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[LadyVictoria]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Pretty! I hope that you both are doing okay emotionally, as I can't imagine how that must feel. And thank you, I am praying for a simple fix as well. My husband has another SA scheduled for Wednesday. Looking forward to having some answers soon!

 

[Mom15]

Pretty - I’m so sorry to hear about your mmc! It’s brutal and I remember mine like it was yesterday.

Lady-V - I’m keeping you in my thoughts especially when it comes to wishes for the new year!

 

[PrettyInInk42]

Thank ladies. And I know what you mean, Mom. It's something that sticks with you forever and can really change you. Right now, I'm mainly focused on just getting back at it and rolling with the punches. Also, I'm fairly certain that cuz my body held on to the fetus after it passed, that it was a chromosomal issue with the fetus, but there's still small ways I felt like it was my fault. I was worried about my kids having BDays that were too close together, we have a small trip planned around when my EDD was (so, it was less than ideal), I didn't wanna have to fight with SO over what we'd name a girl. I sometimes feel like the powers that be heard my complaints and took action, as dumb as that sounds. But like I said, just gotta keep moving forward. There was nothing I could do and time doesn't stop cuz you're sad.

So, anyway, did another opk yesterday and it may have been +-ish and we DTD last night too. Almost as soon as we were done, SO asked if this was us trying again, or if this is a "safe time" where my body won't release an egg. I said I wasn't sure if my body is actually able to get pg again this cycle, but I just wanted to try and see what happens. Did another opk today and I think the line was a little fainter, so now we wait, I guess. Probably gonna take a pg test a little after the new year.

 

[LadyVictoria]

Just wanted to pop in and wish everyone a happy new year!

Being in limbo has been rough. I just want to know what's going on with my husband and if we have a chance at all... The more I read up on zero sperm count, the more likely IVF and maybe IUI seems. I'm totally jumping the gun since we don't have a diagnosis yet, but it makes me feel better to research the possibilities. Never in a million years did I think our journey would be like this!

 

[Flueky88]

Happy New Year everyone!!

Lady, if it's needed are you able and willing to do IUI or IVF?? I hope there is some simple fix for his sperm count though and those services aren't needed. However, it's amazing what can be done in today's world in matters of conception. Drink some wine/champagne tonight and have some fun

Pretty again. Fx for you

 

[PrettyInInk42]

LadyV - IMO, researching tings now is giving you something to do instead of sitting around, feeling helpless. And if you do end up going with one of those options, you already know a lot about it. Still hoping it's a simple fix for you and DH.

Thanks again, Flueky.

So, here are my opks for (from top to bottom) 24, 26, 27, 28, and today. I've had some EWCM for the past few days, so I think I'm about to release an egg. Need to start BD-ing ASAP.

 

[LadyVictoria]

Happy New Year everyone!!

Lady, if it's needed are you able and willing to do IUI or IVF?? I hope there is some simple fix for his sperm count though and those services aren't needed. However, it's amazing what can be done in today's world in matters of conception. Drink some wine/champagne tonight and have some fun

Pretty again. Fx for you

Yes, we are both willing and fortunately able to do assisted conception. I think the only thing I wouldn't be okay with is using donor sperm. I'm a state employee and have very good insurance, so IUI/ISCI/IVF are all covered with authorization. I'm not sure about the drugs as I haven't looked that much into it yet.

LadyV - IMO, researching tings now is giving you something to do instead of sitting around, feeling helpless. And if you do end up going with one of those options, you already know a lot about it. Still hoping it's a simple fix for you and DH.

Thanks again, Flueky.

So, here are my opks for (from top to bottom) 24, 26, 27, 28, and today. I've had some EWCM for the past few days, so I think I'm about to release an egg. Need to start BD-ing ASAP.

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Yes, research has been the only thing I can do to kind of calm my nerves about it all. I'm hoping it's a simple fix too but there's no way of knowing right now

Good luck to you!

 

[TWO2TANGO]

@LadyVictoria how did the analysis go? Praying for a good outcome for you guys.

 

[LadyVictoria]

@LadyVictoria how did the analysis go? Praying for a good outcome for you guys.

I'm still anxiously awaiting his results. It's killing me

 

[Flueky88]

Thinking of you Lady. Hope you hear back soon.

 

[LadyVictoria]

Thinking of you Lady. Hope you hear back soon.

