Hello ladies...I've been a stranger around here for a LONG time. I had to ban myself completely from the site and anything that would make me even think about TTC. I actually think it helped somewhat, almost too much, because now that we are getting ready for our one last try, I don't want to. Well, more like I am scared to. I finally feel a little better emotionally, physically, mentally and I am scared to think it could all go down the tubes again.
For those that don't know- I have had 7 miscarriages, along with every test under the sun. I am Homozygous MTHFR and about 6 months ago on an ultrasound report it said suspected adenomyosis. I haven't even talked to the doctor since that report was done, so I really have no clue how bad it is, where it is, etc.... I also have only one tube due to an ectopic pregnancy.
This time around they are trying something new- hopefully to get a mature egg to release, but I really think it's more of a problem with the quality of my eggs since I am about to be 39. I read a while back about royal jelly helping with egg quality so I have been taking that, but who really knows. I am going to be using Follistim and Ovidrel this cycle in addition to everything else (progesterone, aspirin, heparin, etc). Going tomorrow for CD3 bloodwork and ultrasound.
I am rambling, but I just needed to get it out somewhere that I am scared to death to do all this again. I am so sorry that I came back to find more ladies joining this thread. Makes my heart hurt.
Anyway- I am going to be joining you all again on the thread if you don't mind. You are the only support I have since no one in my day to day life have even had one miscarriage, much less multiples.