Felt like giving up, Got new hope!!

[Leetie13]

Lab - I would love to see pics of your little man picking apples, that sounds so fun. We say every year we're going to do that then never do.


Ttc - haha it was just a thought. Fx the witch stays away!

Xan - glad you're home safe and sound and are enjoying time with DH and puppy. You're right sometimes we have to take a step back to get that appreciation for what we have back.

DH had to do some repairs for some rentals yesterday. He said the places weren't very nice and met a couple who she was a nurse and her husband worked for an oil company and they don't have a car because after rent and bills they haven't been able to save up. And DH said to me it really makes me stop and remember how truly blessed we are.

 

[TTC n Hopeful]

Xan glad you made it back. Yay for 9dpo. Hopefully the time flies by. You definitely appreciate what u have when it's taken away.
Leetie it's funny seeing things in other people's lives can help us be appreciative.

AFM - I don't know if the witch is here or what. Last night I had a lot of cm. Then brown cm. But it was so light I wouldn't have noticed if if wasn't closely inspecting the tp lol. It went away after that and now today nothing so as always, we wait lol.

 

[xanzaba]

Leetie- sounds like you found Mr. Sweetie Leetie

TTC- fx'ed the witch stays far away

 

[Leetie13]

Ttc - I'm praying it's a good sign and not the witch.

Xan - I really did, I'm lucky he's such a great man.


I did an opk earlier and I'd say it was positive

 

[xanzaba]

Looks good to me!

 

[TTC n Hopeful]

Leetie it looks positive but dont take my word, thats why I cheat with digital lol.
Xan I have no clue about your chart but I see movemenr, hope that's a good sign. Fx.

AFM the lovely witch found me so we are on to our 12th and final clomid cycle. It's really upsetting having been on the meds and they aren't working. I'm still waiting to see a specialist ugh. Hopefully soon so we can see what options come next. I just hope there are more options that aren't way expensive.

 

[xanzaba]

Oh, TTC Hopefully you get some answers soon.

AFM- My temps are up and down from traveling, so I'm not trying to read into it. But they have been more down lately and tonight I have a pimple. A little earlier than normal, but still the kiss of death. Hopefully the witch doesn't take her sweet time...

 

[Leetie13]

Ttc - I hope this is the lucky cycle. If not I hope you're able to find a specialist and get some answers.


Xan - oh no not the pimple. Maybe since it's earlier it'll be a good sign


Afm - FF gave me crosshairs for when I'm pretty sure I O'd which is great, but my temp today was low. I've heard of fall back rises so I'm guessing that's what it is. It just makes me nervous because I'm supposed to start the progesterone tonight. But I'm pretty sure I did O I had all the normal signs so I'll probably just start them like I'm supposed to.

 

[xanzaba]

Leetie, hopefully your temps keep going up and up. How was your timing this cycle?

Well, my pimple has made friends and my face has completely broken out, which is also not normal. And no cramps, which usually start by 13dpo. But still, keeping my hopes in check.

 

[TTC n Hopeful]

Thanks ladies!
Leetie thats great! Glad u O'd. Fx for u!!
Xan yayyyyy for abnormalities. Hopefully it's a good sign.

AFM - I started clomid today. I'm doing day 5-9 hoping it will be our lucky round beings the last 6 have been 3-7. If this isn't our round and I still haven't found an specialist we are going to try fertility blend. Hopefully that's not needed but if so we are hoping for the best. Did u get pregnant the first round Xan? I'm sure y'all can relate but I'm praying so bad to be pregnant by Christmas. Every year I dream up ways I could announce it during the holidays lol yeah I'm a little crazy with too much time on my hands and an idle mind lol.

 

[Leetie13]

Xan -

Ttc - praying this is your cycle! I'm right there with you on the holiday thing. I know no matter what it will be exciting but if it happened around a holiday it would be even better.




