I hope you don't mind me gatecrashing in here, but I am stressing out of my mind and this seems like the place to air it all out and get some support!
My story so far:
Two miscarriages last year back to back in March and June, the second one was tested and found to have Trisomy 14, my husband and I were tested and both were clear of being carriers. (Testing was because I have 4 children from my previous marriage with no issues, so they were concerned at 2 in a row).
This time was a bit of a surprise - we were not overly trying, but not preventing, so happy when we got the news that we were pregnant! Had severe back pain so went to the ER thinking I might possibly be, and worried it would be another ectopic. They did bloods, realised I WAS pg, then monitored with bloods and US for two weeks or so. All seemed great after that except for the really really bad MS. I couldn't function it was so bad and I'd never had it like that before. My doc put me on Maxolon which helped a little but still not great. Then on Christmas Eve, I had some very very very tiny brown spotting, and again on Christmas Day. My MS and all other symptoms had completely disappeared overnight as well. I waited a few days, but once the backache came, I went to the ER on the Thursday after Christmas, convinced it was another MMC. (I should add, we had an US on the 21st Dec that looked great, so I had no reason to worry so much!)
So they booked an US for the next day, and said they would call with the results. US next morning looked great to us, baby bouncing around, all looked great. ER doc rang that afternoon saying that there were issues they wanted to follow up and I might need to be referred to the Royal Womens for further testing. Upon pressing her, she told me that the 'issues' were the yolk sac being too large (6.9mm), and 'other things' and that the OB would discuss further on the Monday morning!!
Spent the weekend googling (bad!) found out enlarged yolk sac usually means inevitable MC, or chromosome problems (we have had both before so were devastated!)
Come Monday morning, OB is not overly concerned, says yes yolk sac is too big but might be fine just make sure I have first tri screening at 12 weeks.
11 weeks we are driving across Australia to move from one side to the other quite literally, so he says wear support stockings, take regular breaks, all will be fine. Make an appt over here in Perth for the day after we arrive.
Night before we leave - some minor spotting brown, bit more than last time, but not much and has resolved by the time we drive out.
After a few hours of driving, we are about to stop at border stop between Victoria and South Australia, I have a bit of backache but nothing bad. it's 40degrees Celcius outside (over 100F). We have 4 kids in car, two dogs in trailer and they all want out and lunch. I get up out of the drivers seat and at the same time as I realise I am wet through and realise it's blood all over me, my husband looks at the car seat and it's covered in blood. We kind of usher kids away with the dogs (eldest is 15 so it wasn't as bad as it could've been!), and as I go to move to walk to the toilets, I feel something come out of me. Something big. I'm holding it in between my legs, blood is literally running out of me. So much blood. We are convinced it is the baby because of everything that had happened up to this point. We are traumatised and concerned at the amount of blood, we 'deal with it' for over an hour, then decide we know what to look for in terms of blood loss from the previous MC's, we are literally in the middle of nowhere so we'll keep going until our night stop. Stopped to use the bathroom about an hour later and there was SO MUCH BLOOD. Then about another hour later when we got to our overnight destination, still so much blood. Within another hour though, bleeding stopped. So we cried and cried and cried thinking it was all over, and just got on with the rest of the cross country drive. It took us 4 days to get here. On the Wednesday we had our appointment, the 16th of Jan I think, and we get an US the same day to check that everything came out, and to our complete surprise there is our baby happily swimming around, AND they put my dates forward because it measures 13 weeks not 12.
We are in total shock. ABSOLUTE shock.
So they do the NT scan at the same time, we see our doc who orders the bloods the next day, see a specialist at the local hospital a week later who does another US because I am still bleeding, and there is the baby, bouncing (I swear he/she waved at me!). She says she can see a small bleed behind the placenta which is anterior. But it should be fine, discharges me from their clinic. My normal doc refers me to an OB, (appt not till about 21weeks), arranges my 19 week US, gives us our NT screening results - LOW RISK!!!, and puts me on 'light duties'. Slow walking is fine, but no lifting, pushing, pulling, straining etc....and tells me I might bleed for the whole pregnancy, but only to stress if there is pain involved. (there was never ANY pain at all!)
So now I am stressed beyond all belief, cannot believe we are almost 15 weeks, and cry a lot. Everytime there is a bit more blood I worry and wonder if I should go to ER, but it settles quickly, and it's always brown.
How do people get through this emotional rollercoaster?
Sorry for the extra long post, I just needed to get it all out to people who might understand the stress.
Thanks for listening (reading).