May testers

[asibling4gi04]

thanks kezz feel better soon!!

 

[Mrs_C_Taylor]

well small update was up at hospital last night kept in for fluids scan today as they thought there was a problem but ll ok seen my baby and my new due date is 24th jan

 

[asibling4gi04]

CONGRATS MS C!

frustrating news..have to keep my scan date of June 15th..the new place wants too much money down for a new patient..than expects me to get reimbursed through insurance..ugh..I hate THE MED BILLING SYSTEM HERE!

 

[Mrs_C_Taylor]

just to let u all know we lost our baby x

 

[BearsMummy]

Aww Mrs_C_Taylor I'm so sorry,

my thoughts are with you

:hugs

 

[Tasha16]

so sorry hun x x

 

[asibling4gi04]

mrs. c taylor and oh, my condolences! Peace be with you at this time!

 

[Kimbre]

i am so sorry.

 

[asibling4gi04]

My update: went to hospital Saturday! They wouldnt scan through the emergency room but they checked my cervix and it is closed. The did a HCG test and it went up to 35000 (it was 25800 last week Sunday)..So idk? Is this normal? My cervix is closed so thats good.. My scan is in 2 days.. : ( My OH left me..packed and moved..I am better off either way though it hurts!

 

[nunu123]

condolensec mrs.c taylor. ii am so sorry. God be with you.

 

[Kimbre]

asibling... i am so sorry about you OH... what happened hun? that sounds good about your cervix. they told me that when i thought i was having a MC as well and i carried her to term=) good luck=)

 

[asibling4gi04]

Thanks Kimbre..any more testing? I had enough verbal abuse and blaming it on her being bipolar..SIGH.. Just dont know what to do ..So scared and lonely Kimbre..I feel like I am grieving constantly between OH and the beanie..

 

[Kimbre]

oh hun... i am so sorry things will get better. i know how you feel. lol my DH has bi polar i think. his mother and his sister do anyway. and he acts like that alot.
so i know how you feel... i hope that everything gets better dear. i am sure that you feel so alone. did you OH know about everything thats going on?? that really sucks.

 

[asibling4gi04]

OH knows and is heartless..really bold and offensive..dealt with it long enough!

 

[Kimbre]

ugh i am so sorry=(

 

[Tasha16]

OH knows and is heartless..really bold and offensive..dealt with it long enough!

so sorry hun i hope everything is ok with ur baby x

 

[asibling4gi04]

I LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE NOT THERE
I HOLD YOU IN MY HEART FOREVER NEAR
I DREAM OF THINGS THAT WERE SUPPOSED TO BE
I WANT TO WAKE UP AND SEE YOU GROWING IN ME
BUT I KNOW THAT WILL NOT HAPPEN, FATE DEALT THE CARDS
I JUST WISH THAT THE PAIN WOULD STOP TUGGING AT MY HEART
I WILL NEVER FEEL YOUR SOFT SKIN OR ROCK YOU GOODNIGHT
BUT I PRAY FOR FAST SLEEP BECAUSE IN MY DREAMS I AM HOLDING YOU TIGHT!

I love you baby bean, you never developed, you were spared difficulties and health problems..I must think of it that way in order to move on......Love, Momma.

 

[Mrs_C_Taylor]

I LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE NOT THERE
I HOLD YOU IN MY HEART FOREVER NEAR
I DREAM OF THINGS THAT WERE SUPPOSED TO BE
I WANT TO WAKE UP AND SEE YOU GROWING IN ME
BUT I KNOW THAT WILL NOT HAPPEN, FATE DEALT THE CARDS
I JUST WISH THAT THE PAIN WOULD STOP TUGGING AT MY HEART
I WILL NEVER FEEL YOUR SOFT SKIN OR ROCK YOU GOODNIGHT
BUT I PRAY FOR FAST SLEEP BECAUSE IN MY DREAMS I AM HOLDING YOU TIGHT!

I love you baby bean, you never developed, you were spared difficulties and health problems..I must think of it that way in order to move on......Love, Momma.

im so sorry x

 

[asibling4gi04]

Thank you Mrs.C, it means a lot

 

[Mrs_C_Taylor]

lovely poem btw x