Thank you. My husband's appointment is tomorrow morning... So in 24 hours we should have some answers. I've been pretty good about not obsessing over it all week but now it's definitely on my mind. I'm so anxious!

 

[Mom15]

Hope you get some answers today LadyV!

 

[LadyVictoria]

Hope you get some answers today LadyV!

Thank you and @Flueky88

I’m trying to wrap my mind around the news we got today. My husband got the results of his SAs, ultrasound, blood work, and urinalysis (didn’t know about that part before) and he is not producing sperm. His FSH is elevated and he has bilateral varicoceles, which will require surgery. His urologist referred him to a specialist at a local infertility and IVF center. It’s considered a “center of excellence” so for insurance purposes, we’ll get the most coverage there if we need IVF or IUI.

He looked so upset when he got back from the appointment. It was really crushing for the both of us. I don’t want him to feel like he’s letting me down and I told him he doesn’t owe me an apology for anything, but I know that he still feels guilty. I stayed home from work (AF got me this morning, to add insult to injury) and spent time with him until he left for a meeting. And we’ll be getting out together later to take our minds off of it. I’m just hoping that we can be helped.

 

[Flueky88]

LadyV I'm so sorry. I hope that the IVF clinic can help you both. I can't imagine how either of you feel. I hope you guys can enjoy a night out.

 

[LadyVictoria]

LadyV I'm so sorry. I hope that the IVF clinic can help you both. I can't imagine how either of you feel. I hope you guys can enjoy a night out.

Thank you. I'm kind of in a state of numb disbelief... I feel robbed of time and hope. We can't even try anymore because there's literally no chance with no sperm. I'm going to keep wearing my Ava bracelet not not bother with plugging anything into FF or use OPKs.

 

[Mom15]

I’m sorry LadyV. I can’t imagine how hard this must be. I just had to google varicoceles, but it sounds like what my friends DH had. I think I mentioned it. Do I understand right, that your DH is making sperm, but the varicoceles prevents it from coming out? If so I hope he can get the surgery and you guys get to try again soon. Sending hugs

 

[LadyVictoria]

I’m sorry LadyV. I can’t imagine how hard this must be. I just had to google varicoceles, but it sounds like what my friends DH had. I think I mentioned it. Do I understand right, that your DH is making sperm, but the varicoceles prevents it from coming out? If so I hope he can get the surgery and you guys get to try again soon. Sending hugs

Thank you. From what my husband told me, the doctor made it sound like he isn't producing sperm. The only way we'd know is if he had a TESE where they go in and see if there are any sperm to extract. I don't know what the specialist will recommend. I just hope that it won't take us long to get an appointment.

 

[Mom15]

Knowing myself waiting for an appointment would be so hard. I’m the type of person who wants to “fix” things right away. I wish you lots of strength on your journey and keep my fingers crossed that there is still a “simple” surgery that can be done. Please keep us updated when you can meet with the specialist.

 

[Flueky88]

LadyV agree with Mom15. Please keep us updated. I'm assuming you are just waiting to here from clinic to get an appt scheduled?

 

[LadyVictoria]

Knowing myself waiting for an appointment would be so hard. I’m the type of person who wants to “fix” things right away. I wish you lots of strength on your journey and keep my fingers crossed that there is still a “simple” surgery that can be done. Please keep us updated when you can meet with the specialist.

LadyV agree with Mom15. Please keep us updated. I'm assuming you are just waiting to here from clinic to get an appt scheduled?

Well now I'm just pissed off, because my husband called the IVF center this morning and they told him that his urologist should be helping us with next steps, as they only deal with the female patient once it's time to do IUI or IVF. I don't think my husband mentioned that he met with a PA and not his urologist on Friday. So I don't know if this woman didn't know what she was talking about or what, but I've encouraged him to call them immediately and get things figured out. Today he said that she did mention a biopsy (a TESE I'm assuming) but I don't see why she wouldn't have moved forward with treating him there rather than sending us somewhere that can't do anything for us right now.

As much as I want to jump in and start making phone calls and getting answers, I'm just trying to breathe and let him handle this. I think it's better for his ego if I trust him to do research and get things straightened out. It's horrible for my own sanity and thin patience, but good for him. I'm looking into counseling for myself in the meantime. Pray for me, ladies! I'm losing it.