*** Positive Mental Attitude TTC - Anyone joining us? ***

[mommylov]

Thanks girls! I hate to say it but I dont have much PMA today I started off feeling optomistic about this cycle but that has since come and gone and then come back again and now gone again lol This is my first month of temping and I thought it was going to give me more relief of knowing whats going on but instead I find myself questioning everything even more! I swear, this is all going to just drive me to the loony house I actually got my progesterone bloodwork done last night so Im just waiting for those results this morning. They put me on 50mg of clomid last cycle and 100 this time but Im going to talk to my dr about not taking it anymore. I dont see the point. I ovulate on my own just fine and it doesnt seem to be helping my progesterone any so whats the point? Unless they tell me my results this morning and its very high, Im going to say no more. Also have been feeling down lately like I want to stop ttc all together . I am suppose to have a 1 month old right now and instead Im not even pregnant. I got pregnant twice (both losses) pretty easy without anything like Clomid so I dont know whats going on now. Idk, I guess we'll see what happens.

 

[Smiler82]

Oh mommylov

I am a big advocate of charting but I do know it can sometimes drive you crazy. The times we were on a break and wasn't charting were actually really nice. The thing is you think you can tell by your temps what's going on, but trust me, sitting there staring at the chart is not going to reveal any answers!!

Any news on your progesterone levels? Isn't 5 DPO a little early to have blood taken, they should wait at least a week post ov I thought.

Honestly hun if you need a little break maybe you could discuss it with DH. It is very hard to go through a loss and they are not things that you recover from easily. The grief from that plus the stress of all the testing - no wonder you are feeling a bit down and overwhelmed by it all. But see how you feel at the end of the 2WW. I am sending you so much PMA and hoping and hoping that this cycle is your time xxx

lilesmom that is so sweet of your friend to text you that It can be hard when it comes to other people...I guess we just have to accept that they will never feel as strongly about our babies as we did. I think maybe it's not so much that people forget, is that they just don't know what to say and think it's best not to bring it up and to focus on the future. But I keep mentioning my previous pregnancies when people ask me about this one, like I compare symptoms etc. I think it makes people feel a little uncomfortable but I hope it at least makes them realise that I'll never forget our two babies we lost xx

 

[mommylov]

Thank you so much Smiler! Im was actually confused what day to consider 7dpo. FF said that sun was 7dpo up until a few days ago and then it changed. My dr told me to come in 7 days after my +OPK. I dont know if FF is right or not but I just went by what my dr told me to do. She text me this morning and said that the results werent in yet and that she was going to check this afternoon. My temp doesnt seem to be that high compared to pre O temps but Im trying not to read into it. I have mentioned to DH that with every failed cycle, I am getting more and more down. He is so supportive and says we'll do whatever I want but its just hard to decide. I seem to have ups and downs and get hopeful after every AF. I dont know what Im going to do after this cycle. Def think I dont want to do Clomid again. I could be wrong but I dont see the benefit of it for me personally. Maybe after two losses, my body is telling me no more I try and think that god will bless us but the more and more I think about it, I think Im just being tortured with the losses.

 

[mommylov]

So once again Im eating my words lol... progesterone came back at 26.88!!! Im beyond thrilled with that news!

 

[lilesMom]

smiler i know what u mean i do the same, say something like i never felt this last time i was preg or talk about lile, u can just see their eyes shifting away and they r prob wondering, ' how am i meant to respond here' only some people not everyone xx
they mean well , they just get confused i think


amy in this instance eating ur words is def good xxxxxxxxx
whoop whoop xxxxxxxx

 

[lilesMom]

sooo it turns out my gran nephew has slapped cheek (human verison of parvo virus),
its dangerous for preg women but more so before 20 weeks, so now me and my preg Sil cant go to our nieces christenign next weekend or my godsons and dads bday party prob followin week, waaahhhh!!! i already have little enough to do day to day, was really lookign forward to um, . but doc advised not to go, so.......
cant chance it, il have to be a hermit for next month when i thought i was gonna have a nice busy month with lots of partys,, waahh
im ok really, it s worth not goin just in case, but id love to be able to go.
i already met my bro (granda of gran nephew ) on sat nt so just hoping he didnt already bloody pass it to me. he never told us gran nephew had it and came to the party.
2 weeks ago r so , i met him (same bro) and was in room with him for about an hour and suddenly he says his tummy is stil sick from vomiting bug, doh!! dont think he gets the whole things being more dangerous during pregnancy. oh well. fx and prayers, he didnt give it to us,
hi and hugs to all

 

[mommylov]

Grr for them not telling you Laura but I hope you are able to spend time with them after bubs is here. Are they treating him?

 

[lilesMom]

no treatment babe , its not dangerous in kids, just pregnant women for the belly bubs more dangerous before 20 weeks, so im hoping my bub be ok.
my Sil is only 10 weeks though so she is def keepign clear!!

 

[mommylov]

oh well thats good but still is a bummer that you have to stay away

 

[Smiler82]

Woo hoo for the progesterone levels Mommylov that is really fantastic considering it was taken a little early! Are you on progesterone as well as clomid, is that what the 'P' stands for on your chart?

