first cycle actively trying (June 2015)

[gina236]

Ahh fertile I am soooo happy for you!!! That is amazing!! So glad I decided to pop on quickly! When you are ready tell us all about it! So so happy for you!!

 

[Jezika]

Congrats Fertile! That's awesome news

About to nap now but just wanted to pop in and say I'm totally on the same page as you Les and Gina re: feeling hopeful because of certain things I hear or certain symptoms, but then I really, really try hard not to. I so hope my temp drop is not a sign of AF. I've not had a chance to work out my LP before. First cycle temping I O'd on CD14, making an LP of 11 days if that cycle had been my average of 25 days (were in not for late AF due to CP).

 

[Gagrlinpitt]

Hello ladies!

I'm so sorry I have not been around in a while. I was feeling depressed and defeated, and did come back to find some joy for Leson and Gina only to learn there was more heartbreak. I'm sorry I was not strong enough to be here for you at that time.

I wont be back for a little while longer, but I WILL return and see how you ladies are doing once this little snugglebug is nestled in and got a heartbeat. Yes, you read it right.
After 8 months of one cp and nothing else, I got my first, very faint positive hpt yesterday at 10/11dpo. I went crazy and took about 10 more tests up until today. All positives and getting slightly darker. Finally just confirmed it with a clearblue digital!! Still can't believe it. My first wee baby at 40yo.

I have had less symptoms this month than before! Almost none! I will share the few symptoms I have had when I return in a little while.

My head is spinning but my heart is pure bliss!!

Les - How are you? I hope you are in a good place now! FC

Gina - Keeping my fingers crossed we'll be bump buddies my dear ttc friend!

Vel, keeping my fingers crossed for you too!! Baby dust!

Magic - are you still around? I hope you're ok!

Wifey - greetings and best wishes, baby dust and good fortune!!

So excited for you!!! Congrats

 

[wifeybby]

Congrats, Fertile!! Hope you have an uneventful, happy and healthy nine long months enjoy every moment!! thank you for the well wishes, they are much needed at this point! Can't wait to hear all about it when you're ready

 

[Velathria]

FERTILEFLOWER OMG YOU FINALLY DID IT!! Hahah I'm so so happy for you Can't wait to hear about your tww. ^^ again so so happy for you ^^ we were almost the same amount of time trying.. lol you just reminded me that this is my 7th cycle trying already. Wow time flies.

FX for 9 healthy months ^^ hope you get that app quickly and get to hear that heartbeat ^^

Gina, les, Gag and jez- haha symptom spotting is horrible but I think that's all we have to keep us occupied till testing time hahah.. got my fingers crossed for you guys for this month.

And I'm starting over for this cycle. Already temping and gina your right it's working out with the sleep. I got two normal temps. They were pretty close to eachother. ^^ hoping I o this cycle ^^

 

[gina236]

I'm glad it's working for you vel! I thought it would. It definitely helps you know exactly what's going on.

AFM I have been having the strangest dreams! Last night's dream makes me wonder if my body is telling me something.. okay now this is going to sound completely insane. so I had a dream last night that dh and I watched this thing on TV about these white worm like things that go through people's gums. It was kinda portrayed as a disease. To get rid of them you have to swallow all of them and then pee out this huge snake like thing and then swallow that again to make sure it doesn't spread. So we watch this show, then I look at dh and he has them! And so do i! So we spend the rest of the dream trying to get rid of them but can't seem to pee them back out. Then we see a myth busters episode that says these things aren't real and we stop freaking out. I woke up needing to check my mouth it felt so real. Still kinda feel it almost 3 hours later...

So I did a little research and worms actually represent daughters (no idea why or how but that's what the Internet told me lol) so I'm wondering if the dream was telling me that there is a foreign invader or a daughter inside me. I'm really really hoping the whole trying to get rid of it doesn't mean anything like my immune system is attacking it or anything. Idk. Or maybe it was a freak dream. Just makes me wonder.

And all morning I have had this pulling pain. From right below my belly button to just above my pubic bone feels like it's being pulled. I'm not bloated or anything so idk what that's about. It's kinda high to be my uterus but maybe it has to do with it. Just more things to get my hopes up. Really hope I push these hopes back down before AF or testing. I don't wanna be crushed if it's not my month.

Fertile I can't get over that your pregnant!! I'm so happy for you!

 

[Gagrlinpitt]

I'm glad it's working for you vel! I thought it would. It definitely helps you know exactly what's going on.

AFM I have been having the strangest dreams! Last night's dream makes me wonder if my body is telling me something.. okay now this is going to sound completely insane. so I had a dream last night that dh and I watched this thing on TV about these white worm like things that go through people's gums. It was kinda portrayed as a disease. To get rid of them you have to swallow all of them and then pee out this huge snake like thing and then swallow that again to make sure it doesn't spread. So we watch this show, then I look at dh and he has them! And so do i! So we spend the rest of the dream trying to get rid of them but can't seem to pee them back out. Then we see a myth busters episode that says these things aren't real and we stop freaking out. I woke up needing to check my mouth it felt so real. Still kinda feel it almost 3 hours later...

So I did a little research and worms actually represent daughters (no idea why or how but that's what the Internet told me lol) so I'm wondering if the dream was telling me that there is a foreign invader or a daughter inside me. I'm really really hoping the whole trying to get rid of it doesn't mean anything like my immune system is attacking it or anything. Idk. Or maybe it was a freak dream. Just makes me wonder.

And all morning I have had this pulling pain. From right below my belly button to just above my pubic bone feels like it's being pulled. I'm not bloated or anything so idk what that's about. It's kinda high to be my uterus but maybe it has to do with it. Just more things to get my hopes up. Really hope I push these hopes back down before AF or testing. I don't wanna be crushed if it's not my month.

