August~ good luck girl! Sorry you are so uncomfortable.
AFM~ I just got to work after my blood preg test appt. cried all the way to work. $ in the office nurse asked me what is wrong and I nearly broke down there, just told her I knew it would be negative. She told me they would get me there, & the pessimist in me wanted to say something g snarky, but I just said okay. After all, it's not her fault, it's my body. It really doesn't help that my husband and I argued last night and this morning about IVF and everything. He thinks its so ridiculous that I am so far ahead when I don't even know yet if I'm pregnant or not. I see his point but hello, it's my body! So, he said "we"ll see" in reference to IVF. And I'm trying to have a good Christian marriage and well it's hard, I'm a sinner and I'm not perfect, and I did make the mistake and said that if IVF would never be a possibility then there is no reason to continue our marriage. Because to me that means you don't care enough. Anyways, he didn't even say no to IVF, I'm Just letting everything get to me. I'll be glad When They call me today around 1pm and give me the news. Then I can relax and not try, not protect this month and hopefully get my relationship with my hubby back on track. Y'all, my love for him Is so overwhelming, I could cry about that alone. I never want to be without him, but I also have to try everything in my power to have my own baby from my own womb. Sorry for rambling. But it feels good to get this off my chest as I do not like to talk about my relationship dents to many people, because I love my husband.
I'm clinging to the 1% chance that I am pregnant.
awwwwww honey i am right there with you...please know we all understand your emotions and feelings!!! it is perfectly natural for all of this to happen. just wait for the call and you will know soon and then you can move on!! believe i was right there with you 2 days ago. and i'm such a better person today. one of my cousin's had a baby girl last night and i just cried. i am sooo happy for them but just cried and my hubby got mad at me for that. saying i'm jealous and to get over this and we have to move on. i know it was wrong of me to do that but it was also natural. i saw the baby's pics this morning and she is absolutely perfect and i am so very happy for them. i know it's human and woman nature to feel all that we are feeling. just give it some time and everything will be ok!!
I don't want you to feel like it's wrong to cry. Only God knows how much you've been working towards having a pregnancy of your own and sometimes our emotions do get the best of us. So know, that I completely understand you crying. I just found out on Tuesday night that my cousin and his wife who have been married for only 2 months announced on Saturday that they are 4weeks pregnant. I was shopping with my mom when she 'accidently' let it slip to me. It all about ruined the entire night for me. Although I'm so happy for them, I just couldn't help but get angry at the fact that it happened to fast for them and look at me... five years and still nothing. It's like a self-pity party that I like to think is normal so... HUGS BIG HUGS TO YOU AND BMA AND EVERYONE ELSE ON HERE
Agreed it is perfectly natural for all of us to feel like that!!! We will have our bundle of joys in our arms sooon!!!!