So I'm officially a grandma lol I really need to come up with something for her to call me because that just isn't it lol. My step daughter ( who again is my age) her water broke yesterday at 5 am and she finally had her little girl at 11:24pm 6lbs 2 oz and 19 inches long. It was a little scary for a while because every time she was on her back the baby's heart rate would drop so she had to stay on her side and at one point they said c section because she got to almost a 9 and wouldn't dilate anymore. But the doctor decided to let her try and push to stretch it and after an hour of pushing she came out.



So many emotions going on in me. I'm of course excited and happy for them but I'm also jealous which I hate. Also nervous because I know their parenting beliefs are going to be pretty different than mine and I keep just trying to tell myself as long as the baby is being taken care of and has everything she needs that's all that matters. But the anxiety is there and DH feels it too. So just praying we will be able to try and let them be for the most part unless we have to step in.

 

[TTC n Hopeful]

Leetie how exciting! I can definitely understand the jealous feeling. When I found out my brother and SIL were pregnant I was so jealous and I hated that I felt that way. I like Meme has a grandmother name. You will find a name that fits you. So glad everything turned out well for your daughter in law.

AFM social media is the devil! I mean seriously fb is flooded with pregnancy announcements. It's so depressing. And then to top it off, this is my last round of clomid, and on toppings of that my gallbladder is horrible. If we don't get pregnant this cycle I'm going toppings have the surgery. It's so bad I just want to lay in bed. The good news is Friday Hallmark Christmas movies start!!!! I am so excited over that lol. I really love Christmas. And for me it's not the presents its the whole aspect of Christmas. The family time, celebrating Jesus, the cold weather, the decorating, the baking, the Christmas movies. Just all of it.

 

[xanzaba]

Sorry for being MIA- we just moved into our house and don't have internet.

TTC- It was the 2nd and the 3rd cycle on FB that I became pregnant. This is the 3rd cycle so far, so I'm trying not to expect too much!

Leetie- I'm sorry you're feeling jealous, but it will pass. We can't help the way we feel. I just hope they are good parents, and maybe your presence will help them along the way.

Did you have your progesterone checked? Fx'ed this is the cycle!

AFM- CD 6, here we go again!

 

[Leetie13]

Thanks ladies I'm doing better. They just have a lot of growing up to do.


Ttc - I love Christmas too. It goes way to fast though. I'm sorry your gallbladder is acting up again. My sister finally had her surgery and feels so much better.


Xan - Yay for getting a new house!



Did my progesterone test friday got the results today it was 15.69. Lower than last cycle but it still means I O'd and I'm not too concerned with the numbers any more. I know they only matter once you're pregnant.

 

[Leetie13]

Tested this morning it was negative

 

[xanzaba]

Tested this morning it was negative

Sorry, Leetie. Have you talked to the doctor about the next cycles? Are you going to try this a bit more, or are you moving on?

 

[Leetie13]

Thanks Xan.

I have one more cycle with the femara then I go in for a follow up to see what's next. Which is most likely back to a specialist since there's nothing else a regular gyno can do. Our next step should be iui so we will probably be on a break for a while to save up to do one.

But you never know maybe this cycle will be it. I can only hope and pray

 

[xanzaba]

I'll be right with you, all things crossed! I found out I was pregnant the cycle before I was supposed to do IUI, so it happens

DH and I decided that we'll go see a doctor in December if this cycle doesn't work out, to help things along, but yeah, with the house we are a bit tight on money. So fingers crossed for all of us.

 

[Leetie13]

I hate that money is an issue. I know that's life but I just feel like if it wasn't a factor I'd have my baby by now.

I just try not to dwell on it and whatever will be will be.

 

[TTC n Hopeful]

Hi ladies! Life is hectic.
Xan - yayyyy for a new house. Fx this is your cycle!
Leetie - I understand the money situation. I'm still in school so I don't work so if that's the next step for us it will have to wait too.

AFM - I'm on cd 18. O should be happening soon. Praying this is our cycle. I seen a new dr on Monday. She was amazing. She's just my new family dr but she's putting in the referral to go to Seattle reproductive clinic so hopefully of this isn't our cycle we can be on top of what happens next. I'm really praying for all of us. Between school work and non stop hallmark Christmas movies I have no free time LOL. I'm so obsessed with Christmas. I love the movies.