*** Positive Mental Attitude TTC - Anyone joining us? ***

[Miss cat]

How you doing hopeful? We are here anytime you want to chat. X

 

[Hopeful335]

Hi everyone. I am so fed up. After weekend bleeding (reasonably heavy Sat but not really any yest and only spotting today when I wipe-sorry tmi), and getting my head round another mc I went for an ultra sound today only to be told they can see a sac. No foetal pole or anything but measuring 5w1d. They want to re scan me in one week. I know it's gone, I know the measurements are off and preg test is pretty much negative (though if it was 3 weeks ago I'd be jumping for joy at faint pos).

I just want it to be over. I really thought my body had done it job this time and miscarried normally unlike the mmc but no! I have another week of agony only to be told what I was pretty sure Friday night happened and probably have to have tablets or something again to get me going! Totally rubbish. I have no PMA right now, none. I am fed up!!

Rant over. Sorry! X

 

[lilesMom]

no wonder ur pma has been shot babe, im so sorry u have to go through all this crap again. did they say if thiey think there is still any hope? could ur dates be off? im not trying to pee u off by qs u but im just hoping that things may be ok, big hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Smiler82]

Oh, Hopeful that is just so awful. I'm so sorry. Did they scan your tummy or use a vaginal scan? I can totally see why they want to wait another week just in case, but mentally it must be torture for you. I think you're right to not let yourself get your hopes up and just get yourself prepared for the scan next week and then whatever course of action you choose to take. You never know, your body may sort it all out naturally between now and next week, but I totally understand what you mean about wanting it to just all be over and done with.

We're all here to help you through, of course you won't have any PMA right now life can be so cruel at times xx

 

[lilesMom]

hopeful im thinking of u all the time, big hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[mommylov]

Hopeful, Hope youre holding up ok

 

[Hopeful335]

Hey. I'm okay just playing the waiting game now. They did a virginal scan. Still no better, they wanted me to wait. Dates don't match by only a few days as I know when I ovulated but only a few days. No more bleeding but no more preg symptoms either and I did a pregnancy test and it was negative! Guess that means levels have gone down? If so though why haven't I miscarried naturally? Could my body have reabsorbed it already??

Thanks girls for being so caring x x x

 

[lilesMom]

ah feck hon, so sorry. this whole business is so hard xxxxxxxxxxx
im not sure, ur body can do that cant it. it would be good in one way cos u wouldnt need intervention but so so sad. im sorry hon, i know those words r useless really but i just wanna say something xxxxxxxx

 

[withlovemom]

Oh hopefull, i m so so so sorry hon....
sending lots n lots of hugs ur way....
take care of urself dear....n we all are here for u..you can share anything you want..
i will keep u in my prayers hon....

 

[mommylov]

Hugs hopeful!!

 

[Smiler82]

hopeful. I'm so sorry that this happened.

I have no idea why you have negative hpts but they can still see something on the scan. I don't get it, but if that were me I know it would be such a headf*ck and I'm just so sorry you're having to deal with it. Have you got a drop-in centre or can you get to see your GP quickly, maybe they can answer your questions xxx

 

[lilesMom]

hopefull , hope ur ok xxxx

 

[lilesMom]

girls just to let ye know im trying this month, the bloods and liver U/s came back good so i said feck it , il try and see what happens so fx

 

[Smiler82]

Oh yay lilesmom!! That is great news about your tests! Your ticker says you're on day 18, is that right? Have you ovulated yet or you in the 2WW already?

I had a scan today to see if the clomid is working. This sounds so silly but it made me really sad to see my poor, polycystic ovaries! I want to cry They just look so bad, it was a bit of a shock really, all covered in dark circles, which are the cysts. It's not all bad news - I have one follie that is 10mm. It needs to get to around 20mm she said, then hopefully I will ov. Maybe Tues or Weds next week. FX!!

 

[lilesMom]

im pretty sure im in tww i dont use opks but i do get Ov signs and i got them all
it doesnt sound silly hon, its perfectly natural to be sad but thats great news u will Ov soon , fx for bfps all round xxx

 

[lilesMom]

wanna be ttc buddies?

 

[Smiler82]

wanna be ttc buddies?

Yeah!

Oh wow how crazy for you to be in the 2WW already when you thought it was going to be a long time before you could try again. This is so cool. I hope you get good news - when can you test?

 

[lilesMom]

il put u in my ticker now so hee hee
i got the phone call from my doc on the 8th telling me the blood tests were clear and the liver U/s looks good and i knew i should Ov on the 9th so we decided to go for it straight away so hopefully we caught the egg i know it was good timing really
something went right for me at last
my mom has a dream of babies that she dreams 3 times whenever someone in my family get pregnant , she had it again lately , i hope its for me but we have a big family but still could be for me

 

[Smiler82]

Eeek!! Oh that would be so cool - it kind of feels like everything randomly fell into place at the right time for you lilesmom I hope this is it for you! That is weird about your mum My MIL reads cards, she predicted my last 2 pregnancies. I get scared for her to read my cards again now in case she doesn't see pregnancy for me, or also if she does because I don't want family to know til at least 12 weeks haha

 

[lilesMom]

i know i dont wanna tell people either but my mom and one of my sis both have the baby dream and last time they knew before i did get her to do the cards, it be nice to have some good news xxxx
OH blamed me for tellin um but i said they told me, i couldnt lie to um when they said that, i hate lies he still thinks i told um cos he doesnt believe in it at all

i have anotebook to keep track of af and stuff baby related and when i did get preggers i BD twice in day 12 and it worked so day 12 was when i started this time so FX