Literati_Love
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Well, my ultrasound went okay from an outsider's perspective. There was a heartbeat, and we later found out from my dr's report that the baby was measuring exactly 9 weeks 5 days (which matches my dates exactly). However, the u/s didn't really go well personally. I found myself extremely emotionally disconnected. Dh and I were both very surprised when we were informed there was a heartbeat. I felt relieved, but wasn't able to feel happy at all. She only showed me the baby for about 30 seconds (which made me mad) but I honestly didn't feel any emotions or anything from it. I cleaned up and went to use the washroom and ended up discovering a tiny bit of pink spotting. That was it for any sense of relief I felt. From the moment we got in the car, I started bawling. I cried and panicked all morning, then stayed home from work in the afternoon and slept. It was an absolutely devastating day for me. The positive news is that I haven't had any more spotting since, and the fact that there's a strong heartbeat and baby is measuring perfectly is a good sign. I've since also reassured myself that there is only about a 2% chance of something going wrong after seeing the heartbeat this far along. But I'm still absolutely terrified, and I feel completely robbed of any joy this pregnancy.
My mom is nagging at me to tell my dad and sister this weekend. We were going to tell if I had a good scan...which I suppose I did, but after the spotting all I feel is dread. I'm not sure if we'll tell them or not, but if we do I probably won't be happy about it.
Well, I'm actually hating being back at work. I wish I could take another holiday. Right now I'm dreaming of my next long weekend, which is in February. I am glad work hasn't been too terrible for you so far. I hope you find that it improves somewhat.
I think your cycles sound pretty normal to me. My cycles are never consistently the same number of days, and yours are within the normal range for a cycle. I wouldn't worry about it!
My mom is nagging at me to tell my dad and sister this weekend. We were going to tell if I had a good scan...which I suppose I did, but after the spotting all I feel is dread. I'm not sure if we'll tell them or not, but if we do I probably won't be happy about it.
Well, I'm actually hating being back at work. I wish I could take another holiday. Right now I'm dreaming of my next long weekend, which is in February. I am glad work hasn't been too terrible for you so far. I hope you find that it improves somewhat.
I think your cycles sound pretty normal to me. My cycles are never consistently the same number of days, and yours are within the normal range for a cycle. I wouldn't worry about it!