the consultant to just get the nod.

I was called back into the room and asked to explain clearly what I'd been told. So I did, "gestational sac has shrunk, hormones have stayed the same (under 15% drop means stay the same apparently) come back when I start to lose the pregnancy and come back in two further weeks for a follow up to see if everything has all cleared up/gone."

She looked at me shocked and said this.
"Scan finds a healthy early pregnancy sac in the womb, good fundal location, regular shaped gestational sac 1mm larger than 2 days ago, no bleeding re scan in two weeks" What the actual F.

Now, don't get me wrong, my dates do not add up and my hormones aren't doing what they should and I've had two bits of bleeding now. I don't have hope.

But to be told in no uncertain terms I was having a miscarriage, consenting for surgery to then finding out there's no medical need to have that. I'm shocked. I'm in shock. We have a holiday for two weeks on weds so I'm just going to go away enjoy my children and try to forget it all, obviously I'm not going to drink wine or cocktails because well I just can't when I don't know know. Nurse said that little bleed could be from my cervix being irritated from the scan -much like how some women will have a little bleed after sex-.

We think she didn't read my notes properly and thought it had shrunk but after we left realised her mistake and wrote down something completely different.

I just, Urgh. what?! Hubby and I are so exhausted we can't even express how feel feel at this shock yet again. We grieved all day yesterday prepared for surgery today and then were told, wait and see.

All I can say is I hope you enjoy your vacation. May Whatever it going to happen, happen swiftly. If your bean manages to hold out, great; if not then I think you and your family have done well in preparing yourselves. Wishing you all the best. We're all here for you

 

[thopkins0620]

I will be praying for you amberdaisydoo..

As fir me I am currently in the tww. I am sorry I've been mia. I am 5 dpo and will test on the 29th of this month. Sending baby dust to all of you.

 

[.hopeful.one.]

You've been put on quite the roller coaster amber! I'm so sorry you are going through all this nonsense.
I'm glad you had a nice Father's Day disney.
Jess I'm hoping your test gets darker soon!

afm I'm not feeling too good about this cycle. Aside from the crazy random nipple tenderness I have had no symptoms whatsoever. Time will tell I guess but I'm not holding my breath. It's so weird how I feel that I'll be out but I still have the urge to test! Oh the poas addiction is so strong

 

[jessalex]

Amber that is seriously unbelievable!! What the heck?? I cannot believe that a hospital can be that terrible at communication - especially with something so emotionally charged and a huge deal for you and husband!!
I really hope you can enjoy your holiday

Don't give up hopeful!! You never know, this could be the month for you!

Did another test (they are FRER's disney) and I'm sure the faint line is getting fainter Kind of just waiting for the bleeding to start.

 

[AmberDaisyDoo]

Hiya, having period pains light bleeding and mild cramps this morning. Just wish they'd let me keep my surgery

I won't be on here for a few weeks now, going to go on holiday and try to emotionally recover. I will be back and we will be ttc again once this is all over and we are ready emotionally. I don't know when that will be, we did say if conception took us past august we would hold off another year for me to finish my degree, this was our only chance really to fit a baby in this 6 month window and by the time this is over and we wait for next period I fear we will be too late.

I will be in touch and thinking of you all, I wish you all the luck and no more angels, all of you. Keep well everyone, love from me. xxxx

 

[Pato]

Gm lovelies.
All the best to you Amber

Jess....still have hope honey it's not over yet.. Hopeful you too...you never know what will happen in the next few days...

Flarmy and Pink how are you gals feeling....

Everyone else hope all is well for you....

AFM I'm CD8 today. Time to start Bding and I'm honestly not really feeling it. It's like I'm emotionally drained right now and feeling more NTNP than actively TTC.....I'm really happy and excited for all the BFPs among us and I'm truly sorry about the losses and problems some of u are having, I guess its overwhelming for me having been through all I have. So I've decided to just accept whatever comes, whether BFP or AF, I'm not gonna stress about it. Sorry for being a downer guys, I just can't take it anymore. So as of today, I'm NTNP

 

[FLArmyWife]

As fir me I am currently in the tww. I am sorry I've been mia. I am 5 dpo and will test on the 29th of this month. Sending baby dust to all of you.

I added your test date. GL

afm I'm not feeling too good about this cycle. Aside from the crazy random nipple tenderness I have had no symptoms whatsoever. Time will tell I guess but I'm not holding my breath. It's so weird how I feel that I'll be out but I still have the urge to test! Oh the poas addiction is so strong

It's amazing how you can get addicted to PEEING on something lol. I still feel the urge on occasion
You aren't out though until the shows

Did another test (they are FRER's disney) and I'm sure the faint line is getting fainter Kind of just waiting for the bleeding to start.

