MAY we all be blessed with baby! May 2013 and beyond (BFFs Seeking BFPs)

[momwithbabies]

Hopeful: Your post brought me to tears, lol! I admire your strength and wisdom! And you're 100% right!!! I need to focus on the good, be nice to myself, love the people around me. I've been down in the dumps lately, but why am I not living my life? I've focused so much on this baby dream, and I have nothing to show for it except heartache and disappointment. I don't know why I keep doing this to myself! I want to be at peace.

 

[Lazydaisys]

My lining isn't good, the medication is making me nauseous. So sick of ttc but what's the alternative. I'm going to borrow a pinch of positively off you girlies x

 

[ClandestineTX]

My lining sucks, too. Does that affect the plan for your treatment?

 

[Lazydaisys]

They wanted it to be 8 and its 5.5. They did a blood test and said I needed to increase my thyroid tablets. I'm taking estrogen tablets the highest dose for frozen transfers 12mg. Taking asprin daily 75 mg, acupuncture to help blood flow Moxa heat to encourage lining to grow. Hoping so much that it grows. Good luck to you clandestine x

 

[Lazydaisys]

Yeah my treatment will be cancelled if it's not thick enough. X

 

[ClandestineTX]

Mine was a whopping 4.9 WHILE I was pregnant. So I'm doing estradiol/Viagra suppositories pre-O and then progesterone and baby aspirin after O. I just had my thyroid meds upped last week as well, we are hot messes you and I. FX though, especially since yours are harder to schedule with the FET.

 

[Lazydaisys]

I know. I'm off work with nausea and a bit of feeling sorry for myself. Having a strong word with my womb today! X

 

[newbie2013]

Clande and Lazy, I'm praying for both of you!! I haven't been terribly active of late as the other parts of my life have taken over but I regularly read and think about all of you. I look forward to reading your updates and always keep my fingers crossed.

AFM, I have just submitted the final two pieces of assessment for my Master of Education - woohoo!!! I also applied to start my PhD in January... sucker for punishment!!! 6-8 years part time and externally and remotely, with crappy internet!! Good thing my potential supervisor is an awesome lady and super keen to work with me.

I'm sitting somewhere around pre-o days, so have been dtd every second day. Plan to coerce DH today further - tomorrow and the next few days back to back - to "celebrate" the completion of my masters!!! Hahaha

 

[Hopeful2014]

@momwithbabies Thank you. It comes easier on some days. I am trying to live my life as positively as possible. It's something I need right now. It's still massively hard on some days. I understand the heartache and disappointment. I really hope it's all behind us both. I hope we both welcome happiness and enjoyment in our lives. It's not foolish to focus on a dream, but make sure you take care of yourself along the way.

@Lazydaisys I'll send tons of positivity your way. I hope your scan shows an improved lining. I will say that while doing lots of research about low dose aspirin, I have read several things that say taking aspirin in IUI/IVF can help some ladies. It's supposed to help with blood flow, lining, and prevent clotting. Have you been taking it or is this a new part of the treatment?

@ClandestineTX I've got my fingers crossed for you.

@newbie2013 Congrats on submitting the final two pieces! That must feel fantastic!! I applaud you for signing up for your PhD already too. Celebrate away! I'm sending loads of luck and keeping my fingers crossed for you!


AFM Af came on Monday. We could potentially start ttc this cycle. I'm not sure if ovulation will be before the end of the month or in early November. It's been nice thinking about being pregnant again and it's been nice talking to my husband about it. We are both ready. It will be a scary journey. I'm doing everything I can to get ready.

I'm looking forward to more updates from you all.

 

[ClandestineTX]

@newbie: Congrats!!! And I wouldn't wish a PhD on anyone, but I also don't know how they are in your field. Biological science is brutal on one's personal life!

Speaking of... I submitted my dissertation yesterday! Less than two weeks until my defense.

@Lazy: any updates?

AFM: CD 5 today, already back on Femara. So tired today, but I think that's the sleep deprivation to finish the dissertation.

And @Hopeful - I have MY FX for YOU!!!

 

[melann13]

Holy crap Clandestine! That came fast!! I have to defend by Dec. 19th, but I haven't scheduled it yet. Still burning through the PCR to have results for the final chapter!

