first cycle actively trying (June 2015)

[Velathria]

Awww thanks mini!!! I am so happy for you and so excited for the day you get to hold that little precious baby

 

[gina236]

Awe mini thanksgiving is a perfect time to tell family! I am not looking forward to the hormonal acne. I have struggled with acne since I was 13 and just finally got it mostly under control. Lol. But it will all be worth it.

Velathria I hope we both get a bfp this cycle. Cycle buddies and bump buddies! I can't stop day dreaming about it. I'm laying on my bed with my two cats and I can just picture a baby sleeping in a bassinet next to me. I am so beyond ready for this. I just hope dh gets the job he wants so I don't even have to think about working lol.

 

[Velathria]

Omg that be so cool aww I bet gina... I would even rather have you have a postive this month then me. You've been at it so long.

 

[gina236]

Awe thanks. That's so nice. Thankfully there is plenty of baby dust to go around I just hope if it happens, it sticks! Another chemical or later miscarriage would destroy me. Gonna carve a pumpkin this week since Halloween is Saturday just so I can roast the pumpkin seeds. They are supposed to be really high in zinc which is good for the

 

[Velathria]

I hope so too for you... I respect and admire you that you guys kept on trying... I don't know if I would be strong enough to keep going... I've never had it and I also hope I never have to but I think you guys are amazing. And I really really hope this month is your month. And I read about pumpkin seeds too.. its good for you too... good for firtility and peanuts also. Have him snack on those thank god my bf loves peanuts.

 

[gina236]

Every little bit will help. I definitely understand how people can adopt now. I never got it before but after this I get it. We are no where near that point but I totally understand how someone could. I believe everything happens for a reason. If I didn't lose the baby in August I would be due a week apart from my cousin and I feel she deserves all the attention on her. She has been trying for 5 years and I would have hated to take away some of that excitement for her. Things like that make it easier for me to know it just wasn't the right time for us. But this month feels right. Every time I have gotten pregnant in the past it was only after one time of dtd so hoping as long as we time things right we won't have an issue. All the fertility boosting stuff is just extra

 

[Velathria]

That's good then... I have a feeling this month will be it too but I don't trust my instincts xD

I just hope you finally get it this month. How long has it been now?

And if this month doesn't work then I'm trying the healthy diet too... all greens and maca powder.

 

[gina236]

We have been actively trying for 7 months. Been not trying not protecting for 5 years...

 

[Lawes1987]

Sorry about being MIA ladies. I'm CD16 today.

So today is the anniversary of our first lost baby. 3 years ago today. Me and OH had an argument last night over others causing issues as usual and he lost his temper and he smashed a hole in the wall. I'm already off work with stress cause everything is getting on top of me. We have been together over 4 years, married over 18 months and it worries me then I have this much stress to deal with before I'm even pregnant. I think TTC is the only thing holding me together ATM and now I don't wanna go near him. Today I could just crawl into the corner of the sofa and tell the whole world to shove it.

 

[gina236]

I'm so sorry you are going though that. On the anniversary of all days sounds like your OH has some anger issues. Just a word of advice, babies never make things better. Maybe look into some counseling before a baby comes. Even if it's while your pregnant. I worry about the stress of a baby coming between my hubby and I but we are committed to making it work. It's normal to have cold feet and be worried but you shouldn't have to deal with that during such a stressful time. Hope you feel better!

 

[mininun1]

Hi Lawes, so sorry to hear about all the stress I would definitely second what Gina said, sounds like your OH has some serious anger issues, and that's causing your stress to be even worse. I hope things calm down for you and that your sig. other is able to find a way to cope with his anger issues.

 

[Velathria]

I agree with gina and mini... me and my ex had the same issues and then we had our son and it just went from there... it's better to get it All sorted so the baby doesn't have to get too involved. Hope everything works out with you two. Maybe he was also really affected about the anniversary too.

But that's definitely something to talk about.

