lap and dye this Friday (19th)

[wishinforbub]

symps kind of gone now. The spotting stopped, there is no cm whatsoever but a few tiny niggles still near ovaries. Just really wishing it is this month. Feeling quite tired with it all right now

Oh honey, I really hope it is for you too. I know exactly how you're feeling, being quite tired of it all. I know about the syms on again/off again thing too - BBs sore one minute/not the next, a couple of little cramp feeling near ovaries, who knows?! Almost at the end of my 2WW, so I guess I'll know soon enough...you?

 

[laustiredttc]

hey hun yeah i know i just wish my body would give me some clear signals once in a while

I dont feel any different to other months so have a feeling i'm already out. I think sometimes women just have a feeling if they are and i just have a feeling i'm not. Im due next sunday so prob will test either thurs or fri. I have the fs on thurs to speak about the op results so hoping she gives me some good news.

when are you going to test wish?

hearmyprayers, do you have your fs app on the 26th? you will have to let us know how it goes hun

 

[HearMyPrayers]

Hey ladies! I'm on cd4 here we go again! I think instead of temping I'm just gonna use a ovulation monitor? Not sure who knows what to do anymore!

I hope this is it for the both of you ladies I really do! Please keep us updated!

My follow up with my FS is tomorrow I'm so anxious and nervous and I have no idea why lol. But I will update as soon as I can!

 

[laustiredttc]

eeek, thats great hun i hope you get some really good news. Mine is on thurs and i know what you mean about being nervous. Let us know how you get on huni, sending lots of pos vibes your way

 

[HearMyPrayers]

A small rant - I have a cousin she is 4 days younger than me we were extremely close growing up and into adult hood. Last year I got married to my husband in November, my cousin was set to marry her fiance in October 2012 in Panama. After my husband and I got married we started really trying, plus we lived with my mother and her husband for a few months to get on our feet. My husband and I knew we both couldn't afford the trip ($1300/person) for the trip to attend my cousin's wedding, I was heartbroken to tell her we wouldn't be able to make it, I told her and naturally she was really angry with me, my husband even tried to talk to her and say we would come up with a way to send at least me to the wedding, she told him to stay out of it, it was none of his business and so fourth. She stopped talking to me immediately after that, and we haven't spoken since. Time went by and in March 2012 I started my treatments and testing at the Fertility Clinic, I guess my sister told my cousin what I was doing and what not, so naturally my cousin started trying to get pregnant at the same time, and she never wanted to get pregnant until after she was married, she had a big plan for everything and was very stuck on her plan. Well I just found out she is 15 weeks pregnant. Got pregnant in August. She is so competive and I can't help but think as soon as she heard I was really really trying to just had to one up me! She has always been so competitive with me its nuts! Even getting married she was pissed it was me first and not her.....UGH! I had my dysfunctional body!

 

[laustiredttc]

oh hear, huni i totally understand. My brothers girl done the same to me. She even asked my mum if i was pg last xmas< I knew she wanted to before me, she is a bit stalkerish if im honest. My bro and her where even on a break and he didnt want children as he was still in college and still living with my parents, (stupid bitc*) anyway i think they do it because they are petty and jelous hun. Dont let her get to you. You will have your moment and it will be more precious because you actually wanted it more. Stay strong huni and i just say vent in here as much as you want to get it off your chest. How did your app go hun?

 

[wishinforbub]

oh hun, I hear your rant. It's so not fair, and it just feels like everyone around you has no problem getting pregnant when you're so desperate and just want so much. Where we live, it feels like everyone but us got issued with a pram and a baby when they got off the train.

I hope the follow-up goes well for you hear and lau. Let us know what they say, please...

Lau, I'm due anywhere between today and Wednesday. I thought AF had come to pay a visit on the train on the way home, but not yet. I'm starting to feel some cramps, so I'm trying not to get my hopes up. My BBs are SO tender at the moment though, I don't remember them ever being quite so painful before....

So if nothing starts overnight or tomorrow I'll do a test Wednesday morning. I'll let you all know x

 

[laustiredttc]

oooh good luck hun. I'm going to test wed as well, that would make me 10dpo. I dont have any cm at all but b, symps sound very very good, i hope she stays away. im having cramping in lower stomach in the middle and major hot flashes to the point where my back was covered in sweat, sorry tmi. Also everynow and again i get little shooting pains through either boob. I'm just hoping its a good sign fx

 

[wishinforbub]

Oh it sounds good lau, my fingers and toes are crossed for you x

 

[laustiredttc]

me too as well hun but for you

 

[HearMyPrayers]

Hey ladies. I had my appt today. Both tubes are open and he started me on 100mg of clomid, I started today cd5 till cd9 with cycle monitoring. Excited! I hope this works this time!

