As some of you know Chris was discharged medically from the Army after he was attacked when he was on a home visit fora few weeks. Well I guess I should say the good news is is that his physio has stated that he can return to the military next year, possibly after another 6 months... he is over the moon ... and then I got this bombshell. So is my brother. My brother feels as though his life isn't being fullfilled enough and wants to reach his potential by joining Chris in the Royal Marines and starting his training in January. ... I guess I should cherish this Christmas? I'm loosing both of the men in my life. I am so very proud of them both, but I can't bare the thought of loosing them both!!! My dad isn't around. And I am seriously considering on moving back in with my mum when Chris and Adam go on training. Just because we'll both be alone. Feeling a bit numb.