Dammed
got me today....I should of known better than to actually believe my tests, Did I really honestly think that after almost 2 years of TTC that it would just happen naturally for my DH and me...I just feel like such a fool for even letting myself get my hopes up this month.... I should know better after all of this time...
So now I have to dish out the big bucks $$$ to pay for all of the pre IUI testing this month...ugghhh..sucks.Hopefully our health insurance will cover some of the testing so it is more affordable.. I am not thrilled about getting poked and probed like a science experiment, but I am reminding myself that it will be all worth it in the end to get answers and to have an oppurtunity to hopefully do IUI if all of our tests go alright....hopefull DH's SA is going to result in a high enough sperm count so we can do IUI, and my HSG reveals that my tubes are clear and not blocked.....I think my worst fear is trying to figure out how I would mentally be able to handle bad fertility test results, If the news is bad how the hell am I going to not be crushed...Please god let the tests have good results.... This is my last hope and the only thing keeping me from going off the deep end and going into a deep depression, It is the hope that I have an alternative with IUI to finally get pregnant....