I wish there was some magic wirds to get us through times like this. But know that everything you are feeling is normal. No matter which number child you are on if you hoped for one gender and got the other it takes time to adjust. I passed everything down and when in your position, I felt like I wouldn't get the fun part of shopping and that there was no point buying too many things as the others had had enough. But now I find myself packing away clothes that they have all worn and feeling sad that if I get a girl she won't ever wear them and some are STILL in fab condition! I made sure each of them had their own blanket, teddy, and few bits of clothes at each age that were new and just theirs. But it's also a special moment telling your son "you once wore that, you really were that small" Honestly I can't say whether it ever goes away, but it does, for the most part, get easier. There are times when it is overwhelming and all consuming, and times when it's a little niggle at the back of my head and I feel happy with my life and what the future may hold.