Hi ladies
Hopefully its ok that Im posting this. I know I havent been on in a while, I had a little bit of a TTC meltdown you can say. Back in October when it got to my angels EDD, I found it soooooooooooooooo hard to come on here and see everyone with their BFPs while I still had nothing but BFNs. Didnt help OH and I had a HUGE argument on that day about it all, and so I distanced myself from the TTC world, online anyway. I always wanted to come back, see how everyone was doing, whos had their babies, whos gotten a BFP since, but felt like maybe no one would want me to since I just went poof. I decided to come on the forum without signing in yesterday and couldnt believe I was mentioned and that you guys still remembered me. And now I feel really horrible as I can now see some of you left me msgs (didnt have it set to email me when someone msgs me privately). Ive never forgotten about you ladies, and Im sorry I freaked!
Its been just over a year since the m/c and I think Ive finally gone through my grieving process. Were still TTC, OH is more on board now than he ever was before. Our friends who have been TTC for 9 years finally are pregnant and into their 2nd trimester now and it really has affected OH deeply and made him want to TTC even more. He got a new full-time job about 2 months ago and his hours make BDing more often much easier. I think weve BDd more this cycle then we have in several cycles at some points in this TTC journey.
Again Im sorry ladies that I disappeared. I dont want anyone to think I didnt care anymore.