Fertile I can't get over that your pregnant!! I'm so happy for you!

That's kind of scary Gina, although I hope this is your month!!!

 

[kiki1234]

Well.... just had my very first serious baby envy. A friend that got married 1 week before me is pregnant and due late September. It honestly shocked me how upset it did make me. AND I think it just re-iterated to me how much I am ready for baby. I am happy for her, but just jealous.... just plain old jealous! FX for all of you ladies! I'm hoping this is your month!!!

 

[gina236]

Kiki I have someone like that. I got married a year before her. Started trying 3 months before they even got married (I had been married a year). And she's due in June or July -_- I totally get the feeling. I'm so insanely jealous that they got pregnant right away. But we just have to remember, when the time is right, it will happen.

 

[Gagrlinpitt]

Kiki- I can totally relate.. Most of our friends who got married after us are either pregnant or have babies. It didn't bother me until a month or so ago when I found out two girls at work are pregnant and I got really jealous...

It will happen for us

 

[Jezika]

Kiki - I can totally relate too. Though we haven't been trying long, it makes me kind of sad and envious when this happens and I hate feeling like that, especially the few people I know who hadn't even MET by the time DH and I got married, and now they're expecting or have a baby. I think it's a totally normal response as long as you can avoid dwelling on it.

Gina - I can't remember how many DPO you are but I felt that pulling last month too and also had really vivid dreams. Is it similar to your previous pg cycles? I can't stop myself from comparing, which is convincing me that my different experience this cycle must mean BFN. Hopeful or not hopeful, both are suckie feelings!

Vel - this is weird, but I'm really excited to see your chart. I love seeing people's charts, esp when temping for the first time. I have good feelings about this cycle for you

 

[Jezika]

So guys, I'm really annoying myself with this preoccupation with comparing my preent symptoms at 8DPO with last month's symptoms (when I WAS pg but had a CP). Last month at 7DPO I had weird cramping and pulling sensations that last a day or two, sore boobs and a TONNE of thick, yellowy CM for a whole week, starting from 7DPO. I had barely any CM right now (maybe can be classed as "sticky" at best), definitely no cramping and only very sore boobs that seem to stop being sore on and off all day. I know they say that every pg is different, but I feel like that's only the case when people have pregnancies with a fair bit of time in-between (i.e., not with a pg directly following a CP). Is anyone able to shed any light on this?

 

[gina236]

Jez every pregnancy cycle I have had has been different. Nothing seems to be a sure tell for me. The only thing is the gut feeling I get which I have been trying to convince myself I don't have this time (even tho I kinda do) . I believe we are cycle twins this month! I didn't temp or use opks so I don't know for sure but pretty sure I O'd on the 14th or 15th. Really hoping for good news for you. You most likely won't feel the same as last time due to the drastic change in hormones from the CP and then possible new pregnancy. Where your body was going from nothing to pregnant last time, this time it's up and down and up so hormones will be all over. Really hoping you end up with good news despite how you feel.

 

[Jezika]

Yayyy to being cycle twins!! And what you said about symptoms makes me feel better. I'm always looking for things to give me hope and then I'm like noooo noooo I shouldn't want hope! I think you probably already mentioned when you're planning on testing but I can't remember? I'm going to try to hold out till Saturday. Was so tempted today already and then quickly peed and then drank loads of water before I could be impulsive.

 

[gina236]

I am trying to wait until the 31st. I have 1 app that just tracks periods and predicts O and it says af is due the 31st (although I'm pretty sure I O'd early and she is due more around the 28th). We will see how long I can hold out. I've already been tempted to test but thankfully I forget in the mornings because it's been so long since I peed on anything lol.

 

[Jezika]

Wow, sorry, March 31st is totally in your signature and I'm pretty sure you mentioned it too. I feel of two minds about testing. In some ways I'd prefer to see a negative even if it's early so that I can forget about it for a while and get used to the idea of it not happening rather than keeping up hope. I'm actually more scared of an early BFP. Ideally I would just not test at all till I'm super late, but the lateness itself is a dead giveaway.

 

[gina236]

I feel the same way. It's so hard not to get too hopeful every month. I'd rather have no hope and get a surprise than have tons of hope and get a .

More crazy real dreams last night. Thankfully nothing as weird this time. Dreamt about my late grandma's house. We had to sell it when she went into the nursing home. My grandfather built the house and it had so many memories all of us were sad to see it go. In my dream, all my adult family (like 30-50 people) decided to keep it and split the cost of fixing it up so we could have somewhere to host family parties and anyone could use it whenever as a little get away. Kinda wish we had done that in the first place. Thankfully the guy that bought it didn't tear it down like we were afraid he was going to but he did paint the outside which bugged me. It used to be this very distinct dark green color. Now it's tan obviously he was going to change it but no body likes to see childhood memories change like that. But ya so that's it for symptoms from me. Still have that pulling feeling oh and I've been craving spicy food. I HATE spicy food but I'm hooked on these Chipotle agave pickles my dh bought for himself. I MIGHT have even more than half of them

 

[wifeybby]

Oh girls. FX this is our month! Hope we see some BFPs soon and get things moving forward.

CD10 here, ovaries feel active - I can feel they're there, it's different, but not twitching or twinges and stuff. Hoping these follies grow big enough to trigger Friday! Found out last night DH is off Friday so I'll have company at this appointment. So excited! Staying positive

 

[gina236]

Wifey I am so hoping you can trigger Friday!! Can't wait to be bump buddies

 

[lesondemavie]

Wifey! I'm so very hopeful that you'll get that BFP soon!

AFM: 3 DPO and super teary. Usually this day is a spike in anxiety for me so that's new. My temps are also a bit lower than usual. Is it April yet? If it's not a BFP, I just want to get back to normal.