Argh such a shame about the slapped cheek lilesmom! I've never really known what it is but will watch out in case any kids I know come down with it! But FX you will be ok because you were past 20 weeks when you saw your bro. Maybe you and your sister should arrange something to do together that day so you have a mini-party of your own?! It is a shame to miss out on all the festivities

 

[mommylov]

Thanks smiler! Yes, I am using crinone. I have been using it ever since my second mc everytime after I o. Dr said that it doesn't affect my bloodwork since it doesn't get into my blood. The past three months my progesterone came back at 8, 10, 12... So glad to finally NOT be borderline and be great!! Now I'm just hoping I caught that eggy . I'm starting to feel twinges but I am chalking it up to be from the clomid. Other than that, I've been wrong a little more frequently but no signs

How are you doing?

Hi to everyone!

 

[lilesMom]

smiler i was thinkin the same about mettin up with Sil but im not sure she wil wanna meet me either cos i have met my stupid bro at the wrong time cos he didnt tell me about it, he told my mom who didnt know what it was and i only found out the next day. doh!! anyway just keeping fx
my lil munchkin being very quiet yest eve and today and worrying me, paranoid lolly
how u keeping smiler? xxxx

amy fx for u honey whoop whoop for great levels

 

[Smiler82]

I'm having a wobble today I don't know why. Yesterday I was totally fine and today I've just had this horrid feeling that something is going to go wrong. I can't stop thinking what if there's something wrong with the baby, what if s/he is all tied up in the cord...and knowing if there is something up there's nothing I can do about it. I know it's silly to think this way because I have absolutely no physical sign that anything is wrong. It's just a sense of feeling unnerved and not very confident any more.

I'm absolutely not surprised you got worried that bubs wasn't' moving around much. Is it better today? Do you ring your midwife?

Sorry for a down message ladies. I posted something similar on the pregnancy after a loss board and even tho had no replies yet, I feel a bit better for just writing it down xxx

 

[lilesMom]

hi babe i feel the exact same today, im being worry wart for no real reason
i broke out the choc and he has started moving the fairy
i too often think what if he gets tangled in the cord and i wouldnt know til i go up or something , arrggghhh
losing preg innocence sucks not only did we lose out bubs , we lost out on some enjoyment too. xxx
we wont let it steal our fun smiler, my baby is perfect till proven otherwise, and im hoping that never happens
hugs sweetie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[lilesMom]

amiler ps i ur not already, u wil prob feel flutters soon depending on where bub and ur placenta is, i cant wait for u to feel it too, its soo cool. xxxxx
i was lucky my placenta is on back wall ad my bub was sideways so i felt it soon

 

[lilesMom]

i ha d adream the other nt i went to the loo and there was blood,
im a bit freaked since, but i had a dream just before it, iw as trapped in a abuilding surrounded by robots who wanted to kill me. so maybe i shouldnt read too much into it
its just with lile i had dream i woke up covered in blood and mc twice at time she stopped growing. its put the dreads in me a little,. im glad i had that dream about the robots too cos i can class um together and say its not coming true

 

[mommylov]

Awww Smiler Im sorry you are having a down day hun. When is your next scan? Im sure that everything is alright and its just hormones that are getting the best of you right now. Maybe see if you can get another scan in earlier than scheduled just for peace of mind if you can. BIG HUGS honey and I hope that you feel better. we are here for you if you need anything. Youre right, sometimes it just helps to be able to get it out so I hope thats the case for ya!

 

[Smiler82]

Yeah, that is one of the crappy things about losing babies is you can never get back that innocent enjoyment. With our first it simply never crossed my mind something could go wrong. Even after my 2nd bout of bleeding, I practically skipped to the u/s department because I thought, hurrah I get to see my baby again. So naive.

I'm glad to hear the chocolate got him going Good excuse to keep eating it! Have you been able to figure out a 'normal' pattern of movement? I was reading up on the Count the Kicks campaign and they say to pay attention and figure it out. I didn't know that was possible, I thought babies just moved whenever they felt like it, and it's not like they know the difference between night and day and know when to go to sleep!

I think I'm worrying a bit because in the last week or so, quite a few people have asked me if I can feel movement yet or not. I know it's really early and the MW said it can be like 20-22 weeks before you feel it, but it's just weird I've been asked so many times and having to say 'no' so often isn't very nice!

 

[Smiler82]

Wow all online at the same time! I didn't know you guys were posting same time as me

Thanks ladies it really helps to talk xxx

Lilesmom I seem to remember you had a dream a little while ago about there being blood, and it never happened. Dreams are just random and/or made up of things that are in our minds, whether conscious or subconcious. They are so unnerving but really don't mean anyhting xxx

 

[lilesMom]

its stil really early smiler, i was lucky cos of placenta and bub placement .
my sis laughed at me when i told her i could feel tiny kicks at that stage and told me i was imagining it, turns out with her 2, her placenta was on front wall so she shouldnt feel um till much later so it really depends o lots things, she didnt feel hers til well into the 20s weeks, i think aorund 24 or something.
my bub satyed breech for long time too, since bub has turned i dont feel kicks half as strongly and my bub is much bigger, u would imagine its stronger i should feel it, but cos of position i dont
sorry for saying it about kicks hon xxxxxxxxx it differs hugely for everyone xxxx
ur nto supposed to kick count till after 27 weeks, before then its too sporadic, and most places dont say kick count, just keep an eye on pattern. mine has def pattern but hen some days it wil differ and freak me out