***September testing group***

[Suggerhoney]

Thanks ladies but I know I am out and just have to except it.

 

[HopefulPony]

@AlwaysTheAunt omg beautiful line - so sorry about your husband’s reaction

@jellybeanxx that looks positive! Can’t wait for your next test

@Suggerhoney I am so sorry about the BFN must be so disheartening. Thinking of you xxxx

 

[Suggerhoney]

@AlwaysTheAunt omg beautiful line - so sorry about your husband’s reaction

@jellybeanxx that looks positive! Can’t wait for your next test

@Suggerhoney I am so sorry about the BFN must be so disheartening. Thinking of you xxxx

Thanks love. It really is. Those lines yesterday got me excited and now all I won’t to do is cry.
It is what it is tho and didn’t expect this ttc journey to be easy at my age.
Just since the miscarriage I’ve just wanted to be pregnant again with a sticky healthy baby but it don’t seem to be happening.
I’m 43 in December so it feels like it’s never going to happen.

don’t get me wrong I’m very blessed and great full to have 4 healthy children with DH but my heart just longs for one more.
Even more so since the 2 losses.

 

[HopefulPony]

Thanks love. It really is. Those lines yesterday got me excited and now all I won’t to do is cry.
It is what it is tho and didn’t expect this ttc journey to be easy at my age.
Just since the miscarriage I’ve just wanted to be pregnant again with a sticky healthy baby but it don’t seem to be happening.
I’m 43 in December so it feels like it’s never going to happen.

don’t get me wrong I’m very blessed and great full to have 4 healthy children with DH but my heart just longs for one more.
Even more so since the 2 losses.

That must be so hard for you, just want to send you a big hug xxx

 

[Laurabub84]

@cheerios Temping is really the best way to know although even with that I realised that my temp would take a day or two to rise properly. With my son I thought I’d gotten my first bfp at 8dpo which was really early. But then once I had my scan and worked out the dates it had actually been 10dpo which made more sense. So I’m just gonna go by the day I get my darkest opk and count the next day as 1dpo. Then just bare in mind I could be a day or two out

 

[Laurabub84]

@jellybeanxx i hope you get answers soon. Good luck with your frer

@HalfricanMa good luck for when you test

@Suggerhoney i don’t think this is it for you. I’m sure you’ll get your rainbow. It will all be worth it in the end as hard as it is right now. I’m trying to mentally prepare myself this time for what’s to come. Ttc is exciting in the beginning but it is so so hard cycle after cycle. You will get there sweet. I really do believe you will. Big hugs to you

 

[Suggerhoney]

That must be so hard for you, just want to send you a big hug xxx

Awww thanks love . Bless you your so kind. Hugs right back

 

[Suggerhoney]

@jellybeanxx i hope you get answers soon. Good luck with your frer

@HalfricanMa good luck for when you test

@Suggerhoney i don’t think this is it for you. I’m sure you’ll get your rainbow. It will all be worth it in the end as hard as it is right now. I’m trying to mentally prepare myself this time for what’s to come. Ttc is exciting in the beginning but it is so so hard cycle after cycle. You will get there sweet. I really do believe you will. Big hugs to you

Awww thank you love hugs back to you too.
Yeah When we started I was so excited. I just had this feeling it was going to happen quickly. But looks like I was wrong.
I keep telling myself it took 11 cycles last time to finally get my rainbow and that felt like a lifetime but maybe it’s gonna be the same this time. I just worry it’s gonna take longer, I don’t think I would be so worried if I was younger but everything I read about getting pregnant from 43 is pretty grim.
I really hope your right love. Thank you.
I will test again as have so many tests but I’m like 100% sure I am out.

 

[Suggerhoney]

@jellybeanxx
Fx so hard for you love

 

[cheerios]

@Suggerhoney Hey hun, it's soo hard to TTC. I hear you. This is my longest TTC journey ever and that's after 4 successful and pretty back-to-back pregnancies. I never thought I would be back on BnB and TTCing. Usually when I came back to BnB, it was because I wanted to write about my pregnancy before I announced it IRL. I do believe age does play a factor. But I'm trying to tell myself that if I don't get pregnant again, it won't be the end of the world. I still have my children to love on. It's of course hard to be on BnB where the women here are getting pregnant all over the place too. Sooo, it's a double-edged sword. I'm here if you want to talk. Totally know how you feel.

 

[cheerios]

@cheerios Temping is really the best way to know although even with that I realised that my temp would take a day or two to rise properly. With my son I thought I’d gotten my first bfp at 8dpo which was really early. But then once I had my scan and worked out the dates it had actually been 10dpo which made more sense. So I’m just gonna go by the day I get my darkest opk and count the next day as 1dpo. Then just bare in mind I could be a day or two out

Thanks for sharing. I don't temp so I don't really know where I am. I'm experiencing some painful ovulation cramps now, so I think it means that either I have ovulated or I'm ovulating. In any case, I'll just count today at 1dpo and I will test on 29th Sept.

 

[Laurabub84]

I don’t know whether to take this as my peak or not. It’s the darkest one today but usually the test line seems fainter when it peaks so not confident. We bd’d last night so I don’t know whether to go again tonight or wait until tomorrow night. I’d like to cover both but I’m not sure he’d be up for that

 

[jellybeanxx]

Nothing on the FRER. Absolutely gutted.