I'm sorry Jess.

Hiya, having period pains light bleeding and mild cramps this morning. Just wish they'd let me keep my surgery

I won't be on here for a few weeks now, going to go on holiday and try to emotionally recover. I will be back and we will be ttc again once this is all over and we are ready emotionally. I don't know when that will be, we did say if conception took us past august we would hold off another year for me to finish my degree, this was our only chance really to fit a baby in this 6 month window and by the time this is over and we wait for next period I fear we will be too late.

I will be in touch and thinking of you all, I wish you all the luck and no more angels, all of you. Keep well everyone, love from me. xxxx

Take your time. FX that you still get 1 more try in before your August cut off. We will all be thinking of you and wishing for the best.

Gm lovelies.

Flarmy and Pink how are you gals feeling....


AFM I'm CD8 today. Time to start Bding and I'm honestly not really feeling it. It's like I'm emotionally drained right now and feeling more NTNP than actively TTC.....I'm really happy and excited for all the BFPs among us and I'm truly sorry about the losses and problems some of u are having, I guess its overwhelming for me having been through all I have. So I've decided to just accept whatever comes, whether BFP or AF, I'm not gonna stress about it. Sorry for being a downer guys, I just can't take it anymore. So as of today, I'm NTNP

I'm feeling ok. getting at least once a day but nothing too bad. preggie pops seem to be helping and drinking lots of water.
You aren't being a downer. You know your body and mind best and know that if NTNP is less stressful then by all means go for it. I hope you get a bfp soon though.

 

[pinkpassion]

Pato,
I'm doing pretty good!!! Told my friends at bible study last night and asked them to pray that all is well, I've just been worried about this little baby!!!! I don't want to go through another loss....

Also, this pregnancy dh and I decided to go back to ntnp because of the busy summer, I just decided not to worry about any of it and one night I had a weird urge to poas and lo and behold my opk was the darkest I'd every seen it, we bd'd the next few nights and then I felt nothing at all, none of my usual post-O symptoms so I thought for sure I was out... so you never know, and sometimes I believe that just letting it all go is a good thing, I have everything crossed that you get your bfp !!!!!!

 

[TheTiebreaker]

I feel like I haven't posted in forever.

Amber I hope this all goes swiftly for you and that you have one more month of trying. I will be thinking and praying for you.

Jessalex my frer seemed to stay the same color for awhile. Don't give up hope yet!

Pato I can't imagine going through that. My kids are close to that age so that breaks my heart. You are a very strong woman. Maybe NTNP will be just the ticket. I hope you get your BFP soon and it gives your heart back some of it's happiness. FX for you!!!!

AFM- my symptoms seem to come and go. One day (like yesterday) I will have almost no MS or breast tenderness and then the next day (like today) I wake up feeling sick and my boobs are killing me. Hoping thats normal. I should hear today about my bloodwork and urine culture. Thinking it's not a bladder infection anymore. The cramps have come and gone all weekend. Usually when I have a bladder infection it gets horrible within a day or two and it hasn't. Guess we will see what I hear today.

 

[AnnieMac2]

Amber, that is outrageous. So cruel. They are absolutely incompetent. I am sorry. I will be thinking of you on your vacation. I had similar timing with a vacation and thought I couldn't possibly enjoy it and didn't want to go even though all it required was lying on a beach. But just a change from the monotonous stressful routine took the edge off. I hope it does you good xo

Jessalex, I get the fear. But right now, a positive is a positive! xo

 

[Cornfieldland]

Hey all, so I guess all my wierd exaggerated symptoms where from the chemical. I'm out this cycle. Back to cd1... Thinking I'm going to try to not pressure myself as much and just enjoy the good things in life...until cd12 at least : )

 

[FLArmyWife]

I'm sorry corn. FX this next cycle is the one

 

[TheTiebreaker]

I am so sorry Corn! Hoping this next month is it for you!!!

 

[.hopeful.one.]

Sorry corn. That was my plan this cycle too. It was great until about 4dpo lol then I got antsy as usual! Fx you'll have your BFP soon!

 

[Cornfieldland]

Thanks guys it will be worth the wait if it's a healthy bean.

 

[ashleyg]

I am CD 16 and FINALLY got all three positive OPKs today!! DH and I DTD Saturday, Sunday & Today (I ovulated this afternoon). So I hope that I catch this egg! It's so weird because just this morning all three tests showed a negative. The digi didn't even show the flashing smiley it was just the blank circle. Then I tested again mid afternoon and got dark positives and a positive digital. Now onto the TWW!