One Blighted Ovum - One Missed Miscarriage

[Nicnac]

I hope so too. Have to wait until the PCT get back to me. I have made initial queries with them but so far nothing, yet.

Just can't believe I started getting nauseous AFTER the babies had died. Where is the logic and fairness in that? Sod's law, is what it is. Sod's law.

There is no logic to it, and definitely no fairness in this, in any of this. It can be amazingly painful to look around and see the total injustice in this world, and especially the TTC world. I can't imagine how you must feel, hon. Just wish I could do something. I'll keep putting my £'s on the lotto and we'll get you sorted, then send some round to that hospital.

 

[CurlySue]

I'm being such a fecking saddo, Nicnac. I'm reliving my youth by watching bloody Boyzone videos because its the only thing that is making me happy, taking myself back to a time when nothing mattered any more.

 

[toby2]

hope boyzone did the trick, even if only temporarily!
lots of love

 

[CurlySue]

Heh, well, not really, but they did make me cringe. Watched a film called Role Models. Easywatching and ridiculous, but it did make me laugh at times.

Woke up this morning feeling sick and with cramps. Wonder if this is the start of anything...

Sad that if all was working out I would be 9 weeks today

 

[Farie]

Role models made me laugh, total gaff but funny!

 

[CurlySue]

Some of the innuendos were hilarious. Poor Stiffler though. He's never going to move away from those parts is he?

 

[Pippin]

Heh, well, not really, but they did make me cringe. Watched a film called Role Models. Easywatching and ridiculous, but it did make me laugh at times.

Woke up this morning feeling sick and with cramps. Wonder if this is the start of anything...

Sad that if all was working out I would be 9 weeks today

Hey hon cruel how time seems to fly when we just want things to be different and it goes so slowly when we have hope. Do I detect a little hope from the second statement though? I hope having the time off is letting you sort your head out a little bit. Try and plan some nice things to look forward to like a weekend away or a nice dinner out somewhere. Used to help me with all the disappointment as shallow as it seems. xxx

 

[CurlySue]

Heh, well, not really, but they did make me cringe. Watched a film called Role Models. Easywatching and ridiculous, but it did make me laugh at times.

Woke up this morning feeling sick and with cramps. Wonder if this is the start of anything...

Sad that if all was working out I would be 9 weeks today

Hey hon cruel how time seems to fly when we just want things to be different and it goes so slowly when we have hope. Do I detect a little hope from the second statement though? I hope having the time off is letting you sort your head out a little bit. Try and plan some nice things to look forward to like a weekend away or a nice dinner out somewhere. Used to help me with all the disappointment as shallow as it seems. xxx

Ah no, love, I meant 'the start of a miscarriage'. I have no hope. 99.99% certainty of non-viability is pretty conclusive to me. I just want it to be over now to be honest. I think that they've been ridiculous in dragging this out with such bad odds and I know that makes me sound terribly defeatist but I hate doing this to myself. I'd LOVE to think there was some hope but there simply isn't. It's just cruel that it's had to go on this long with no hope.

Just looking forward to my holiday now. I am going to offer all this negativity and all of these dead things and thoughts to Anubis. He's meant to like that.

 

[Pippin]

Ahhh I see, miss read sorry. I hope it does happen naturally for you this week. Totally understand you wanting it to be over. I'm just like you, I like closure, I like to move on quickly. I hate any kind of hanging on in limbo land.

I admit I had to look up Anubis but yes that is a good idea. I'll happily deliver it all to him for you........

Holiday sounds like a very good thing I hope its the tonic you need to forget all this for a while

 

[CurlySue]

One of the day trips we are going on says this: -

West Bank visit
The West Bank of Luxor is known as the city of dead. It is the funerary complex of the ancient Egyptians. Here you have the opportunity to let go of anything that has died and no longer serves you using the power of the god Anubis, jackal headed god of the underworld. Explore the cycles of birth, death and rebirth which are rooted in Ancient Egyptian mythology.

Sounds good to me.

 

[Pippin]

One of the day trips we are going on says this: -

West Bank visit
The West Bank of Luxor is known as the city of dead. It is the funerary complex of the ancient Egyptians. Here you have the opportunity to let go of anything that has died and no longer serves you using the power of the god Anubis, jackal headed god of the underworld. Explore the cycles of birth, death and rebirth which are rooted in Ancient Egyptian mythology.

Sounds good to me.

sounds good to me too.

 

[toby2]

When are you on your hols?
you sound a tiny bit more at peace today which is nice to hear-films and music always good to help you through
xx

 

[Farie]

Some of the innuendos were hilarious. Poor Stiffler though. He's never going to move away from those parts is he?

Nope, forever typecast!
Poor bloke!

 

[toby2]

hey lovely lady, thinking of you for tomorrow-really hope you get the nice lady who is able to put you first, just cant think of anything I can say that is going to make tomorrow any easier but with your d/c pre booked I really hope you get the physical closure you need and deserve
lots and lots of love
xx

 

[Brambletess]

Will also be thinking of you and your OH tomorrow x, big hug and hope you sleep ok tonight.

 

[toby2]

thinking of you(((((()))))))))
x

 

[Nicnac]

Hey hon

Hope you're ok, thinking of you.

Anubis sounds a good idea.

As for Boyzone....my guilty pleasure was NKOTB (New Kids on The Block)...showing my age, but Joey, hmmmmm.

Not long till hols


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[CurlySue]

I was a Jordan fan. I was like seven or eight though so you have to forgive that, Nicnac.

Thanks for the well wishes, girlies. I am in such intense agony right now that I don't even know if I'm going to be able to bite back before I tell them what I think of them.

Don't know if I can go through another day of this pain. It really is unbelievable...

 

[tansey]

Just wanted to let you know i was thinking of you.
I was in really bad pain before I knew I had an empty sac and once they knew that I had to stay in hospital so they could manage the pain - they gave me morphine! I hope you get sorted asap

 

[hopeful4baby]

Dear Curly Sue!!

I just want to say how deeply sorry I am to find out your sad news after returning from my holidays.


And I want to join this huge support group you have here to wish you'll get through everything the least painful as it possible!

And here is to hope that one day it will work out!