I don’t understand it, I had really clear lines on those other tests and ones from that batch before the last day or two had been very obviously negative so there’s no reason to think it’s dodgy tests.

 

[elmum]

I don’t know whether to take this as my peak or not. It’s the darkest one today but usually the test line seems fainter when it peaks so not confident. We bd’d last night so I don’t know whether to go again tonight or wait until tomorrow night. I’d like to cover both but I’m not sure he’d be up for that
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That looks like what is peak for me! We BD every other day last time we conceived. So, you should be good with timing
Baby dust !

 

[elmum]

Nothing on the FRER. Absolutely gutted.

I don’t understand it, I had really clear lines on those other tests and ones from that batch before the last day or two had been very obviously negative so there’s no reason to think it’s dodgy tests.

Oh no. Could it just be time of day? Hoping for you!!

 

[elmum]

@Suggerhoney I still have faith that your precious rainbow is coming. I’m so sorry for the recent losses. I wish I could hug you too!

 

[Suggerhoney]

@Suggerhoney Hey hun, it's soo hard to TTC. I hear you. This is my longest TTC journey ever and that's after 4 successful and pretty back-to-back pregnancies. I never thought I would be back on BnB and TTCing. Usually when I came back to BnB, it was because I wanted to write about my pregnancy before I announced it IRL. I do believe age does play a factor. But I'm trying to tell myself that if I don't get pregnant again, it won't be the end of the world. I still have my children to love on. It's of course hard to be on BnB where the women here are getting pregnant all over the place too. Sooo, it's a double-edged sword. I'm here if you want to talk. Totally know how you feel.

Thanks love. It is so hard. I’m so happy for the ladies on here that get there BFPs but I do find it so hard when you been trying ages and others just go bam and fall. That used to be me once but since turning 40 it’s been so much harder.
I’m gonna give myself until I’m 45 and if still no baby by then I’m gonna call it a day.

I pray you and I both do get our healthy sticky Rainbow BFPs and take home Rainbow babies

when I had the 4 losses in the space of 7 months I was on the verge of giving up but then month 11 I fell with my son. So that’s what’s keeping me going now.
I keep thinking it took 11 months last time when I was 40 and it will probably take that long again.
I just hate this part the most. The knowing your out and having to wait to bleed and ovulation all over again. I’m just so done with it all and just wish so much I would fall with my rainbow.
I’ve seen a lot of 40 and 41 year olds on here having babies naturally but all the women that are 42 and that I’ve known on here over the years have never gotten there rainbow. I don’t think I’ve seen one. I see them pregnant but then they lose.
And from 43 it’s basically saying to use donner eggs. So that just gives me no hope.
it’s so frustrating because I did fall twice. So I thought I must be still very fertile to fall. Back when I was 40 I was falling pregnant every 2 months but then losing.
Then we was only trying this time for 2 months and I fell then I fell agian 2 cycles later:
And now it’s been nearly 4 cycles since my miscarriage and I haven’t fallen.
I’m definitely ovulating every month because I temp just until after ovulation then I stop temping. But my temp shoots up at 1dpo and I get strong ovulation pains etc so I am definitely ovulating. I don’t know maybe I just don’t have any good eggs anymore. It’s so hard to stay positive when all u get is loss or BFNs.
Maybe I should just count my blessings and stop now I don’t know. Always feel very negative at this point in the cycle.
It’s just so crappy.
Good luck this cycle love.

@Laurabub84
Bottom is peak good luck love.


So I tested again with wondfo 10mlU and Frer and Aplan and all BFN.
AF normally shows at 15dpo but didn’t until 17dpo last cycle.
Feeling so so down

 

[Suggerhoney]

Nothing on the FRER. Absolutely gutted.

I don’t understand it, I had really clear lines on those other tests and ones from that batch before the last day or two had been very obviously negative so there’s no reason to think it’s dodgy tests.

Oh no I am so so sorry love. Trust me I know how you feel. Getting lines and then BFN sucks big time. I also just did a Frer and another Aplan or whatever those ones with the white handle are called and also a wondfo 10mlU and all BFN. It’s such a horrible feeling. I’m sending you big hugs hon.

@Suggerhoney I still have faith that your precious rainbow is coming. I’m so sorry for the recent losses. I wish I could hug you too!

Awwww hon thank you. I really do hope your right and I sincerely hope and pray you get your rainbow too. Let’s hope we both get extra sticky healthy BFPs soon love, fx so hard.

 

[josephine3]

Ahhh @jellybeanxx how can the frer be negstive after that obvious line??!! I felt so sure that was your bfp!!
@Suggerhoney sorry about all the bfns I'm still hoping you're in with a chance this cycle.
Finally catching up here after work.. Test this morning looked bfn, this eve Im not sure. Anyone ever stare a test/tests so much you genuinely have no idea anymore if there a line or not?! That's kinda where I'm at with this one!

 

[HalfricanMa]

@josephine3 I totally know what you mean because DH and I have done that this afternoon! I don’t know that I see anything on yours but I’ve made myself cross-eyed trying to see the faint line DH says he saw. Haha!
Do you get better lines in the evening or in the morning?