So I am 9dpo today and took a FRER test this morning...BFN. I dont know why but this evening I took a first signal cheapie, and while it looks initially like a BFN I felt like I saw the faintest of a pink line in the test area. It was so faint though and only in really good lighting that I think I may have line eye. Im so sad because I want to get pregnant again fast.
Oh and to Raw Foodie, don't feel bad about those feelings. I honestly have them too. The night I had my MC my nurse at the hospital was pregnant. It hurt me so bad every time she would come in. She was so nice, but it hurt so bad to see her. Also my sister in law is pregnant, she has no income and a drug addict boyfriend. She doesnt try to work, and has a barely functioning vehicle. It frustrates me that she is having a baby but my husband and I who have a great marriage, stable income, steady jobs, and good morals are struggling to have a baby.