And gina how is it going with you and your dh? Me and the bf have dtd last night and the night before so that's working great two more days and then I should be ovulating... yesterday I think I started having ewcm but I could've also been sperm. .. not sure... I have had cramps but this time they are on both sides not just on one... oh well don't have any opk to test cause they are still on the way.. I am not buying them anymore. ... maybe I can get them from somewhere else
.. how you feeling mini?

 

[gina236]

Hi velathria. I'm doing good. Still very negative opks. We are going to try for every other day. So we DTD Monday and hopefully will tonight. I have found if I send my dh sexy pics of me throughout the day he is ready to go when he gets home so that's helping. It's rainy here today so I'm hoping it doesn't make his hip hurts too bad.

I have the hardest time knowing what my CM is doing the day after we dtd! Can never tell if it's his sperm or if it's my CM lol. Been having really high anxiety the past week so I'm hoping that won't hurt our chances. Been trying to relax but everyday about 2 or 3 in the afternoon my anxiety just spikes up.

I hope you and your bf get that bfp this month! Sounds like you've got the part down

 

[Velathria]

Oh the sexy pics are a good idea good thinking hahaha.... oh I know what you mean... it's kind of identical. Quick question: how does the uterus feel when it's close to ovulation?

Is it further down ? Cause lately my bf said he could feel it and It actually hurts a bit when he goes deep... (sorry for tmi) just wondering...

Are you having anxiety because of the ttc or some thing private? Hope it gets better with that.. atleast this time you guys get to dtd more often I hope your dh can finish tonight again for you good luck and lots lots of baby dust your way

 

[gina236]

I'm not sure about the uterus feeling. I know your cervix is supposed to get high and soft before you ovulate. I've never noticed my uterus feeling farther down other than when I was already pregnant. I had a weird pressure/full feeling down there.

I think my anxiety has to do with my job. I was waiting on my supervisor to call me in for a meeting every day around 2 last week and now I think it's like a habit to start to get anxious around that time lol. I'm also thinking way too much about ttc but that's more excitement than anything.

Baby dust to you too! Sounds like you will O a few days before me! I'm not scheduled until Sunday but stress usually makes me O early so maybe sooner?

 

[Velathria]

Lol meant the cervix xD still a bit new to the whole ttc mmmh... it has been feeling more open and I can feel everything cramping down there so I think I will be ovulating soon.... my app says 30th... but could be later too... I'm just gonna cover all those days xD just in case Hahaha...

Oh I know that feeling with anxiety... maybe try just doing something to calm yourself down around that time.. maybe yoga or just a nice warm bath... or are you still at work at that time?

 

[gina236]

I work until 4 every day. Lol. I think it has alot to do with the fact I haven't gone for a run in awhile. Been so busy and it's so cold here now. But maybe tomorrow I will have time for a quick run. My dog needs it too lol.

Open cervix is a good thing. It opens to allow the sperm in. It's supposed to also get very soft and high. I have stopped using my cervix as a sign though. After my chemical it has just been all over. Last month it never even closed after O so I think it's confused. Haha. And TMI but two days of pretty aggressive sex had me pretty sore down there so checking it was uncomfortable yesterday. Haha.

 

[Velathria]

Yeah haha I know what you mean.. it's all sore from having sex so many times. XD but I have a good feeling about this month.

Oh I know what you mean. I love going for walks and getting out in the fresh air to calm down and just fee good... my bf is kinda cranky today cause he didn't sleep well so I will be getting him to go for a walk. He might feel better after that... maybe a romantic walk

 

[gina236]

How is the scenery out there? I love nice walks. With winter approaching here it gets hard. It gets dark so early and I hate being cold. Lol. I'm sure you can find a way to cheer up your bf

 

[Velathria]

OH it's beautiful here... the scenery is all green and little paths all over... sometimes it's a bit wet but we just put on our wellies and then go out my son loves it here. Just got some Christmas presents for the little sweatheart. You have to be quick before they get all sold out. I am so excited to see how face boyfriend is feeling better now... it's cold today but we went for a walk and came back and had some tea while watching a movie. it was nice.