 

[Lazydaisys]

Thanks girls. Good luck on new cycle hopeful. Like your style newbie with the 'celebrating'

My lining was about 6 today so not much of an increase since Monday. I've only just started taking the asprin this week from the advice of the doctors. My fibroid has increased dramatically due to the eastrogen tablets. Today they gave me some steroids tablets to take. I think it's to try and shrink back the fibroid as its hogging the blood supply. The nurse didn't really explain apart from to help with my lining. She had an unusual accent and I couldn't really tell what she was saying i was also worrying about getting back to work. I read on Google that the drugs are used for cancer patients which is a bit alarming. I also remember some talk that maybe my body was fighting off the embryo and this could stop that happening. It's all so confusing. If I only had a brain!

 

[ClandestineTX]

Holy crap Clandestine! That came fast!! I have to defend by Dec. 19th, but I haven't scheduled it yet. Still burning through the PCR to have results for the final chapter!

I had to schedule mine super early, as my committee is full of frequent fliers. Like NIH review panel member, one with a lot of fall conferences in her field, one who has to fly back in because she relocated out of state, and the last who is our international ambassador for damn near everything. I wish I was enjoying it more... about to drive a hard copy (per request) to a committee member's house an hour away (she asked, I'm bringing it to her, yes I assume she has access to a printer - not the time to make a fuss over something silly). We have to submit the paper to committee a minimum of two weeks before the defense date, so mine was exactly on time. And I have grading for three sections of midterms, a manuscript resubmission due this Thursday, an out of state weekend for a family thing, and then 3 days before the defense. I'm trying to figure out exactly when and how I'm getting my PPT together! (hahaha, so I'm on BnB )

 

[ClandestineTX]

@Lazy, ask them about Viagra! I know it sounds crazy, but if you look it up there's been good success with it for improving lining for IVF. It's more effective at increasing blood flow than aspirin.

 

[Lazydaisys]

Yeah I fancy some Viagra! Ill ask them -thank you x

 

[Hopeful2014]

@ClandestineTX How are preparations coming for your defense?

@melann13 Good luck with your work!

@Lazydaisys I hope you get better news at the next scan.

I hope everyone is well.

 

[Lazydaisys]

Thanks. My lining shrank back to about 5. They said I would need to try the vagara another cycle their main concern is the stupid fibroid that has decided to take up home and steal the blood supply. They increased the steroid dose to try and kill it back. I go back Monday for a make of break scan.

Hoping everything is going well my lovely bnb buddies x

 

[ClandestineTX]

@Lazy: at least you have a plan going forward. Is there a reason they can't just remove the fibroid?


@Hopeful: how are you???


AFM... dissertation is done, haven't actually done anything on my defense yet (still a week out). I had another project due today and grading for the course at teach at a local junior college. Actually traveling this weekend for a family thing. My life is insane. And the E2/Viagra suppositories are super inconvenient this week (4x a day) and I had to double one of my thyroid meds, because the estradiol (E2) was dropping my thyroid hormone levels, but I think I sorted that part out. Being super crazy busy and being insanely tired is like torture. I feel like I deserve for this to work out before our deadline, as it's taken so much work. But I also think we all "deserve" for it to work out. I just need a break from my life, like a sweet vacation somewhere that I don't have time to take! But I haven't quit. Have stuck with the plan for this cycle, just not sure how optimistic I am. Defense is at the end of next week. I will be ready for that (and thankfully on progesterone-oral by then) by the time it rolls around.

 

[melann13]

Best wishes to you Clandestine. My lab work has been a S--t show this week and I actually had to email my dept office and my upcoming job to find out what happens if I'm ABD at the end of the semester. Fortunately things have started to turn around but it's still going to be absolutely nuts to write and prepare to defend a dissertation in the next 6 weeks that I don't have all my data for yet. I don't even know if we'll find anything interesting!
Ugh. I'm sure having submitted the actual dissertation is a bit of a weight off. Congrats!

 

[Lazydaisys]

They said fibroid is stuck in the back walk, it's inoperable. Only way is to shrink in. Stop taking fertility drugs. Blah. X