Thank You Sarah for starting this! It's sooooooo nice to hear from other people who have experienced the same thing!!!
[/INDENT]After 5 months of TTC my husband and I finally found out that we were expecting our second child. I was HELL BENT on having our children 2 years part. Seeing how my due date was February 21, 2011, 4 days after my daughters birthday (and 8 after my birthday) I was well beyond thrilled!!! I had been planning on this particular due date for over a year. Lol I'm a little OCD like that.
[/INDENT]Anyways, I noticed that the morning sickness this time around was WAYYY worse, even very in the very being! I had heard that morning sickness is usually worse when you're expecting twins, and I was hoping AND praying that I was pregnant with twins. I've always wanted twins since I was little, especially after I found out that I was a twin, but my mother had miscarried my twin about 7 week into her pregnancy.
[/INDENT]So I went in for my first appointment I was sure that I was 9 weeks, however, the ultrasound calculated that I was only 7 and a half weeks... with only one baby. I was irritated because the due date wasn't what I hoped, but thrilled that the baby looked good!
[/INDENT]I was constantly worrying about having a miscarriage, but once I had heard my babys heartbeat, and hit the 12 week mark I finally relaxed and we celebrated by taking a trip.
[/INDENT]On our way home from our weekend vacation on August 29th, my sever nausea turned into extreme nausea and vomiting. I mentioned this my doctor along with the fact that I had been having cramps, she told me that as long as I was not bleeding I was fine and to double the medicine that she had previously prescribed me for nausea, which wasn't working in the slightest.
[/INDENT]On top of the TERRIBLE morning sickness I also started noticing that I often felt out of breath, I was experiencing frequent heart flutters, my heart seemed to be racing all the time, and I just felt very sickly, nothing like my previous pregnancy. I was referred to a cardiologist, after some testing it was discovered that my pulse would get in the mid 170's when I was resting (I found out much later that it was due to my thyroid being overactive, which was caused by the partial molar preg).
[/INDENT]At my "16 week" check up on September 20, 2010 the doctor was having a hard time finding the baby's hear beat, but explained that that wasn't uncommon. She sent us next door for an ultra sound just to double check. Since I was measuring right, and I could have sworn that I had felt the baby move I thought everything was ok. The doctor didnt seem concerned, so I wasnt either. My husband and I along with our 19 month old eagerly raced down the hall to the ultra sound room. Eger not because we were worried, but because we were going to find out if we were having a boy or a girl. I was also eager to see if there was a second baby in there they had missed the first time around (foolish of me...). The technician said that "this didnt like a 16 1/2 week baby, that the baby was only measuring 12 1/2 weeks, and no longer had a heart beat." When my daughter saw the baby on the screen she explained BABY!!!" with a smile. (Tear)
The thought that my babys death had gone unnoticed for supposedly a month added to the devastation, and angered me! They speculated the baby probably died the weekend of our vacation...
[/INDENT]On September 22, 2010 at 10:30am they began inducing me. I labored, and my baby arrived later that day at 6:05pm. We got to hold our precious baby and cry over him/her (we chose not to find out the sex of our baby). It was ABSOLUTYLY AMAZING to see how small, yet developed our baby was. Everything was there; his eyes, tongue, ribs, even his itsy bitsy toes...
[/INDENT]My husband I were super eager to start TTC again so a little less than two weeks after I delivered our baby we started trying again
... A couple days later the nurse from the doctors office called, and over the phone she tried to explain to me the results of the test that were done to the baby, and what had happed and what that meant for the future. All I heard was ..."you should have had twins but...." "...you cannot TTC for a year..." "Its possible that you could get cancer..."
[/INDENT]Almost 13 weeks after I found out by baby had died, and 11 weekly bleed tests later, I have finally had my third negative blood test in a row. I will now go in monthly for the next three months, and if all is well we can supposedly start TTC the end of March.
[/INDENT]Though waiting to TTC seem like HELLL!!! What's worse than that is, my baby's due date approaching. Every day I feel more and more anxiety. The day I had been looking forward to for over a year I'm now DREADING!!! The question I have for you ladies is... What did you guys do, if anything on your babies due date?
P.S. I'm really sorry for writing sooo much. I guess I just started venting... There are not many people that know what I'm going through.