I think even if the time is horrible, a part of us always wants that second line to show up...so its understandable to feel let down in good circumstances if it doesn't happen. We are all meant to be moms, and it's hard to swallow when it doesn't happen, or that dream doesn't come to fruition.
I'm sorry...i'm super emotional right now!
Anyway, maybe, if this isn't your month, the stars will align and he'll be home during your fertile window. Or can you visit him if it's on a weekend? Can't recall how long the distance was...