shellie: I'm addicted to my mom's kindle. I need one! So handy!
Guys thanks for your kind words. I did do a bunch of googling and I have to say I'm pretty angry right about now. If they went even by my O date I would have been 5w6d yesterday. I don't know what they were expecting to see. I don't know if they saw something abnormal because no one says anything! I'm upset!
I feel like it's really cruel to say at that point that the pregnancy likely isn't going to make it especially for someone who has gone through a lot to even get pregnant and to someone who just had a devastating loss. If there is a concrete valid reason why this pregnancy won't make it please do tell me, but to say it's because my beta is lower than they like to see at this point (but still within normal limits by the way) and because they couldn't see a heartbeat which they shouldn't expect to see.... I'm mad. Not to mention she was already bringing up "needing" a d&c possibly which would be discussed next week. They act like I have no say in that decision! GRRRR!
Okay I think I'm finished venting. I will be seeing a Dr. next week not my midwife and I have seen this doc before and did not like her. She acted like my PTLS was all in my head and tried to talk me out of having the TR done because "it won't help the problem and it's a very involved, lengthy procedure that is very expensive and you have to stay in the hospital for days. There isn't a good chance of conceiving afterwards either and you could have problems with ectopic pregnancy" The TR actually did resolve my symptoms, it was relatively inexpensive, short, and I went home the next day. My doc had a very good pregnancy success rate as well. I'm just angry at everything right now. Sorry for the giant rant.
Anyway, I've decided to treat this like I was never seen by anyone, and I am just blissfully happy to be pregnant. If I find out in a week that nothing has changed and there is still no definitive baby in the sac I'll reevaluate then. For now though I'm just happy and pregnant.
Adanma