Good morning, ladies!
I'd like to join your July group!
First of all, let me say Chilli, I am so so sorry for your loss. Sending lots of love and hugs your way, hun.
I got a very faint BFP on November 7 at 13 DPO. I continued to test for 12 days straight just to see the line get darker as I couldn't believe it! I had a MMC in June, so DH and I waited the 3 months my OB recommended and started trying again in September. We used SMEP in October and voila! I got pregnant again! I am beyond thrilled but also very nervous I'll get to my first appointment only to see my baby has stopped growing again.
My appointment is December 8th and I really, really, REALLY want to hear a heartbeat (we never heard one with our angel). I just want to enjoy my pregnancy but feel I'm jaded from my first loss. It's like I've subconciously built a wall that isn't allowing me to get too excited and to continue being hesitant. I guess a part of me thinks if I jump in headfirst again, I'll hurt more if I have another loss. But it will hurt anyway, so I should just try to relax and enjoy it! Easier said than done.
At least I passed the point of where my baby stopped growing, which was around 6 weeks. But I'm still so nervous it just won't work out again. Maybe it's a healthy fear? alternatedi, you said it best - I miss the innocent joy of pregnancy before experiencing a loss.
Anyway, I am due July 17 based on LMP or July 18 based on date of O. We'll see what they say at my first appointment.
Congratulations to you all! I'm looking forward to taking this journey together!