Going back to edit and say I’m sorry this is such a long post, I’m such a rambler, I have keyboard diarrhea lol
My memory has been terrible lately, I can barely remember anything so I promise I’m not ignoring you if I don’t respond to you!
Jez idk if I said anything about the wedding, I feel like I didn’t. I’m glad it went well with the speech, and I’m glad the ring bearer issue didn’t totally ruin things, good idea to have the rings with someone else. So cute about Tilly. What language does your friend speak?
When I spend a ton of time planning something, I go a little crazy if anything at all goes wrong (like I get upset and anxious and pissy). I’m scared I’m gonna be a total bridezilla, I really don’t want to be one. I don’t want people to hate me. Though to be honest, the most important parts for me are the dress and the ceremony, so as long as those go pretty well, I can deal with other crap. Food and alcohol are a second tier worry, and I honestly couldn’t care less about whether people are dancing into the night or not. If they are, great, I’m extra happy. If not, meh. Not important. I know as the couple you’re the host so you’re supposed to cater to your guests, but honestly how I view it is, it’s my wedding, it’s my day, I get to prioritize what is most important to me
I could talk about wedding stuff forever so imma stop there unless someone specifically wants to talk more about it cuz I go overboard.
Anyway Jez, was it you who asked how I’m feeling? I’m doing much better. Acid reflux has been a mild issue the last two days, I feel like I constantly have a pill stuck in my throat sometimes. Taking an acid reducer usually makes the feeling go away after an hour or so. My mom warned me that acid reflux was likely to occur with estrogen (she tells me this after I was already getting chest and throat pain from it haha, thanks mom, but that stuff has passed thank goodness). I haven’t taken my depression meds since they made me puke. I’m trying to adjust to the bcp a bit and then I’ll start at a lower dose of my depression meds and slowly build it back up. Though honestly I might be able to lower the dose, because I’ve been mostly okay without it the past 2 weeks. I’ve had occasional mood swings (that’s my main symptom of when I’m off them, rather than feeling empty or sad, for the past year maybe?) and in college I would sometimes have empty/sad/lonely days even on the meds, so I don’t wanna go off them completely. But I think it would be reasonable for me to lower the dose. When I went on them I totally needed the high dose. Nothing was really fun to me, I was super moody/irritable, I felt empty most of the time. Now I think I’m doing much better than that. Not perfect, but better.
Geez I’m ranting again. Sorry. Yeah, just acid reflux now. Bleeding has stayed light flow.
I don’t live in an area where I can just not have a car, it’s technically suburban cuz of the population but I think if I have to stop for chickens in the road in more than one place in town and I have more than one horse farm on my road, it counts as kinda rural. While I dislike the concept of city living, transportation is something I’d be okay with. The subway is my favorite part of visiting cities. But I can get along without my car for a few days. I just will need it working soon, because I need to drive up to my college town to pick up my scrubs still and do HR stuff for my work study. I also gotta go to the nearest city for my drug test. I hate drug tests, I don’t do any drugs but half the girls in my school smoke weed (I don’t), and what are they gonna do, say you can’t come to clinical cuz you smoked weed on your own time? It ain’t their business if it ain’t affecting their work.
Blah that’s was too much talking but I’m gonna keep talking anyway.
PL the vineyard idea sounds super cool! I know nothing about growing grapes, or anything really. I want a homestead with animals (not for eating, I just couldn’t do it) and a huge garden and fruit trees and make s big greenhouse for year round produce. But I know it’s a ton of work, and I won’t have the time or money for that stuff. So I totally bow down to anyone who can manage a homestead or huge orchard or whatever, whether they have an outside job or not. Hopefully the 2nd viewing people will be able to stretch their budget to afford your awesome house so you can get that show on the road!
Flueks how did the babysitter convo go?
Dobs I believe you asked if I can get along without a car for a few days. I mentioned in my reply to Jez, yes, I can. But in a few days I’m gonna need it working again. Most important is that it’s fixed by September for moving in to college, but not having it prior to that would be very inconvenient. SO thinks it’s electrical but isn’t sure cuz he isn’t a mechanic. He’s concerned about water leaking into the gas tank as well, but it’s got a cover so he couldn’t look at it at all. My dad says we’ll get it towed to a mechanic on Thursday (we’re too busy tomorrow) and hope for the best.
Honestly I remembered more than I expected I would, but still not everything of course.
Tomorrow my mom is bringing me to Boston just so we can get sushi burritos (basically just huge burrito sized rolls, don’t worry there’s no tortillas) cuz I’ve wanted to try them for like a year at least. I love hand rolls, so I’m really excited. The place we’re going also makes poke bowls, so if the sushi burritos aren’t big enough/don’t fill me up, I’ll also get a poke bowl, which I’ve also always wanted to try. If sashimi grade salmon was available near me at an affordable price, I’d probably have some kind of sushi or poke bowl 3 times a week at least. I have a sushi addiction, and salmon is my fish of choice lol.
I’m avoiding it, but I also gotta ask her to buy the huge book bundle of textbooks ($265 with the discount code I believe, could be worse) plus the two books not included in the bundle (one is actually just a $170 access code). She already bought me the microbiology textbook, but we got it off amazon used because the access code wasn’t required for that one.
Okay I gotta get up early so time for bed. Sending love to you all.
it was supposed to be ready in July! I just hope it’s ready by the time the twins come because we only live in a two bed at the moment
jk just saw your post I take three a day cuz insane haha. Probably more I take one every time I pee 
. Gl with the babysitter!
glad Tilly hung in there and the speech was well received.
yes book the next scan at earliest, it’ll def confirm gender & help bond i think & its exciting to see how much new bubba will be looking like one of your other boys or just completely diff 
