***RANT***
(actually about FOB even!)
He's so freaking emotional and dramatic first he starts talking about if hes gonna be in the room for the birth and that they only allow 1-2 people during the actual pushing and make everyone else leave and I'm already having my mom and my sister-like cousin there and so he was worried he'd be kicked out and left with my family in the waiting room when he's only met 5 of them..
I told him I read tons of birth stories and at that point everyone's to busy to really care how many people or who is in the room.. but he didn't listen and kept going on about it and what not..
Finally I just started yelling at him that I have no control over the situation at that point because I'll be a little BUSY in a huge amount of pain and that will be the last thing on my mind!!!
Then he finally shuts up about that and goes on about how when I push him away I'm pushing him away from Riley as well..
I told him well right now he's still in the womb and the only one getting any real "bonding" time with him is me you can bond with him plenty once I push him out.. Well he goes on to talk about how it's going to be awkward to come visit him when I don't want him there so I said well I do want you there to be in Riley's life and such and I'll just put up with him being there.. Well he goes on saying how hurtful it is that I have to "put up" with him being there and what not..
I go on to tell him about how he's upset about how I never want to talk to him but when I actually do talk to him he acts like this it's like well no wonder!
Finally I just start yelling at him that does he not realize I'm pregnant with his child and all the fun pain I've been going through not to mention all the fun with hormones?!? I really don't want to hear all this sh!t right now!!
Then he says the big words.. "idk what i was thinking. i fell in love with you, which is the only reason we had sex. i thought u felt the same, and at the time i guess you did. your just too young"
So I told him about all the TONS of women I've heard about going through the same thing as me where they want nothing to do with the FOB and it's really just the hormones he's like well that's because they really didn't love eachother and that babies are suppose to bring people closer when they really are in love...
So I went on to tell him how many of these women are married to the father and have been together for years and they still feel this way sometimes..
Finally I just tell him "f*cking hell boy, I'm 14 and going to be a mother.. love and guys aren't exactly on my mind right now"
After many minutes of arguing and cussing at him and he kept bringing up the whole "Put up with him" thing I said that's just how I feel right now and the hormones are a big play in that I don't know how I'll feel after I have him and maybe it won't be such a "put up with" feeling I don't f*cking know!
He just goes "k"....
I didn't say anything after that and just closed out the conversation and he hasn't said anything else..
He's so emotional!! I can't stand it that's why I knew it would never work between us because he's so emotional and clingy and it drives me off a cliff..
But once the rest of my family knows I'm sure my house will start to look like Babies R' Us. 
My sisters have been bugging me to pick a "theme" for the baby's nursery, but I can't really find anything gender neutral. Do you have a specific theme or just chose things that you liked?
ive seen a lot of lovely neutral nursery themed things though 
xx
