Molly was a surprise and I honestly still have no idea when/how I managed to get pregnant through all the birth control, but obviously it happened. I love her very much already and would never regret her, but I also don't think I would have done this on purpose, kwim? I'm going to be 20 in October and I've been with my OH for three years, but...I think I would have rather been more financially stable! That being said, finances everywhere are pretty messed up atm, and I don't think a lot of people who are trying are superbly well off. Not that there's anything wrong with that ! But I did have a miscarriage last year, and honestly, it scared the HELL out of me. I wasn't ready and I was horrified that I had done something so irresponsible, accident or not. But I think being ready doesn't have a lot to do with age, since my aunt had her kids at 30 and she's...not a good parent. I will be a good mother and I know that, because I am willing to give up everything and do anything for her. But, I don't think a lot of younger people/people my age can really fathom what it is really like. My mom had my sister and I 18 months apart at 18 and 19. She struggled for our entire childhoods, but she did it. And she couldn't mean more to me. wow rant lol