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kksy9b, I hear you with the flashing neon light! Wouldn't it be good!?!?! I hope the temp drop isn't indicative of af coming. How was your temp this morning?
I have to vent for a moment, sorry - We had such a long day yesterday and came home late, exhausted. I prepared a quick snack for us, and cleaned up afterwards. DH then asked if I would cut up some watermelon (just come into season and his favourite). I responded with "No, I'm not going to cut up watermelon tonight, I'll do it tomorrow morning". A little snarky but it was 11:30pm, I'd just made and cleaned up after our snack with zero help from him and I was exhausted. He wasn't happy with my response and told me "You're so sti...". He didn't finish the word, but I finished it for him "stiff" and I was deflated. Totally. I know I'm not as much fun these days as I used to be - hardly surprising since I've been working full time and studying for the last 4.5 years. And we have had an incredibly stressful year between dh's mental health issues and our infertility issues. It has been awful. It is little wonder I'm tired and stressed - and no fun. He didn't take into account that HE'S no fun either. Didn't take into account that I've been on edge for the last year, wondering if he's going to be mentally stable or not. Didn't take into account that the infertility issues have been incredibly stressful, especially now. He stubbornly cut his own watermelon (which I don't usually let him do because the knife is so sharp and the way his hands shake it could be dangerous). Anyway, I went to bed upset and didn't sleep well at all. I got up a couple of hours before he did and had very little interaction until about 11 this morning when I lay down on the bed for a rest and he came to check on me. He tried to "have some fun", as he put it (which is all one sided given i've just had a fet) and I wasn't into it at all. I am still hurt that he so bluntly pointed out the truth and didn't apologise for it. I cracked it. I broke down completely but still managed to express my intense disappointment in the way he spoke to me. He tried to tell me that he was apologising when he came to bed and was kissing me and that made me even worse! I told him that the way he should apologise is by saying "I'm sorry, it came out wrong and I didn't mean it that way". He kind of understood and did apologise. I then got even more upset when I told him that I acknowledged that what he was saying was true, but it hurt a lot to have it pointed out so bluntly without his acknowledging that he's no fun either! We came to an uneasy truce and he agreed that he hadn't been full of joy either and this whole year was stressful. He managed to convince me to get out of the house and to a cafe where I'm supposed to be doing some writing on my lit review, but instead I'm venting to you guys. Monday can't come soon enough. I just want to know if this fet has worked or not so that we can move on to the next phase - whatever that it. Oh, and in the midst of this, my mil called - she wants to come to stay for a few days because the weather is going to hit 41 degrees Celsius and our apartment is MUCH cooler than hers
I really would prefer she didn't, but DH wouldn't say no to her. If this fet does work, then our celebrations will be dampened considerably and if it doesn't, I'll have to hold in my emotions until she goes home... darn it.
I have to vent for a moment, sorry - We had such a long day yesterday and came home late, exhausted. I prepared a quick snack for us, and cleaned up afterwards. DH then asked if I would cut up some watermelon (just come into season and his favourite). I responded with "No, I'm not going to cut up watermelon tonight, I'll do it tomorrow morning". A little snarky but it was 11:30pm, I'd just made and cleaned up after our snack with zero help from him and I was exhausted. He wasn't happy with my response and told me "You're so sti...". He didn't finish the word, but I finished it for him "stiff" and I was deflated. Totally. I know I'm not as much fun these days as I used to be - hardly surprising since I've been working full time and studying for the last 4.5 years. And we have had an incredibly stressful year between dh's mental health issues and our infertility issues. It has been awful. It is little wonder I'm tired and stressed - and no fun. He didn't take into account that HE'S no fun either. Didn't take into account that I've been on edge for the last year, wondering if he's going to be mentally stable or not. Didn't take into account that the infertility issues have been incredibly stressful, especially now. He stubbornly cut his own watermelon (which I don't usually let him do because the knife is so sharp and the way his hands shake it could be dangerous). Anyway, I went to bed upset and didn't sleep well at all. I got up a couple of hours before he did and had very little interaction until about 11 this morning when I lay down on the bed for a rest and he came to check on me. He tried to "have some fun", as he put it (which is all one sided given i've just had a fet) and I wasn't into it at all. I am still hurt that he so bluntly pointed out the truth and didn't apologise for it. I cracked it. I broke down completely but still managed to express my intense disappointment in the way he spoke to me. He tried to tell me that he was apologising when he came to bed and was kissing me and that made me even worse! I told him that the way he should apologise is by saying "I'm sorry, it came out wrong and I didn't mean it that way". He kind of understood and did apologise. I then got even more upset when I told him that I acknowledged that what he was saying was true, but it hurt a lot to have it pointed out so bluntly without his acknowledging that he's no fun either! We came to an uneasy truce and he agreed that he hadn't been full of joy either and this whole year was stressful. He managed to convince me to get out of the house and to a cafe where I'm supposed to be doing some writing on my lit review, but instead I'm venting to you guys. Monday can't come soon enough. I just want to know if this fet has worked or not so that we can move on to the next phase - whatever that it. Oh, and in the midst of this, my mil called - she wants to come to stay for a few days because the weather is going to hit 41 degrees Celsius and our apartment is MUCH cooler than hers
I really would prefer she didn't, but DH wouldn't say no to her. If this fet does work, then our celebrations will be dampened considerably and if it doesn't, I'll have to hold in my emotions until she goes home... darn it.
Hope this sticks for you! 
All over the place!
