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annawrigley
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Rant:
since everyone else seems to be having them at the mo
i think im just hormonal but this has been bothering me for a while, i never mentioned it cos it makes me sounds kinda spoilt
but im not! lol. ok
i live in a flat that my dad bought me because i pretty much had nowhere else to go, broke up with FOB and i lived with him before.. mum doesnt really want me back tbh and her boyfriends son now lives in my old bedroom so theres no room for me there anyway and my dad lives like in a little house in a village miles away which is too small for me to live in and also id never be able to go anywhere unless he was there to drive me because its a 2 hour walk to the nearest train station , which is the only way to get back into york.
so ya
it was very nice of him to buy me a flat but he made out to me like it would be MY space, i was gutted that FOB had broken up with me and didnt really know what to do with myself so it was kind of a silver lining to everything so i was really happy about it..
but its not been like that at all, he has been basically living here because his stupid house in the country is "too cold" during the winter, and my 2 brothers are meant to be with him half the week but because hes here they come here too. and today my uncle is over from america to stay with my dad. but my dads here so hes here too.
its a 2 bedroom flat with 1 like lounge room (+ kitchen and 2 bathrooms), and there is me, my 2 brothers, my dad and my uncle when my dad had always made out like id be living here on my own to be 'independent' which is what i wanted!!
i dont mind them being here sometimes, its nice to have the company but its just annoying cos they all treat it like its their house and at the end of the day they all have somewhere to go home to, i dont, this is my home now.
and anyway tonight i was REALLY hot and felt really dizzy it was so hot so asked my dad to turn the heating down and he was like 'no its freezing' and so i said put some more clothes on then (he was in a tshirt) and he was like 'no, no one else is too hot, go to a different room' so i kept asking him to just turn it down and then eventually had to come to my room cos i felt like i was going to pass out.
it just feels so stupid that im meant to have this "flat of my own" and im hid away in my room with my whole freaking family out there just because it was too hot for me
yeah reading that back i realise it sounds pathetic but im just so stressed out by it all! i appreciate their company SOMETIMES but sometimes i just want to be left on my own!!! these are my last 3 months im ever gonna have to myself and id like to make the most of them!! 
grrrrr
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since everyone else seems to be having them at the mo
i think im just hormonal but this has been bothering me for a while, i never mentioned it cos it makes me sounds kinda spoilt
but im not! lol. oki live in a flat that my dad bought me because i pretty much had nowhere else to go, broke up with FOB and i lived with him before.. mum doesnt really want me back tbh and her boyfriends son now lives in my old bedroom so theres no room for me there anyway
and my dad lives like in a little house in a village miles away which is too small for me to live in and also id never be able to go anywhere unless he was there to drive me because its a 2 hour walk to the nearest train station , which is the only way to get back into york.so ya
it was very nice of him to buy me a flat but he made out to me like it would be MY space, i was gutted that FOB had broken up with me and didnt really know what to do with myself so it was kind of a silver lining to everything so i was really happy about it..
but its not been like that at all, he has been basically living here because his stupid house in the country is "too cold" during the winter, and my 2 brothers are meant to be with him half the week but because hes here they come here too. and today my uncle is over from america to stay with my dad. but my dads here so hes here too.
its a 2 bedroom flat with 1 like lounge room (+ kitchen and 2 bathrooms), and there is me, my 2 brothers, my dad and my uncle when my dad had always made out like id be living here on my own to be 'independent' which is what i wanted!!
i dont mind them being here sometimes, its nice to have the company but its just annoying cos they all treat it like its their house and at the end of the day they all have somewhere to go home to, i dont, this is my home now.
and anyway tonight i was REALLY hot and felt really dizzy it was so hot so asked my dad to turn the heating down and he was like 'no its freezing' and so i said put some more clothes on then (he was in a tshirt) and he was like 'no, no one else is too hot, go to a different room' so i kept asking him to just turn it down and then eventually had to come to my room cos i felt like i was going to pass out.
it just feels so stupid that im meant to have this "flat of my own" and im hid away in my room with my whole freaking family out there just because it was too hot for me
yeah reading that back i realise it sounds pathetic but im just so stressed out by it all!
i appreciate their company SOMETIMES but sometimes i just want to be left on my own!!! these are my last 3 months im ever gonna have to myself and id like to make the most of them!! grrrrr
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dont mind crazy old stalker me over here! 
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but to ring back after the new year and ask again 
