Hello Lovelies,
The doctors appointment didn't go very well, but I wasn't expecting anything different. To be honest, something felt off with this pregnancy from around the time I got a BFP. I tried to shush it, but I knew.
This morning I started getting redder blood and more mucus clots.
There was a sac which measured 4-5 weeks, he sent me for a beta, which came back 1780.
I don't need to be given false hope with "it happened to me and then the baby was fine" or "I didn't see anything at that point but a week later there was a strong HB".
Those are the good statistics. I'm on the bad side.
Plus, add the pad I'm almost soaking through, there's not much hope left. I'll be seeing my doctor again on Friday, but I hope we'll have a scan which shows and empty uterus. Not that I'll be looking.
I seriously cannot believe this is happening again. But in all honesty, it's better than seeing a lifeless fetus on the screen. I'm glad I was spared from that.
And poor DH, he took it harder than the last time. I'm so over life right now.
I'm so happy I have you girls, I know you understand me, and will let me say whatever I want, and cry and curse life on earth.
I'm not sure if I want to get a BFP by October (my mind will probably change once I near ovulation), but I will be here cheering you all on. I think this is a lucky thread and by this time next year we'll all be competing in who gets the most sleep a night.
Love you all, Mwha!