Jessie's Journey

[jessieles]

I found this lovely website yesterday with infertility pieces of jewellery. Im quite sentimental (my house is full of cushions and things with quotes on) and they had gorgeous things. If you go on etsy.com and type in infertility jewellery, thers a business called soul cyster creations. A lady who has suffered from PCOS and 5 miscarriages makes the pieces. I treated myself to a little necklace with a pale blue pearl and a pale pink pearl and a coin with a dandelion blowing in the wind and it says "wishing for you" I thort it was lush!
There was also a gorgeous one saying "already in my heart, someday on my arms"

worth a look!

 

[TinyLynne]

Wow! That is so beautiful! I will definitely check it out Jess! Thanks for letting us know about it.

 

[Teeny Weeny]

Good morning Jessie.
Just checking in to see how you are doing? X

 

[jessieles]

Heya hun!

Howa are you?

Im ok, first cycle without clomid now, im praying this will have kick started ovulation and im still in with a chance. i had o kinda pains on sunday and we bd on Friday and Sunday. So who knows! Im not putting pressure on bding on certain days anymore. I did hear clomids side effect was no cm, so im hoping this month may be my month!

Whats going on with you? xx

 

[Teeny Weeny]

Well, I took my last Clomid in August and it didn't work. Apparently, I am only 3 dpo at CD39. This is later ovulation than without Clomid so it really has messed up my body this time. I'm unsure why but hopefully the FS next week can shed some light on it.
I am feeling pretty fed up but at least I know my cycle will be coming to an end in the next 2 weeks. I've been in limbo so now I have ovulation hopefully confirmed I can relax. Luckily DH and I DTD all month long so hopefully we didn't completely miss the chance.

If you are 2dpo then we are close in cycle. I really hope this month is it for both of us.
Have you had surgery scheduled yet? Xx

 

[jessieles]

Fingers crossed we will both get our bfps this month!! I am feeling fed up too, i hate this ttc journey! Still havent had a surgery date! Doing my head in!

 

[jessieles]

So Im really struggling this week!

Its hit me that its October, I would be giving birth this month had I not miscarried. And yet im not even pregnant again! Ive finished clomid, im back to square 1 and I still dont have that bfp. I cant get over it.

Im still waiting for a date for the lap and dye but no one can give me one yet. I cant believe that Ive now lasted 25 months with this constant heartache, ive watched every1 around me get pregnant, give birth and some get pregnant again and Im still waiting! I feel like im in a constant state of grief.

I spent the weekend with another 3 day migraine and constant hunger, which has happend the majority of this month, so I stupidly took a test...obvious bfn as im only cd22. Plus we only bd on cd7,13 and 15 so itd be a bloody miracle!

 

[Babylove100]

Hey Jessie, I know exactly how your feeling, I've really been struggling lately too. I was so sure we'd both have our bfps but instead it seems everyone around me is falling pregnant. It's very hard at time. Always here if you need a chat/rant.xx

 

[jessieles]

Its hard isnt it hun, when we were both going through it all back in March, i felt really optimistic that wed be pregnant again real quick, i cant believe nothing has happened!

 

[Babylove100]

I know, it's a little bit soul destroying. As difficult as it is you have to stay positive, it will happen!xxx

 

[mirandaprice]

Big big

I hope they get you a date soon for the lap and dye, and have some answers for you!

 

[jessieles]

Thanks girls, gonna be kind to myself tonight, dh is out so i intend to go home have a lovely bath, get my pjs on n cuddle on down!

 

[Babylove100]

Sounds like a great idea. Relax and enjoy.x

 

[Teeny Weeny]

I'm with you here Jessie and Babylove. Six months since the miscarriage and nothing. No chance of a BFP before my due date would have been and so feeling very sorry for myself!
I would chase them up for a surgery date honey. FX'd it soon. Xx

 

[fairyy]

Hugs hunni.

But don't get discouraged about your chance this cycle. I know a lady from bnb got pregnant only having sex once that month. She had a miscarriage few months back, so was depressed and not actually paying much attention to bd.

Approaching would be due date is hard. I feel the pain sweetie. I hope you get a date for lap and dye soon. But don't drag yourself into being depressed. We all are with you

 

[jessieles]

 

[jessieles]

Well the last month i was on clomid and hat my progesterone checked it was 127, meaning i produced multiple eggs. I went for bloods yesterday to see if i ovulate without clomid and it was 40 (over 30 means ovulation has occured) so although its not multiple at least ive produced an egg this mont, god i hope that 1 swimmer from cd13 or 15 has done the job! what i would give!!

 

[Babylove100]

Got everything tightly crossed for you Jessie!!!

 

[mirandaprice]

Keeping everything crossed for you Jessie!

 

[Teeny Weeny]

Fingers crossed Jessie. That is fab you ovulated on your own honey.
I am praying those little swimmers hit there. Xx