Been a crazy few weeks. We moved out of NYC, back to Connecticut. It's an old rental house, creaks, smells, needed cleaning - all the kind of stuff that is exhausting to deal with (except for the creaking). Had to go car hunting, too; that was not exactly fun. And now, I'm just here trying to unpack and find my way around a new place. Today was the worst (at the Department of Motor Vehicles), but it's just too long of a stressful story to bother telling. I will just say, though, I had my first pregnancy breakdown. I made it back to my car before I burst into tears.
So, yeah, things are all just up in the air at the moment. I find it really difficult to work on the dissertation with all my stuff in boxes. I've unpacked a crap-load, but cleaning wears a girl out, so I don't have as much energy for organizing.
Oh, and had to find a new doctor, too. Found a place and nearly walked out - the staff was horrible to a patient (another long story), but I really liked the doctor. I figure I'll be interacting with him during labor, and not any of his staff, right? I just can't be bothered to look around for another person right now. If I weren't new to the area, I would go with a midwife. Part of me still wonders if I am making the right decision by going to an OB/GYN.
Anyway, baby girl is doing well! My GOD is it awful when you need to pee and she kicks at the bladder! I almost peed in a cup on the freeway a few days ago! It was terrible!
Hakuna - now I'm back in CT [waaaay south of you, though], we should try and meet up somewhere in the middle sometime.
Mrsmax - I say let the chips fall where they may. Don't prevent, but don't go out of your way TTC. Enjoy Eva, and if her spirit calls for a brother or sister to join her soon, then so be it.
And yeah, I wonder about the "shocker" effect of a number 2 when the first is so good. I sometimes wonder how baby girl is going to be on the outside because this pregnancy is just so darn good! Will she be a hellcat to make up for it? Is she duping me right now?
I think she just has DH's easy going personality.
MsJMouse - Amelia is a beauty!
Pink80 - you would feel the same about #2! Although I always wonder if parents have a softer spot for their firstborns...cause, well, you know, it's the novelty of the first experience that sticks with you in so many cases. The love would be the same though!
MrsPTTC - I do not think about a #2 at all. Maybe it's because this one is still baking, or maybe it's because I feel like we are complete with her. Sure, it might be nice for her to have a sibling, but I'm not going to push or prevent anything. Things will take their course all on their own. One thing I've learned from my TTC experience is that I have no control over any of this. I just have to release, move on, and be oh, so grateful when things unexpectedly turn out in my favor
Rosa - don't ever feel bad for having feelings like that. We ladies on here are unique beings. We're not run-of-the-mill in the fertility area and we were put on this quest for a reason. Maybe we haven't figured it out yet, but it has to be for some good, down the road. Maybe it's so we can help someone else out. Maybe it's so we can learn about patience, acceptance or humility. I don't know. What I know for sure is that life is precious and is guaranteed to no being. So, for me, being grateful is something that I've been trying to practice more of.
Hopeful - we love you, we think about you and we know that when you're 80 years old and in your rocker on the front porch, you will be surrounded by your children and grandchildren.
penny is still fine during the night but just works herself during the day, which is better I guess! I think it's constipation with Penny. I've put her on comfort milk to see if it helps that & also her colic, I'm trying to get her off colief too. 
mrsmax, I am a so-called jobs worth!! 
lol. However I'll be giving Penny all the stuff we don't like, DH doesn't like any cooked veg! 
not having penny the same...
