finding the strength....

[tigerlilly]

Well what can i say it's xmas, and on the 23rd Dec (yesterday) our bean would have been due we should be having a happy xmas with our baby (I know it was only a suspected mc, sorry) waiting on a referal for fs.

we have to spend xmas in the company of my pg sil and will no doubt spend most all day talking about babies and her pregnancy, and how she can't belive the baby will be here soon blah, or got pg so quick blah or get a council house blah. I really don't know how i'm going to get through the day i'm struggling to get through today or any day.

I though i'd sail through this and i'm not. I've also got to contend with sil family as well tomorrow, how can i ask for prayers of strength and courage when i can't even get myself out of bed and face the world i just feel so empty.

Much love to you all xx