Congrats River on such a great U/S! I think the way you feel about it FINALLY working out for you is exactly how I would feel if I ever had a BFP stick.
@Hopeful, I still stalk! Just infrequently due to work and not very much time for replies. I am SO glad to hear about your follow-up. It sounds like your doctor knows exactly what he's doing and I believe you are in stellar hands. I so have my FX for you!
The thing with soy... it mimics estrogen. Estrogen should peak just before ovulation (like 1-3 days pre-O, see chart here: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Estrogen#mediaviewer/File:Estradiol_during_menstrual_cycle.png). Estrogens also inhibit FSH synthesis and release (which should peak CD 2-4), so taking it like Clomid/Femara would likely delay ovulation in most women. If one takes it, I would think it would be better to take it so it falls on the days you'd naturally expect it to be higher before ovulation. Just my guess, though, remembering that I'm almost not that kind of doctor, researcher not a clinician.
So far, negatives. about 12 dpo.
Looks like we're not getting our miracle this month. First RE appointment is scheduled for Wednesday. We were hoping to be able to cancel the appointment due to a positive, but it looks like that's not going to be the case. :-/ I don't know why I keep holding out for miracles like this...if this RE can't help us get pregnant by the end of the year, I am thinking of giving up.
Your RE report sounds so good. I am an atheist, but still understand the ethical issues surrounding IVF. I'm not sure I even want to see an RE for testing (and remember, I'm a research scientist), because I never wanted trying to have a baby to be like someone's science project. It feels foreign to me, even though it should feel familiar - which is just weird. I've decided that there's no right or wrong way to feel about TTC/ STC. Whether or not someone is willing to subject themselves to any interventions (if at all) really is one of the most personal thing ever. I hope something you are willing to try works for you, I really do.
I'm so sorry, ProfWife. It sucks to do everything possible and still nothing. I've had the same type of feelings about birth control, being that I was on it and wasn't supposed to be because I'm Catholic. I still feel guilty about it and wish I would have had the courage to just let things be. I'm not judging anyone here that has used birth control, but part of me feels like I'm being punished for using it. I know that's the wrong attitude to have, but I see where you're coming from on that. Those thoughts come to me when I'm at my lowest. I hope you cheer up soon and God gets you through this. I'm with you on the IVF thing as well. Plus, I don't think I could afford it anyway. This fertility issue stuff is expensive!!! I'm 31 and hear my clock ticking as well. Time goes by so fast.
Again with the ethics being universal. I also blame myself for BC and feel like my choices are responsible for my current hormone imbalances that seem to be responsible for my body's failings. It's exactly the way that you two feel - just not about God for me - just about this must be my fault, some how. I think it's completely normal, while at the same time, completely unfair that anyone should ever feel bad about trying to be responsible. More
Mummy2o...could you please explain how exactly a woman who has been yearning for a baby "stops" mentally TTC? That's just like telling me "just relax and it will happen." Sadly, there is no "off" button for wanting a child. There is no way to really ignore when your fertile days hit once you know what they are and the signs. I know you mean well, but there is no way to shut that off when you have been struggling to conceive for almost 2 years. Even if I "gave up"... I think I'd always still try until I hit menopause.
^^^Amen to this!
AFM... CD 1 of cycle 21. And third cycle with 5 mg Femara and 100 mg of Progesterone after ovulation. I am desperately trying to sign on for my doctor's optimism that this is a "when" and not an "if." She was really ecstatic about the two faint BFPs I had the 2 cycles prior to this last one (which just seemed like a dud from the beginning, can't really explain it). I'm just so horribly pessimistic at this point, it just seems like I've been doing this forever with no real success. Trying to remind myself that even <24 hours, a BFP is still a sign that it is possible. Trying to treat each cycle as if it could really be the one and at the same time, keeping busy with my day job.
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to you all!
) If that's the result of the appointment at 11, then we will probably postpone of ANOTHER cycle. If that's the case, let's home for another short cycle.
