Sorry for going MIA! It’s been such a busy few days!
Shae oh gosh! That’s a lot of ailments to deal with at once! Hoping by now that everything has cleared up! And yay for getting into the ore active role of your job! I’m sure you’ll do great on a person. Hope you don’t get stuck with someone like me with tiny a**, weird veins. But I go in expected it to be a whole thing haha.
Fluek thank you, we need it. We’ve just accepted a state of perpetual drought. Yes, we have earthquakes. But they’re usually pretty small and I never feel them. I’m starting to feel like huge wildfires are now the Cali thing. Hoping the forecasted weekend showers weren’t too bad. Sounds like y’all managed to get a fair bit done! FXed everything keeps on a good pace and you get your CO next week! Exciting! Sorry about having to go out on a call when you had stuff to do, but glad it was at least a smooth one.
Pretty it depends on how bad the trigger is. Lately, they usually just last the night. But this one took me nearly a week to shake off the lingering anxiety. I think maybe because we kept talking, so I was on high alert every time we talked. Not a dumb question at all! Love the picture and the tradition! Congratulations on your possession anniversary! I’m not even gonna say FXed there are 3 next year, there will be! You hear me Universe?! Maybe even 4!
(sorry this is long lol)
AFM yesterday was my birthday! Officially 32. I was feeling really depressed all week, but I decided to stop moping and do something nice for myself on Friday. So I went to my favorite winery in Livermore for the first time for a tasting. I got both wine flights and a charcuterie board. They ended up comping both of my flights AND binging me two chocolate truffles and three free glasses for my birthday/ being the only table that swarmed by hornets LMFAO. I bought a bottle and tipped based off of what my total should have been. So much fun. Really helped pull me out of my funk. Then we went to my mom’s cuz I set up a Tinder wham bam because lol birthday bd. Will return to that haha. For my actual birthday, did our usual try not to wake everyone up from 6-9am so we went to Starbucks and then to the playground at my elem school. I took a nap while my mom watched A then I did a paint nite with my brother and his gf. We killed two bottles of wine and she brought snacks. Our instructor was freaking hilarious, and it ended up just being us. Then we went to Ray’s Crab Shack for dinner. And my brother’s gf made me a cake. All in all, could not have ask for a better birthday.
So Tinder “Date”. I was so in the mood Wednesday that I decided to look for something Friday night. Also, I know I’m sleeping around a lot haha but I am getting tested once a month. My arm is starting to look awful, so I’m gonna keep it in my pants for a while LMFAO. Anyway, got the usual line up of guys who volunteer but put no effort. But one guy just really stood out. Our conversation just flowed really well, it was a mix of get to know you and logistical DTD questions. So after a day of chatting, I gave him my actual number. And this boy is texting me all day every day just being adorable. He picks me up at 9, and I’m planning to leave (at the latest) 1am. NOPE I was there until 5:30 haha and only because I had to get back before A woke up. I honestly would have loved to stay. He’s so much like me, and he’s been so much of the same s* as me. But unlike Toxic DTSJ, he doesn’t live in it or let it affect him. He has the cutest german shepherd that is so well behaved. Under socialized, so we had to do some work to get him to trust me. But the way the guy looked at me when I played with his dog was like such puppy dog eyes. He said he’s never seen anybody get along with his dog like that, and he usually nipped at his exes/would whine and bark and scratch at the door when they go to his room. His parents are my parents ages, and they’re about to get divorced! It’s just crazy. We ended up DTD three times. It’s hard because DTSJ was so good technique wise and equipment wise, and I enjoyed this but I didn’t like REALLY enjoy it if you catch my drift. And then he held me the entire time that we slept.
But he’s so sweet. Aside from the diligent texting, I joked about wanting a cupcake. So he got me tequila (I mentioned I tend to take a shot before I sleep with people I don’t know/for the first time to get out of my head), two bottles of wine (because I said I like merlot and cab) so I could have a choice, and four cupcakes from this artisan cupcake shop. Since he doesn't drink much, he had to buy wine glasses because he said I shouldn't have to drink wine out of a regular glass on my birthday. All different flavors based on what I said I liked. Each one was absolutely delicious. He’s just adorable. Now the buts. He was married once for 5 weeks. Basically a green card situation gone really wrong. Not really bothered it because it seems to be a no contest situation, was years ago, and they don’t talk/ she’s remarried anyway. He never finished college. He’s excited about a new job that he’s transitioning to next week because of it’s potential career path, but I was raised as a snob. I know my best friend’s husband never went to college, and he’s the best dad/husband I know. And he does very much raise his kids that he regrets not going and wants them to go. And they have a cute house in a nice neighborhood. They make it work. But there are some things like he didn’t get vaccinated/doesn’t plan to… he said his parents/ family may be a little “not full on racist but ignorant”. We have plans to do something Monday. And he smokes MJ, which is super common in this area and honestly most of my friends. No, all of my friends do. But he promised not to around me or before I come over. I just haven’t decided what lol. He knows about A. I wasn’t planning on telling him because booty call, but I didn’t get creeper vibes and I dropped my phone so he had to go get it and when he picked it up the wallpaper showed. He wasn’t bothered by it. Went through the standard questions. He was like more concerned with making me feel comfortable than making himself comfortable, if that makes sense. I definitely get the sense that his biological clock is ticking and he wants to be a dad. He's 31 going on 32 in September, loves being an uncle and godfather, and has always wanted to be a dad. Anyway I’m just going with the flow. I enjoy his company. If it turns into a dating relationship, cool and I'll try to not let the shallow things bug me. I told my mom he didn't graduate college, and she just said, "So?" Which I did not expect. If not, then at least I'll have fun for a bit.
Oh and I've been having just vanilla DTD because I don't want to be triggered/ haven't trusted anybody enough. But I gave him the green light to be a little more forceful and just explained what's ok and what isn't and my past trauma. I don't know how to explain it, but the brief instances where he was more in control was so assertive but gentle. He's just so mindful. It's endearing.
DAAAAAMN about the potential tick! That's nuts! My number one camping fear tbh. Glad you got it off though! Hoping your sore throat clears up quickly 
Wretched timing. Glad the covid test came back negative! And that you're covering your bases with the medication.
hasn’t happened since this morning, thankfully. 
