first cycle actively trying (June 2015)

[gina236]

Wifey I'm so glad it all went well. I've been thinking of you.hopefully the pain will ease up. But be sure to not overdue it when it does. Take it easy. Let that amazing hubby of yours help you out. Hopefully this was just what you need to get your bfp!

 

[wifeybby]

Thank you both! I think we can all relate to this quote: "You never know how strong you are, until being strong is your only choice." In life, and in TTC we are always faced with situations we never thought we would encounter. But you get through it, gain perspective and learn. You cope and feel like you made it a little further each time. It makes us who we are. I've been so emotional lately too, lesondemavie. I think we are just so invested emotionally,mentally, physically, financially to our goals that we get so close we can almost see, feel or taste it. Someday, when we become mothers, or are blessed again with another LO, we will look back on what we went through to get there.. and move on to new experiences! Here's to staying strong, being positive and moving forward! And shout out to all our OH's being there every step of the way!

 

[Velathria]

Hey guys sorry been pretty busy lol but thought I'd check on everyone.

Wifey I'm glad it all went well with the lab and hope you finally get your bfp. its great to have such supportive partners. I think this ttc journey really puts them to the test too to see if they are ready for it and if they will also do whatever it takes.
Gina I saw your profile pic and it's amazing. So sweet and true. How is everything going?
Les- I hope your preg. Symptoms are finally letting up a bit and sorry you are still having emotional days. I really am in awe of how strong you all are through all this.

Hope we all get our bfp's soon.

Me and DF have been Bd'ing like crazy but my opks are all just showing up negative after negative and usually by now they'd be super strong or almost positive but I can hardly see a line.
Omg what if I don't ovulate this month? In the last 5 months we've been trying I've never been late with ovulating... I hope everytime is alright. I could cry right now. I feel like I won't even have a chance this month.

And I only have two more opks left..

Was cleaning out my sons toys today and put away a few bags of baby toys for our next one.. if there even will be one ... TTC freaking sucks. I hate it! I just want to be done with this and have my baby.
I was feeling so positive this month but now I just feel defeated.

Sorry had to vent.. I feel bad whining about this seeing as you guys are having worse times but I just feel like crap about all of this.

Only way I am actually staying sane through all of this is cause of my DF and you ladies. If I didn't have all of you I'd be going bonkers... love you ladies.

 

[Jezika]

Aww it's so nice having you guys. I wonder what it would be like to do this without this forum. I think I would feel pretty lonely on this journey. A few of my close friends know we are TTC and are supportive, but I appreciate it's hard to relate when you're not in exactly the same boat, plus I don't want to keep moaning about things (poor DH hears enough!). But here there are people just like me, which I think is a really therapeutic thing. I know that it will happen for all of us one way or another, at some point. I think about people I know who've been TTC for a long time and now have their precious LOs. They were on our journey too once. Almost always, something works out, and I am going to try to trust that.

When I look back over my life so far, there have been so many times that I have yearned for things that I knew I wasn't ready for yet, or that would take a long time, seemingly endless tears, patience or effort to achieve/obtain and even then wouldn't be guaranteed. But they came in the end, and I know this will be the same. We're already so blessed to have our partners in our lives, with whom we share both love and this roller coaster of a ride. The absence of that - which a lot of us take for granted; I know I do - causes a lot of pain for many. I'm going to try to be grateful for having that, especially today of all days. And, of course, I'm grateful to you all too

 

[gina236]

Thanks vel! I saw it on fb and had to steal it. Makes me feel so much better about everything to think of it that way. I'm doing good. DH and I had a great Valentine's day. We spent the day together doing stuff around the house and then cooked a big dinner together that we both though was going to be one of our pinterest fails but it actually came out awesome. I was so proud of us.

I'm sorry your opks aren't turning positive yet. Maybe it's just a delayed O. 1 super weird or even annovulatory cycle a year is actually totally normal and nothing to worry about. I hope that's not the case and it's just a delayed O due to stress or weather or something. Sometimes opks can turn from totally negative to blazing positive in one day. FX you O soon. Try to stay calm about it. Stressing is going to delay it even more.

Jez I agree it is so great to have this forum. Sometimes it's a bad influence when it comes to testing early but the support of women going through the same thing is amazing. You have a great attitude about TTC! Try to remind yourself of that on the hard days.

Wifey hope your feeling better today and almost ready to go back to work tomorrow.

 

[Velathria]

Yeah I don't know what's going on. I had a weird short and light af and then I am having the same light lines on my opks... it's killing me. I feel like I wont Even have a chance this month.

Thanks gina

 

[gina236]

Have you tried a hpt lately? Maybe it wasn't af.. that would explain why opks aren't turning positive.

 

[Velathria]

I thought opks are supposed to be positive if you are pregnant or is that just a myth... maybe I should although I'm so scared to do a test.

 

[lesondemavie]

Not a myth while I was pg my opks were blazing positives...darker than they had been ever before. I did a few plus hpts right up until my appointment for reassurance. Sadly, they were beautiful and dark but the news was still bad.

 

[Velathria]

I just remember I bled with my son and it took two months until it showed up that I was pregnant with my son on a urine test. My DF keeps saying that every pregnancy is different and that this time doesn't mean it's the same. But what if it is. Weirdly my bbs haven't stopped hurting since I got my AF and they usually go back to normal after. But I'm not having any other symptoms except that I am a bit bitchy.... it took the symptoms with my 1st pregnancy until the 12 week and then they hit me hard.

 

[gina236]

Some people get positive opks when pregnant but not all. I've heard of plenty of women that didn't get the positive opks. Thats why they say you can't count on them as hpts. That's definitely weird that your boobs haven't stopped hurting. I'd say take a test just to check. You never know.

 

[Velathria]

I'm gonna do another opk and an hpt with the same urine and then see what happens. Might explain why I have been so emotional.

 

[lesondemavie]

Definitely worth checking on especially with your history Vel. All best to you ❤️

 

[Velathria]

Thanks guys. I'll let you know when I do it... should I do it with holding my pee?

 

[gina236]

I'd do a 2 or 3 hour hold. With your history of bad urine tests when pregnant I would think the more concentrated the better. Can't wait to hear the result!!

 

[Velathria]

Okie dokie. I have to pee right now so I guess here goes holding it that long xD

 

[gina236]

Haha that's the worst! Just hold as long as you can and hope it's good enough. Do you have a sensitive test?

 

[Velathria]

I have one yes.. I've been holding on to it since we started ttc xD but I don't know where it is.. might have to use the IC ones.. don't know how they are. It's just weird usually the opks show everyday either getting darker or lighter but these are the same faint lines...

 

[gina236]

Well hopefully they will get darker or you will get a positive hpt. Being in limbo is terrible!

 

[Velathria]

I'm hoping for a positive hpt... but I have a weird feeling that it'll be negative... I just hope if it is then the opks atleast will get darker. Have never ovulated this late.