 

[laustiredttc]

oh hear thats fantastic news hun, keeping fx really tight for you hun

i am def out this month. i know im only 9dpo but i just know. i have zero cm, cp is low and just have gut feeling its not this month i dont know why i set myself up for hope, this just feels horrible

 

[HearMyPrayers]

Lau I'm sorry! But try and stay optimistic! I too was a mess when AF arrived I felt like throwing in the towel but lets have some patience with our bodies! We expect a lot from ourselves every month so lets not push so hard and besides sweetie its your first real attempt since the lap/dye so give it a little bit believe me I have a feeling this is gonig to happen for us all! Stay STRONG girl! Please keep me informed on your follow up too!

I started 100mg of clomid last night....woke up this morning feeling so sick to my stomach I do not miss clomid at ALL! I was on 50mg before and I reacted to that pretty fast all the side effects I had! lol I can imagine what 100mg is gonna do to me!

 

[laustiredttc]

thank you so much hun and your right, we do expect alot. I guess i just had this idea in my mind that the op was going to solve everything. I am going to try and be patient and just believe that it will happen when it happens.

Hear, i have never tried clomid before but have heard that it can have some nasty side effects, hopefully you wont be on it long and you will get your soon fx. In the mean time its nice to know that we all have each other for support here

Ughhh, i have been having horrible diarrhea for the past two days, sorry tmi, every time i eat i have to run to the loo, not pleasant i can asure you

I am looking forward to the app on thurs, i just dont know what she is going to say, what with me only having one tube etc.... Hopefully something good fx. Will def let you girls know though

 

[HearMyPrayers]

thank you so much hun and your right, we do expect alot. I guess i just had this idea in my mind that the op was going to solve everything. I am going to try and be patient and just believe that it will happen when it happens.

Hear, i have never tried clomid before but have heard that it can have some nasty side effects, hopefully you wont be on it long and you will get your soon fx. In the mean time its nice to know that we all have each other for support here

Ughhh, i have been having horrible diarrhea for the past two days, sorry tmi, every time i eat i have to run to the loo, not pleasant i can asure you

I am looking forward to the app on thurs, i just dont know what she is going to say, what with me only having one tube etc.... Hopefully something good fx. Will def let you girls know though

Oh I'm sure she will most likely recommend Clomid! Lets hope!!fx!!

 

[wishinforbub]

Hey girls, sounds like its not the month for any of us. AF came along with a vengeance last night, the most excruciating cramps I've ever had. Sitting alone in the office at work now and about to burst into tears. Just so tired of it all and feeling very deflated &#128531;

 

[laustiredttc]

oh wish im so so sorry huni. I think i will be seeing the soon enough myself. Done a test this morning and whilst there is a line im afraid its very much an evap line I know its an avap because i have tested with internet cheapies before and got the same result, plus its grey. Oh well just hoping she hurries up and shows now so can move onto next cycle.

Got fs app tomorrow so will see what she says?

 

[HearMyPrayers]

I'm sorry wish

But like I told Lau HANG IN THERE! we have to give our bodies some time! Maybe we put too much pressure on ourselves and thats what really makes us get down when AF arrives, lets be nicer to ourselves! I know its tough and that towel seems easy to throw in but just be patient, be strong, have faith and love yourself regardless! Its Christmas! Lets celebrate the season and be happy and gracious for what we do have and what we will have one day!

I thank goodness everyday for the internet and this board because here I feel like I'm home when it comes to infertility and all that accompanies it! You ladies rock lets keep on pushing forward!

 

[laustiredttc]

hear, thanks hun for the pos vibes

not feeling so hot atm though, have had diarrhea now for three days will have to go docs by monday if not gone.

 

[curlygurl]

Hey Ladies! Sorry I have been MIA. Just found out my sister in law is pregnant...(not married just met the guy only 4 or 5 months ago) she knows all about our situation so its been VERY hard. Not to mention she is doing a fast wedding in January and has asked me to be maid of honor! I am hoping that focusing on this will help me not think about the fact that it is SO not fair that she is pregnant and I am not. (Sorry crazy infertility rant)...At the moment I am waiting to ovulate, and I feel even more pressure to get pregnant, because I don't know how I can plan her baby shower in a few months as we approach the 2 year mark! UGGGG. Ok sorry had to let that out.

HearMyPrayers - So glad to hear your appointment well. I did clomid 150? I think, I can't remember right now. The biggest complaint I have was the hot flashes - crazy one minute I was normal, and the next it felt like my body was on fire. I hope it goes better for you, but who knows maybe having the symptoms means it is working REALLY good. I am keeping good thoughts for you.

Lau -Awe I am so sorry you feel AF coming on. I agree with Hear, try to go easy on yourself. I know it is so hard. But we have been doing everything we can physically do, and after that it is a miracle, and I KNOW it will happen for all of us soon. Good luck with your appointment I hope it goes great and you get some good answers.

Wishin- I am sorry AF is here, and it sounds terrible. Was this your first AF after the lap? My first AF after the lap was crazy, very painful and very heavy. I hope you feel better soon and can get back to trying very soon.